Spiritual Guidance that comes in dreams
Just before I moved to Florida, something very unexpected happened. At the time, I was living exactly where I had always wanted to be. I had an amazing soul dog, and was in a long-term relationship, though it was admittedly turbulent. In short, I finally felt somewhat settled after my divorce, which involved relocating back to Massachusetts from Texas. I had to make a huge decision, and I didn’t know what to do.
The logistics were that the house my partner and I lived in was going to be sold, along with another piece of property his family owned, in order for all of them to permanently relocate to Florida. My folks already had property there and planned on doing the same at some point as well. I wrestled with the thought of having to leave the only place in the world that felt like Home in my Soul, and yet if I didn’t, I’d be left there all alone while everyone else I loved moved away.
It was April of 2015. My sleep was interrupted several times by a Spirit Voice, who wanted me to be sure I remembered his name. It’s important to note here that I had set up with my guides, that if ever I had a dream with a message in it, I would wake up so I would remember it. This was important. So important I woke up twice during the night, and still could hear him saying ‘don’t forget my name,’ when I woke up that morning. This was a name that many in the metaphysical world know. His insistence was that people did not pronounce it properly was very interesting. He appears as masculine to me, though lots of books claim he is female. He is the angel said to be associated with Music in Heaven. I was very well-read on Angels at the time, and I’m betting most of you know the author whose work was considered the ‘go-to’ on the subject. Sadly, I was still at a point in my mystical journey when I chose to believe outside sources over my own direct incoming information. A lot of it contradicted the books, so I assumed I wasn’t getting it correctly. Turns out, lots of other people weren’t getting it right- OR, they were not sharing the truth. It’s a bit of a thing for people to hide or dispense opposite information when it’s from a higher sources in an effort to remain ‘powerful,’ and in the know, in order to feel special or superior to others. It took me some time, but I figured it out. I hadn’t wanted to believe that people were really that way. Many are.
Not long after, I received a dream, or moreso a vision. Without getting into too much detail, a whole scenario was laid out before me, assuring me that ‘someone or something was waiting for me,’ in Florida. It gave me some kind of purpose and something to look forward to. After that dream, I woke up and bought my plane ticket.
I arrived here in Southwest Florida with no plan at all. I had quit my job, because the closest office I could transfer to is in Tampa, which is at least 3 hours away. I was compelled to join a ‘church,’ which was actually a church of New Thought, in the tradition of Louise Hay, the founder of Hayhouse Publishing. I sat in the front row one Sunday, and heard a familiar Spirit Voice say, ‘you should ask to join the band, and sing.’ Knowing better than to argue, but still curious I responded with ‘why?’ The reply was simple. ‘This is going to lead you somewhere.’ So, I inquired about the ‘church band.’
They were happy to have someone interested in participating in the service, but once they heard me sing, they were thrilled! Once again, I had assumed people were just being nice when they said I had a nice voice. They immediately started giving me lead parts and before long I had an offer from a local band who needed to replace their singer. I didn’t take any of this seriously, but I did take them up on their offer, figuring it would be fun to do. Over time, more and more people approached me with opportunities and one by one, they started to build something that I never imagined would be.
Fast forward to today. I’ve been a professional vocalist here in Southwest Florida, full-time, for the last 7 years. I take no credit for this. I defied this calling and tried to take ‘normal’ jobs, which all proved to be horrendous. It took another ‘act of God’ which I will not go into in this particular blog, for me to finally stop fighting it, walk away from the terrible office job I had, and make performing my full time job.
I offer you my true stories here to help you with your own journey. You see that in some instances it’s easy to accept the information and trust it, while in others there is a fear that it may not be ‘right,’ or that there’s not enough evidence to accept it is real. Once you finally surrender your fear, and step into your knowing, this becomes a non-issue. My mind tricked me over and over into thinking I wasn’t special enough to hear the voice of Spirit. I was surrounded by people who didn’t believe me, which caused me so much distress I not only hid my gifts I tried to suppress them. This is all about the journey. And no, it’s not easy. Yes, it will test you.
Here is my parting wisdom. When you have everything you want, God is there. When everything is taken away from you and you have nothing. God is still there. God is the only thing that has never left me. God is the only thing that has never lead me astray. I had to lose everything to know this information, and be able to tell it to you. You may need to lose everything to believe it, but if you’re reading these words, can can feel their truth, you don’t have to. I hope you can learn from the experiences I share, so you don’t have to touch the fire for yourself to know it burns. Know God is always there, and that you are loved beyond any measure that exists in this world.
Confessions of a Spirit Messenger 