So you really think talking about your problems does nothing?

If you’ve read my past blogs, you know that I spent 5 years as a Massage Therapist, and my insight has been that the physical is the last place problems manifest.  Unfortunately for most people, problems are not addressed until the physical calls out to them- an ache, a pain, a stiff neck.  These are not the inconveniences we think they are.  They are Messages.  And when you don’t listen, they become LOUDER.  When they become loud enough, some people may see a doctor.  Other people end up on a massage table.

Some issues were relatively simple at first glance.  Of course, administrative workers came in with neck and shoulder problems, atheletes came in with sore muscles , and waitresses came in with stiff backs from standing and carrying heavy plates. Their pain made sense in a practical way, but that’s not where the problems started.  Each person had their aches and pains, but they also had a story.  This is where the Message Therapy comes in.

Rule of thumb in massage- the client is there to relax, not to chat with you.  I would turn down the lighting, put on relaxing music, and start my work– and my clients started talking.  They didn’t just talk, they were animated in their story-telling, and even passionate. There’s something special about saying something out loud and hearing it in our own voice.  This is where the healing began. My clients would suddenly have insights and come up with solutions they’d never considered.  Some of them would simply let out a sigh of relief at having unloaded a heavy emotional burden.  All of them received what they needed to heal and let go of the pain they were holding on to.

When I hear people say talking about their problems does nothing, I can’t help but shake my head.  The funny thing is, I hear this kind of thing most often from frustrated, disgruntled people who don’t talk about their problems.  Of course, I respect that they may not be at a point where they are ready to heal.  Sometimes of our lessons here are hard to take, and we avoid them by building boundaries and being defensive.  Some may never be ready to face them.

I have seen people transform right before my eyes,

just from sharing a story or confessing a worry.

Just seeing a look of recognition in they face of another human being when voicing our emotions can be transformative.  Talking about our problems helps us relieve stress, come up with new insights, create a sense of community with others, and validates our feelings, to name a few benefits.  It helps us get perspective.  It helps us feel less alone and isolated.  Might I also mention that those of my clients who did tend to open the floodgates would get better faster?

Massage really was the gateway I had to walk through to get how the process works for us stubborn humans.  We feel depressed but we tell ourselves we are fine.  We stay in situations that are detrimental to our mental health.  All the while, we know what must be done, remaining blissfully ignorant until it reaches the physical level, where we can no longer ignore that something wrong!  We may try to get rid of it with a pill, but if there’s a Message for you in the pain, it will persist until you get it.  Most people will put themselves through enormous amounts of suffering before they are willing to address the underlying problem.  That’s how far the lies we tell ourselves can go.  Speaking your Truth really is the best medicine.

Trusting in Your Guidance

When you make the commitment to follow Spirit, you must understand that you have entered into a very personal relationship that requires attention and continual trust. You will have many instances where your guidance does not follow any line of logic, but you must trust it!

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William Adolphe Bouguereau’s “Dream of Spring”

A couple of weeks ago, I was having a visit with a friend. We stopped in a natural food store, and upon walking in I noticed some free publications- one of which was Wisdom–  a spiritual magazine. Since leaving the Boston area, I had not been able to find it anywhere. I was so excited! After shopping, we went to have lunch, and as we waited for the food to arrive, I poured through the pages of this awesome resource. As I looked through the ads for people offering services of a psychic nature, one word stood out to me- Lightarian. I didn’t know what it referred to, or meant at the time, but I know when something stands out to me in this way, Spirit is trying to get my attention. I spoke the word out loud, and asked my friend if she knew what it was about. She didn’t seem to have any reference points either, so we moved on and had a nice lunch.

The next stop I had on my list was to a place called The Sanctuary, a spiritual shop that carries things like books, oracle decks, jewelry and although I didn’t know it at the time, a variety of classes. We walked around, and explored the little nooks and crannies of the store. The woman at the desk started to ask us some friendly questions. The word, “Lightarian” popped into my head, and although I had no idea what I was asking, I asked. “Do you have anyone here who does Lightarian work?” “Yes, as a matter of fact we do!” was the response. It was quite surprising! She went on to tell me about something called AngelLinks, and a brochure that explains it further. I left my name, and asked if I could be contacted when the next class was being offered.

It wasn’t too long before I received a call from the facilitator, Amy Marino, to explain more about what AngelLinks was all about. She had left a voicemail, and as I was getting ready to call back my thoughts started to turn toward how I would be able to afford to take these classes that I knew I was supposed to take. I decided immediately that if I had to take it one-on-one, I would need to schedule the attunements over 5 months (there are 5 attunements). I called her back, and she explained a bit more about the process, and that she was planning on having the classes over a 5 month period to make it more affordable for people! This was an incredible confirmation that my connection to Spirit was very clear!

I’m happy to say that I booked that class and received my first attunement on Valentine’s Day. I’m looking forward to the next 4!

Had I tried to rationalize any of this, it would not have happened. I had to follow what I was being shown. It’s been over a period of months that my attention has been drawn toward the angelic realm, but nothing had presented itself for me as an action step. I had to wait. Impatience is a hard thing to pair with Spirit! Spirit works in its own time.

As always, my words are meant to serve as an example, not direction. You must always trust your own guidance, and be patient. There is no end-game. This is a never-ending journey.

Let me call you sweetheart

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again– when Spirit wants to send us a message, it always finds a way.

For the last few days I’ve been hearing “Let me call you sweetheart,” gently streaming through my mind.  This was a song that my grandfather used to like to sing.  It was soft, not too much of a nudge, but it was there and made me think of him and the time in my life that to this day I consider the best time of my life.

I recently became a listener of iTunes Radio, which is a nice change of pace from scrolling through my personal library of music over and over. Since my taste in music is very eclectic, I have quite a few stations that you’d be surprised to see alongside one another. Today, I decided to create a new station, so I typed in “Let me call you sweetheart” and let the music play.

Oh what a different time it was when songs like this were popular. I found myself flying through my work at a very steady pace with artists like Perry Como, Patti Page and The McGuire Sisters, reminding me of a more gentle time in the background. I thought about being a little girl in my grandparent’s North End apartment, and how every time I turned on the bathroom light, the radio would turn on and I would hear all of these artists and more.  Then my thoughts turned toward my grandmother and how much I’ve missed her every single day of my life since she went Home in 1983.  It always brings me back to myself when I think of her. She was the only person in the world who I ever felt truly understood me. She never had an unkind word, although she was a tough cookie.  She’s the one who taught me how to tidy my room, saying things like, “if you take care of your things, you’ll always have new things.”  I thought about how my life would have been different if she was still with me.

And then, all of a sudden, there it was.

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod


My grandmother saying hello, through a song.  A song that came because I listened to my grandfather saying, “let me call you sweetheart.” She hears me.  She knows I’m still at her favorite place, Cape Cod.

When your loved ones are trying to reach out to you, they will use whatever means necessary to do so. My grandmother knows me so well, and can give me messages easily, but she never does!  She still remains that wonderful, fun Gramma that wants me to be as surprised now as I was when I was a little girl. She knows that even though I can hear her, there are times when I need to see something in the physical world that shows me I’m not alone.  And believe me, she loves to see the look on my face when she does the things she does to reach me. They are always ridiculously hard to ignore and absolutely perfect in the way they come to me.

So, why do I write about these things and share them with people on the web?  It’s simple. I’m the person people talk to when something amazing happens to them and they think they are nuts.  When the story is followed by the quesiton, “do you think it was “so and so” trying to send me a message?” I can’t help but share my own experiences.

It’s been said that for those who believe, no proof is necessary, and for those who do not, no proof will be sufficient.  This is one of those things for most people.  What you know in your heart, is your own truth. It is yours, and no one else’s.  Don’t let that truth become less than the beautiful light it is because a third-part perspective cannot see, feel or understand what you know in your heart.

Even when I’m sure everyone in the Spirit world is busy with other things, they make it known to me that I am never forgotten.

What better gift could I ask for?

The Path is before you. You need only to shine your Light upon it.

The beauty of the Spirit world is that no matter where we find ourselves, it is always present with us.  This can be a hard concept to grasp, as most of us are much more familiar with the physical world where the Eiffel tower is in France, and the Empire State Building is in NY.  But when it comes to Spirit, no matter where you find yourself, Spirit has already found you!

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The Path is before you.

You need only to shine your Light upon it.

A couple of weeks ago, I was looking through a local paper, and saw that there was going to be a Native American Harvest event in a neighboring town.  I looked closer, and saw that it was centered around the American Girl Doll.  “Hmm,” I thought.  Until I read that part, I was considering going.  My brain surmized that it wouldn’t be the place for me.

Fast foward to Saturday, Nov 8.  I was looking through the paper again, and there it was, again!  I realized this was not a coincidence.  As I considered the possibility of going to the event, my attention turned to the television in the background- tuned to the Science Channel’s “How it’s Made.”  After the commercial break, the first image on the screen was a Native American drum, followed how it’s made, of course!.  I watched as native people stretched the wet cow hide across the wooden base of the drum- all of it made by hand.  It was another nudge from Spirit, and I knew it.  Even though I would have liked to stay in my pajamas and snuggle with my Sadie (my affection-loving pitbull rescue) I knew it was time to get up.

Lately,I have been making an effort to follow the whisperings of Spirit, instead of just listening, and dismissing them with my ego’s judgment.  This is something of a confession itelf, as the main thing I teach people is to trust their intuition.  In truth, it’s not that I don’t trust it. That’s not it at all.  It’s that I have a choice to do something other than what it’s telling me.  The good thing about a true sign is that it will keep repeating until we listen.  This was going on the third sign– first I saw the listing, two weeks later, I saw it again, and then the making of the drum on tv.

Over the past month or so, I’ve actively been working toward developing a ministry.  As you may know, I’m an Ordained Minister for Our Lord & Lady of the Trinacrian Rose Church.  My mind told me that it was best to keep quiet about this part of me because in my mainstream job and family life it’s not something that everyone is comfortable with.  That’s the ego part of me, trying to protect me, in theory, but in actuality– holding me back.  Luckily for me, with age comes wisdom and my intuition quickly showed me all of the times I was accepting of others around me with various lifestyles, occupations and beliefs.  Yes, I get the message, and yes, it is time I started listening. It was time for me to expose this part of myself to the world, or rather, for the world to finally be exposed to the loving energy of who I am.

I drove to the event, and realizing it was in an Episcopal Church, almost backed out.   I did grow up Christian, but Catholic, and didn’t know much about Episcopalian Churches, except that women were allowed to be ministers.  I wiped the thought out of my mind that I didn’t belong there, and walked right into the hall behind the Church, itself.  I was greeted by warm smiles from some very lovely older ladies, who welcomed me and told me I didn’t need a reservation, and to come on in.  I paid the admission fee and grabbed a program.

As I walked into the hall, I noticed it was full of round tables, each occupied by women of all ages, mostly ages 2-10!  What was I doing here again?  I kept walking, tuning into my intuition very keenly.  “Where should I sit?” I asked silently.  I was directed to circle back around, and to take a seat next to a man who looked about 50 with glasses and a gray beard.  The Native American drummers were in the center of the room, so I had a great view no matter where I sat.  I explained that I had come alone and asked if I could sit at the table.  He smiled and invited me to sit next to him.  He was there with his mother and his little daughter.  We began talking and I found out that not only was he into going to Pow-Wows, and had lived in New Mexico just to be closer to the native culture, he was…. one of us!  While we were not entirely of the same system of spiritual practices, we saw eye-to-eye on many points.  After the drumming was over, the conversation turned toward my position as a Minister and the true reason for the conversation came about.  He turned to me and said,” no matter who it is, I can talk to anyone, anywhere about spirituality in any form.”  This was pivotal, because it’s a message I’ve heard from my own Guides over and over. It finally occurred to me that my ministry was already in practice– just not the kind I was tryng to fit into.

Another bit of wisdom shared with me by my Guides came back to me in this moment: Every soul is important.  If everyone on earth became enlightened except for 5 souls, it would be every bit as important to Heaven to reach out to those 5 souls as it had been to reach all of the others.  In Heaven, the absense of one soul is felt by all. The same way a Shepherd leaves the flock to find the one sheep that is lost, Heaven finds a way to reach a soul seeking the light. To help one, is no less than to help a thousand. I had been judging my work as a minister to be less because it took place quietly, and usually between myself and one or two others at a time who found their way to me.

I hope my experience speaks to you. If you are reading this, it surely is meant to touch you in some way.  And in that spirit, I ask you this– how many times have you hidden the very core of yourself to ‘protect’ others from being offended or uncomfortable (real or perceived)?  How long have you remained silent about your beliefs or the way you really feel about something in order to keep from rocking the boat?  The time has come, my fellow Souls, to step forward from the Shadows, and BE THE LIGHT.  There are many, many others like us out there, who need to be shown that it is safe to be who they are.  We are everywhere!  We are in hospitals, law enforcement, schools, businesses, and the list goes on.  By hiding your light, you are re-affirming that it is acceptable for you to be less than you are.  The more we stay quiet, the more we are saying, ‘it is okay to dismiss me. I have nothing to offer.”   The real truth is, the more of us that give our community a voice, the closer we become to helping the world see that there is nothing to fear from people who are ‘different.’   It only matters that we come from a place of Love and repect. This is such an important part of our Human-ness, and evolution.  Please, move into your light.  You are not only denying yourself the beauty you have within, you are denying others the opportunity to see and feel that beauty.

Namaste, my fellow Souls.

 

Have You Heard?

Confessions of a Spirit Messenger isn’t just a blog, it’s a radio show!  I can be heard every Tuesday night at 7:30pm on blogtalkradio.com!  If you missed the last show, you can still listen to it in the archives.

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“A Catholic Witch?  A Pagan Christian?”

(Some technical difficulty starting the show, so forgive the clicking of my mousepad as I start off!)

 

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Weaving Intuitive information into your everyday life.

Confessions of a Spirit Messenger has finally returned to the airwaves!  As of right now, you can hear me live, every Tuesday night at 7:30pm EST on blogtalkradio.   Tune in and join the chatroom to talk to other listeners and ask me questions that I will answer live.  All past shows are available through the archives, so you’ll never miss a beat.

 

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The Itsy Bitsy Spider

It’s been almost a year since I made my decision to move to Cape Cod.  In that time, many changes have taken place.  One thing hasn’t changed– the amount of pressure I put on myself to figure out what I want to be when I grow up!

Time and time again, I’ve asked Spirit– as I’m sure all of you have– to give me some insight on what career path best suits me, and how to ensure that I am financially secure.  And like many of you, I don’t feel like I’ve figured it out yet.  I will admit, I have a lack of patience in this department, and although I know there are many possibilities, my human need for security keeps me from veering too far off the beaten path.

One of the things I struggle with is finding my place in the world, which is far more important to me than you might think.  If I knew that, I could pick the right job, or  career path, and finally feel peaceful about my choices, right?  I often observe society’s belief that to be successful is to find a goal and pursue it.  It would seem that it’s the ‘doing’ part of us, that ‘masculine’ energy that is most valued.  This frustrated me, because  I’ve found that any attempt to merge with that energy did not yield results for me.  There has always been a feeling of resistence deep in my heart.  Something that knows this is not my way, or my place in the world.

Spirit heard my thoughts, and in a short time, signs began to appear.

One day I came into work and noticed several spider webs outside my window.   Each was perfectly shaped, and positioned in a way that was in a corner, not flush against the actual glass of the window.  I let myself be still, and take in this amazing creation.  I knew it was a sign, but I wasn’t yet sure how to make sense of it.   At home, I noticed that at the most inopportune moments, a spider would land on me!  This happened one night in particular, as I lay propped up in bed in the dark, watching TV.  All was quiet, and suddenly a spider lowered itself from the ceiling right in between my glasses and my face!   OK! OK! I’m listening!

I had read so much about animal signs, but the ones about Spider just didn’t make sense to me.  Then it hit me…. the webs.   Because my question was specifically about how to go about finding my place, I was missing a very important point.  You see, a spider doesn’t chase its prey.  A spider creates its web, and waits for its prey to come along and become entangled it.  I had been arguing with Spirit that ‘this is about survival,’ and I need to act!

In an instant it became clear.  I heard the soft whisper of my guides.

“Prepare, and be patient,’ they whispered.  ‘Doesn’t a spider need to eat in order to survive? And yet, they spin their web and wait.  They do not panic and try to chase.  This is their way.’

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.

 

 

And with that, everything shifted.  I stopped feeling guilty that I wasn’t aggressive enough.  I ceased grinding my teeth over how it felt wrong for me to push and fight, and to take what I wanted.  It’s not my way, and that’s okay.  Humans make these judgements about what is right and wrong.  Nature just is.  We cannot all be fierce hunters, and we are not all supposed to be.  My nature, my way, is different, and there was no sense in fighting it, or apologizing for it. I don’t know about you, but I’ve never seen a fly make fun of a spider because it’s just sitting there instead of chasing it.  Nor have I heard of a spider that keeps itself up at night because it’s not a good hunter!

So there, my friends, you have it-  a simple sign that brought me great peace, understanding and brought me back to the beauty of the web of life.   Always know that there is wisdom in all creation, and nothing is a mistake.  The very thing you find to be a flaw in yourself, can be the very thing that saves you when you least expect it!

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