A Day in the Life

•October 18, 2025 • 1 Comment

When you live a life guided by Spirit, it looks very different from the average life. I say this because, to most other humans, it would seem very peculiar to take direction from an unseen place, over the world that is swirling around them every single day. For me, it starts immediately. After getting dressed, I select my jewelry- which is mostly comprised of crystals. I let my eye be drawn to the stones that will best support me that day, without knowing why or what the day will hold for me. For example, when my eyes are drawn to my lapis lazuli earrings, I know that at some point in my day, I will come across someone who will need to hear a message from Spirit, and I will have to articulate it perfectly, so it is well-received.

Over the last week I was drawn to a pendant I bought years ago at a shop in Salem, MA. It was peridot and prehnite. I had just visited with my Mentor who happens to be the famous Reverend Lori Bruno, Italian Strega and High Priestess (https://www.magika.org/about-lori-bruno/). At the time, she was working with me to be more accepting of having the gift of prophecy. Prehnite is known as the stone of prophecy, so I bought the pendant to remind me that it is part of my path, and to honor it when the occasion arises. That was back in 2012. Fast forward to this week, and I just felt that calling, so I wore it, and I listened to what was coming through for me regarding how to be of service using my gifts in my current life circumstances.

Full disclosure- although I’ve done readings in the past, I have not actively taken appointments in the last couple of years. I am not really interested in running a business solo, so I have mostly done my work quietly with people in my immediate community, one on one, or through the meetup group I briefly ran. Lately, the Messengers are urging me to consider ‘coming out,’ again. I sat at my desk, and let my hand be guided to a deck of cards. This particular deck was a gift- a collection of cards, lovingly detailed with a painting as well as an affirmation for one of my most treasured tools, Young Living Essential Oils & Blends. I pulled the card that most tugged at me. Pictured below:

The talented artist of this deck goes by the name “Poet” Her work can be found on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/ArtForThePlaneet?ref=l2-about-shopname&from_page=listing

I held this card and remembered another spiritual teacher, Boni Oian (https://www.claimyourlifewithboni.com/meet-boni/), who gave me the most incredible Akashic Records reading back in 2009. I wanted to know my life’s purpose, and she certainly shocked me when she said I wouldn’t have just one job, I would have many, and I wouldn’t stay in one place. In my family, we called this being a ‘gypsy,’ so this image feels like Home in my spirit. I gazed at it and reminded myself I was on track, and I just had to keep answering ‘the call.’ Life would be full of stops and starts, as well as variety. I had been at a stop for a bit too long, perhaps, and this was my soul’s way to move me forward again.

Today, I set out to do one thing, and that one thing did not pan out for me. I arrived at a local shop to find that the entire parking lot was occupied by vendors, holding an event, which prevented me from being able to find parking and that meant my task would have to wait. In the meantime, I had been wanting to visit a crystal shop that was on the way home, so I decided to recalibrate and do that instead. When I arrived at the shop, a young lady was getting a reading, so I tried to quietly look around without interrupting. My Spirit wanted to be social and share who I was, but my Human pulled me back and I just pretended to be a typical shopper. A ring caught my eye. I put it on, put it back, and put it on again. It was pretty but I didn’t know what the stone was. It was rutilated and a light green. I moved to the next place my eye was drawn to, and kept shopping for another 10-15 minutes. I found a very cool tarot box, and a stand for a crystal egg I had at home already, and was on my way. Half way home, I looked at my hand…. I had forgotten all about the ring! I never took it off, and I didn’t realize it was on my finger til I was fidgeting with my steering wheel cover. I immediately turned around, and I knew why this happened. It was not conscious!

My guides chimed in: You didn’t tell them who you are, or leave them a card? Why? Are you afraid? In all the places you COULD share this side of you, THIS was the one. I laughed to myself the way a little girl would, if she got caught trying to hide in a corner when she knew full well she should be front and center. I went back in the shop, and told them I forgot I had the ring on, and to please charge me for it.

This is where it gets really funny. Do you want to guess the mystery stone that was in the ring? Uh huh, it was Prehnite! Please refer to the beginning of this post in case you already forgot! In the meantime, there it was– the nudge. “Ask the customer what she does for work.” Okay, here we go! They brought me back here for a reason. Her share lead me to sharing, and that’s the segue that lead to, ‘by the way, I am also a Spirit Messenger…” and how I left my card there. My Human had tried to shrink and be small, but my Spirit and the Guides were not having any of it. This is a constant challenge for me, even after all these years on the path. It is definitely a journey!

You have to understand, that I’ve always known my soul’s purpose in human form is to be a messenger, and that means always being open to and listening to Spirit’s call. I cannot close down. I can take time to myself, yes, but a life lived in service to Spirit is just that. I am not on the trajectory of human ambition, and I am not motivated by money. These things are so contrary to modern life that my way of being makes no sense to people, and I am okay with that. I know who I answer to, and I know who I am. Not needing validation from other humans can sometimes make them think I’m aloof or conceited, but it’s simply obedience to a Higher Order and Authority. It’s a Calling.

But that’s not all! I walked outside and noticed the vehicle next to me, a Jeep, was full of colorful ducks. I walked closer (see photo below). Please tell me you see what I see. That word that I mentioned earlier? The one that is full of meaning for my family, and tied to my life’s purpose?

There it was– Gypsy! Spirit sent me back to do what I didn’t do, and made sure I saw my symbol. Words, animals, objects, artwork– all of it becomes a language when you work with Spirit. Once meaning is established, it only takes a flash to convey what would take up to 5 minutes to verbalize and explain using words.

Sometimes we think we are drawn to someone because there’s a message for them, but it turns out that someone else IS the message for us!

I share this story because this is truly how Spirit works. We are living in a society that demands instant gratification and immediate answers to questions. Spirit communication often takes time to reveal the true meaning. Finding out the stone was my first confirmation. The conversation with the customer was the second. The sticker on the Jeep was the third. All I had to do was listen and follow the guidance but my human took over and Spirit found a way for me to end up right where I belonged by having me absent-mindedly put on a ring in a shop. You can’t make this stuff up!

Now do you believe you’re never alone, and you’re always being watched over?

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Spirit Messages Through Music

•March 27, 2025 • Leave a Comment

If you are the type of person who is musically inclined in any way, this post is for you!

*Please note, I use the terms God and Creator interchangeably in my writings and encourage you to insert your own preferred language when reading this, as it pertains to your journey.

About 9 years ago, I started waking up with songs in my head, out of nowhere. Sometimes they are songs I know. Other times it’s a snippet of a song that is vaguely familiar, and I have to do some legwork to figure out what it is. And once in a while– they are unwritten songs, that I am given a few notes of, so that I can bring them to life in the world. This blog is about one particular song, that came to answer a question.

As I lay in my bed, drifting out of a deep sleep, and adjusting to wakefulness, a song was playing in my head. It was both catchy and familiar. It was one of those songs that you sing when it plays on the radio, knowing every word without knowing how it become one with your brain without your permission.

“Hey now, Hey now- Don’t Dream It’s Over.”

Ahhhh yes… Crowded House. That fabulous 80s music came rushing back into my mind, along with all the memories of pushing play and record when songs like these came on the radio so I could listen to them any time I wanted. I knew it was a message, and it did seem to revolve around some questions I was having about where my life was going, or if it was going anywhere. I had given up on finding love. I had given up on trying to find even one sane person in the state of Florida who wasn’t going to leave for another state a year into the friendship. Nothing seemed stable. I was living in a state of suspended animation. I wasn’t dead, but it felt like I wasn’t living anymore.

I was today years old, when I finally recognized what the message was. Yes, it was a message of hope and that life wasn’t over, but it was so much more profound than that. As I listened to this song for the millionth time, putting on my makeup in the mirror, it hit me, and I was stunned. This song is a like an explanation or a conversation with God. Hear me out.

Take the first verse:

"There is freedom within There is freedom without Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup There's a battle ahead Many battles are lost But you'll never see the end of the road While you're travelling with me"

There IS freedom within and without- in Spirit Form- and when we take that tiny piece of consciousness and incarnate as humans, it’s very much like trying to capture a deluge in a paper cup! As long as we remember our connection back to Creator and all that is, we know there’s no real end of the road. We are eternal.

"Hey now, hey now Don't dream it's over Hey now, hey now When the world comes in They come, they come To build a wall between us We know they won't win"

As Spirit coming into form, we dream that Oneness is ‘over.’ We feel that separation as real. The world builds a wall between us– this line is almost as if God is letting us know that it’s an temporary illusion or a dream.

"Now I'm towing my car There's a hole in the roof My possessions are causing me suspicion But there's no proof"

As we move about the world, we become attached to it. Our worldly possessions and the pursuit to obtain and keep them become our manmade ‘gods’. Here, it’s us acknowledging that we think something is wrong, but it’s so normal to behave this way that we have no proof that’s the reason why.

"In the paper today Tales of war and of waste But you turn right over to the TV page"

We become overburdened, exhausted in our earthly pursuits, so we choose and earthly solution to that- escapism, possibly addiction and a distraction so we can feel better without changing our habits.

"Hey now, hey now Don't dream it's over Hey now, hey now When the world comes in They come, they come To build a wall between us We know they won't win"

Again, God is answering us– that everything is just a temporary state, a dream. In the end, we are still whole, still Spirit, and still One.

"Now I'm walking again To the beat of a drum And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart Only shadows ahead Barely clearing the roof Get to know the feeling of liberation and release"

At some point we realize we let ourselves become lost, and we try to find our way again. We get back in tune with that frequency we came here with, and we seek to move closer to Creator again. We recognize that even though in human form we don’t have a clear sense of where we are going, we rest in that trust that we are guided by that Higher Power, and we feel that sense of ‘liberation and release,’ as we lay down that burden of having to do it all ourselves, and to move closer to the Heart of God.

When we incarnate in human form, we are faced with something we don’t have in our true form– Free Will. We are allowed to step outside Divine Order so we can see how our choices affect this construct of reality. We see that although the connections between all living things are always present, our human identity sees only its ego and without that higher vantage point of Spirit, we do not know the effects of our seemingly innocent choices until there are consequences. When we look back on our lives, we may think of these choices as ‘mistakes,’ because of the unintended effects they had on us our others. Once again, these choices simply provide us with the experiences. The profoundness of this last verse lies in the Truth that is and has always been. Even in human form, with Free Will, the choice to live a life that is Divine Order is always on the table but we give into the temptation of our ego that we know better. We think that we have this ‘power’ to make choices is a way to rise to some sort of status that outranks the other humans at the least, and if we go even further, to outrank the wisdom of Creator.

There’s another message here that’s important. For anyone who thinks they are unredeemable due to the many awful choices you may have made in your life– you are always welcome back into the arms of God. When we get caught up in our Free Will, we start doing it all without Him. We leave God out of the process, by our choice, but by our choice we can bring it all back together again. Ultimately, the purpose of the exercise is simple. The only thing God wants, is for you to choose Him.

That’s how you break out of the Matrix.

It’s always on the table, we just have to choose it.

And that song, that realization, in an instant, took my breath away. I believe this message was meant for more than me.

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Spiritual Guidance that comes in dreams

•March 27, 2025 • Leave a Comment

Just before I moved to Florida, something very unexpected happened. At the time, I was living exactly where I had always wanted to be. I had an amazing soul dog, and was in a long-term relationship, though it was admittedly turbulent. In short, I finally felt somewhat settled after my divorce, which involved relocating back to Massachusetts from Texas. I had to make a huge decision, and I didn’t know what to do.

The logistics were that the house my partner and I lived in was going to be sold, along with another piece of property his family owned, in order for all of them to permanently relocate to Florida. My folks already had property there and planned on doing the same at some point as well. I wrestled with the thought of having to leave the only place in the world that felt like Home in my Soul, and yet if I didn’t, I’d be left there all alone while everyone else I loved moved away.

It was April of 2015. My sleep was interrupted several times by a Spirit Voice, who wanted me to be sure I remembered his name. It’s important to note here that I had set up with my guides, that if ever I had a dream with a message in it, I would wake up so I would remember it. This was important. So important I woke up twice during the night, and still could hear him saying ‘don’t forget my name,’ when I woke up that morning. This was a name that many in the metaphysical world know. His insistence was that people did not pronounce it properly was very interesting. He appears as masculine to me, though lots of books claim he is female. He is the angel said to be associated with Music in Heaven. I was very well-read on Angels at the time, and I’m betting most of you know the author whose work was considered the ‘go-to’ on the subject. Sadly, I was still at a point in my mystical journey when I chose to believe outside sources over my own direct incoming information. A lot of it contradicted the books, so I assumed I wasn’t getting it correctly. Turns out, lots of other people weren’t getting it right- OR, they were not sharing the truth. It’s a bit of a thing for people to hide or dispense opposite information when it’s from a higher sources in an effort to remain ‘powerful,’ and in the know, in order to feel special or superior to others. It took me some time, but I figured it out. I hadn’t wanted to believe that people were really that way. Many are.

Not long after, I received a dream, or moreso a vision. Without getting into too much detail, a whole scenario was laid out before me, assuring me that ‘someone or something was waiting for me,’ in Florida. It gave me some kind of purpose and something to look forward to. After that dream, I woke up and bought my plane ticket.

I arrived here in Southwest Florida with no plan at all. I had quit my job, because the closest office I could transfer to is in Tampa, which is at least 3 hours away. I was compelled to join a ‘church,’ which was actually a church of New Thought, in the tradition of Louise Hay, the founder of Hayhouse Publishing. I sat in the front row one Sunday, and heard a familiar Spirit Voice say, ‘you should ask to join the band, and sing.’ Knowing better than to argue, but still curious I responded with ‘why?’ The reply was simple. ‘This is going to lead you somewhere.’ So, I inquired about the ‘church band.’

They were happy to have someone interested in participating in the service, but once they heard me sing, they were thrilled! Once again, I had assumed people were just being nice when they said I had a nice voice. They immediately started giving me lead parts and before long I had an offer from a local band who needed to replace their singer. I didn’t take any of this seriously, but I did take them up on their offer, figuring it would be fun to do. Over time, more and more people approached me with opportunities and one by one, they started to build something that I never imagined would be.

Fast forward to today. I’ve been a professional vocalist here in Southwest Florida, full-time, for the last 7 years. I take no credit for this. I defied this calling and tried to take ‘normal’ jobs, which all proved to be horrendous. It took another ‘act of God’ which I will not go into in this particular blog, for me to finally stop fighting it, walk away from the terrible office job I had, and make performing my full time job.

I offer you my true stories here to help you with your own journey. You see that in some instances it’s easy to accept the information and trust it, while in others there is a fear that it may not be ‘right,’ or that there’s not enough evidence to accept it is real. Once you finally surrender your fear, and step into your knowing, this becomes a non-issue. My mind tricked me over and over into thinking I wasn’t special enough to hear the voice of Spirit. I was surrounded by people who didn’t believe me, which caused me so much distress I not only hid my gifts I tried to suppress them. This is all about the journey. And no, it’s not easy. Yes, it will test you.

Here is my parting wisdom. When you have everything you want, God is there. When everything is taken away from you and you have nothing. God is still there. God is the only thing that has never left me. God is the only thing that has never lead me astray. I had to lose everything to know this information, and be able to tell it to you. You may need to lose everything to believe it, but if you’re reading these words, can can feel their truth, you don’t have to. I hope you can learn from the experiences I share, so you don’t have to touch the fire for yourself to know it burns. Know God is always there, and that you are loved beyond any measure that exists in this world.

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Extrasensory Abilities- How does it feel?

•March 25, 2025 • Leave a Comment

To be on your own, with no direction home, like a rolling stone? I’ll tell ya, it’s not the glitz and glamour people imagine it to be!

I pride myself on being honest, so here we go!

Early in my mystical journey, I felt so alone. It was clear that the other kids didn’t know what I was talking about and I sounded strange to them. In an effort to feel connected, I fought hard to push away my gifts. I wanted so badly to fit in and be with the other kids, and yet by not being myself it wasn’t genuine so it still didn’t work for me. I wanted to be myself AND have friends.

It was a long, hard lesson, and I imagine others who are truly on this kind of journey have found out the same thing I did– that most of my time would be spent alone, or more accurately connecting with other realms. The rest of it would include maybe one good friend or partner, and many social situations that I wanted to run away from, screaming inside while I endured them.

The truth is, if you have to pretend to be someone else to fit in, you don’t fit in. You feel even worse, because you’ve let yourself be fooled into thinking you shouldn’t be yourself. While some adaptations are necessary to belong to a civilized society, it has always been my position that when you go home, you should be able to let your guard down and just be. If you don’t have that, you’ll burn out fast, so personal and intimate relationships cannot be the same kind of shallow connections that we entertain in public arenas, the workplace or PTA meetings.

The other aspect that no one talks about is how it feels to know that everyone around you is essentially lying to you and to themselves. Some of the lies are benign, like saying everything is going great- a lie designed to maintain privacy and avoid being the topic of someone’s side conversation. Others are majorly off, like hiding serious issues that require help, but that people keep to themselves for the sake of doing it all alone out of pride. We get lost in the matrix of thinking we have to maintain these facades. For those of us with ‘second sight,’ it’s an exhausting game and it lowers our frequency. If we do this for too long, we get very disoriented by trying to straddle the line between authenticity and conformity for the sake of being part of society.

If we decide to be ourselves, uncensored, there is another set of unintended consequences. People will say things like, ‘what? do you think you’re better than me?’ in response to something simple like telling someone you don’t drink alcohol when they offer you some. One of the worst pitfalls of all time? Saying something very genuinely, that unknowingly flies in the face of someone’s tightly held, deeply ingrained illusion, so much so, that it causes them enough distress to sever the connection with you entirely.

I’ve had encounters with people in social circles where I notice they avert their gaze immediately, as if they sense I can see into them in a place they don’t want me to see. By the way, I’m not a ‘Psychic Peeping Tom,’ so the only threat is one they perceive through fear. My frequency, without saying a word, and having a blank expression, can cause this without any provocation.

My upbringing had me blaming myself, finding fault with myself and internally criticizing my interactions into the wee hours of the evening. In essence, the experiences were traumatizing, but I couldn’t seem to find any way to feel that sense of harmony in any of them. The only blessing I had was that I was always sent one person who would be my ride or die for periods in my life, and that allowed me to have one place where I could put down that heavy burden of keeping my guard up.

Understanding the Truth, rather than finding a convenient label

The absence of Ego, has also posed a problem. My Soul retains the imprint of Oneness, which means hierarchy makes no sense to me and all are my equals, and they are mine. I had to learn to see the lines in the sand, and find ways to tolerate those who would belittle myself or others out of some kind of ‘status.’ I saw Souls, I didn’t see status. I still don’t. I’ve come to recognize and understand it, but I find it exhausting and unproductive to interact on that level constantly. Competition has always felt repugnant. I didn’t understand sports teams, or even games. I thought they were a waste of time and more enjoyment could be had building things together and being collaborative.

In summation, living a life that is guided by Spirit, or some other force outside of this Earth/Human construct is extremely difficult, and I’ve never understood why others around me who were ‘normal,’ had a modicum of success in society or within a hierarchical structure would want to have this other worldly connection. It took me literal years to realize they saw what I had from THEIR perspective, that is, how it could be used on a 3D playing field, and not for the truth of what it is. In that sense, I only fit in as a parlor trick, novelty friend, or a shoulder to cry on when they were unable to keep their own masks on any longer.

If others see you from their own value system, they will judge your worth and measure you by it. You cannot avoid this. They can’t see you another way unless they expand beyond their tiny bubble. Individuals with expanded awareness and ‘gifts,’ do not fit the typical value system in Earthly societies. We are in this place, but not of it. The only comfort is knowing we came with purpose, and doing our best to serve it. As they say, you can’t speak butterfly language to caterpillar people. That’s not an insult, it’s just not understood.

In whatever your pursuit, please find it in your heart to find ways to be who you are, even for a moment in your day. Do not lose yourself to the artificial ways we group one another. We thrive on connection, not division. It’s wonderful to appreciate the many variations that creation embodies, but they are all fractals of the same light. We all get there on our own terms, but eventually we all come Home to this Light.

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Musings from The Messengers: How to break free of ‘The Matrix’

•March 22, 2025 • Leave a Comment

Hello my fellow sensitive souls. As human beings- especially if you’re an extrasensory human being- every moment of peace is precious in a world where something or someone is waiting to interrupt it.

This may sound like the musings of yet another curmudgeon, trying to impede the progress we’ve made by way of technology. The truth, according to The Messengers, is that technology is not the problem. As with nearly everything else we are gifted with on this planet, it is the way these things are used that causes more chaos and disorder.

You are being distracted to the point of overwhelm, so you may become so tired that you give in to the lowest effort choice, which is always the one that is the least aligned with the Highest Good, and most aligned with Ego.

The Messengers say that we are invited to participate in creation, and by our very nature, this inclination is ever present in the form of our passions. There is confusion around this concept. In a recent session, the sitter asked what was wrong with all of our creations if we were designed to be creative. I asked and was given this answer.

“Humanity is simply being asked to respect Divine Order. For example, you may wish to have a son. That is an act of creation, but when you decide your son should have three arms, and manipulate the very order from which he is created via interfering with genetics, you’re no longer operating within divine order. By its very nature, all of creation is in perfect order. It is only when humans interfere with that order that things become disordered, and cause disharmony.”

In our quest to create, we have let ourselves become ‘Creator’ in the sense that we dismiss the actual Creator and seek to make everything in OUR own image. To a human on an ego-dominant path, this message will sound like a command to bow down and somehow give up your ‘power.’ That is incorrect, as Creator exists without ego, therefore there is no corruption in the motivation for Divine Order.

The Messengers say, ‘No one can ever take away your true power.’ The only power we possess in 3D humanity is our free will choice. The truth is, even in the most dire of situations where you feel you are a complete prisoner, the same choice you had all along, but did not opt-into, is present: you may always surrender your will to Creator.

We are allowed to make our free will choices- only insofar as Creator allows it. Otherwise, you would never have any obstacles, failures or limits to what you can do. Think about it. How many times have you decided that it is your will to be successful in a specific role, only to face enormous resistance with every effort? If you had this power to create reality, limitlessly, you’d see it unfold. That is your proof that what you are enacting is a pure will originating from an ego space, as it ignores the many levels of creation to be in accordance with your own wants and needs. The Authority Structure present in Divine Order is absent of worthiness or value issues, as it is simply a hierarchy of instructions that ensures all of creation operates in its full potential and harmony. There is an absence of Ego.

Characteristics of choices

Stemming from the Ego-dominant Path

To put yourself above others, unless they serve YOUR purpose and concepts.
To think of people as less than you because they operate differently
To label people and put them into categories according to your judgement
To think that the free will of others as a nuisance, and taking action to rob them of it
To see your Faith, religion or spiritual perspective as correct, and all others as incorrect

These are all tools of the Matrix. The things you think will ‘break’ it, move you outside of it, or create a feeling of conquering it, by their very nature, are the actual components that construct the Matrix. The “trick of the devil” is to mix lies with the truth so you become confused and unable to discern what is real, and unfortunately, many humans have fallen prey to this. Once you beLIEve you are the center of the universe and all of creation stems from your own human thoughts despite all of the other humans, you’re back at square one of the game.

The only way to break free of the Matrix is through the Spirit. Once you allow your human to be operated by the higher and highest aspects of your Soul, you are free. The Matrix is a game, and if you are playing it, you’ve already lost. The only way to ‘win’ is not to play. This closed system is not closed. It is only perception or lack thereof that keeps you locked inside of it. Stop playing the game.

The Secret

The secret to the ancient symbol of the spiral can be interpreted simply as the center being a point of consciousness, expanding outward. This Fibonacci sequence is present throughout creation. The truth is, we do not have to break free of anything, as the natural movement in our intelligent Divine Design expands past each point without any effort on the part of the individual point of consciousness. It is only a trick of the ego that makes us think it is so. The Secret truly is to let go, see the Truth, live within Divine Order, and know that we are one, even when we are in a construct that allows us to play with all of our other counterparts as if they are separate. Enjoy the experience, and know you will be moved from it, from the a power far greater than you can imagine in human form.

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Where did all that love go?

•January 9, 2025 • Leave a Comment

Today, I logged onto my social media account and saw a ‘suggested friend.’ I looked at the photo, and saw a little boy who looked exactly like the little boy I used to babysit when I was a young girl. This was his son. It made me take pause, at first, and then a thought occurred to me.

I have lived many years, and loved many. I have cared for those who needed it, and showed up when I was called. I thought, from a spiritual perspective, watching all of that beautiful love pouring forth from my soul, ‘where did all that love go?’

I heard a familiar voice from Spirit say, very matter of factly, “Love is not a possession.” He went on to explain, as is His Way:

“Love is a living thing. It is not something you keep in a drawer. You can’t hold it, and you can’t put it away to enjoy at a later time. In order to grow, Love must be nurtured, watered and fed. It cannot be taken for granted. It cannot be controlled. Love is not a possession.”

I don’t know who needs to see these words today, but I know I had to share them. So many of us have a distorted view of love. We have been taught so many different things that are ‘do’s and don’ts’ according to those who have become ‘internet authority figures,’ who have no more an idea of what is true than those who are seeking the truth. Human beings can only know the truth when we give up the pursuit of trying to own it, as if we are the supreme authority figures of all there is– when the truth is, ‘all that is’ was here long before any of us.

It’s time to recognize that we are all capable of great things, and terrible things. The only difference is in our choices.

Choose to feed and water Love. Choose to step away from that which causes harm. Choose what makes life grow. Choose to step away from chaos and disorder. Know there is an actual Truth, that needs not defending, nor earthly proof. The truth is known to us, not by evidence nor any logical manner, as it cannot be fully understood at the level of the frequency of the mind. It is known deep within, in our Spirit. Go within and ‘Know.’

Have a blessed day, and share these words with those who need to hear them.

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Ancient things are most vulnerable during times of revolution

•October 1, 2024 • Leave a Comment

Every time the wheel turns, we look with hope for the new things it will bring and that those new things will be positive. It’s human nature to yearn for adventure, and discovery. In the midst of all the excitement, it’s easy to forget where we came from when we are so focused on the future.

Any time a new generation emerges, it is inevitable that they will see things in a way that seems foreign to the ways of all who came before them. It’s the natural process of evolution at work, and it happens without prompting. We cannot stop things from moving forward, but there is something missing in the mix over the last 50 years, and it’s largely due to the fact that change has come more rapidly than it has in prior generations. The struggles that were endured to push past some of our most challenging times are absent in the present generation. They will have never lived through a time when electricity wasn’t in every home, when food didn’t arrive at your door with a simple online ordering process, or when you couldn’t reach another soul across the globe without sending a hand-written piece of correspondence, trusting it to a number of agencies to get it to the intended address. The time and care it took to do things was part of their value. Now it’s just talk-to-text and although it’s seen as effortless, and even that is too much effort for some to muster.

These ‘old’ ways, although they seem outdated, incorporated many lost pieces of culture that seem to have gone unnoticed. There’s a story I once heard of a primitive village in a remote area of the undeveloped world, where the only source of water was a river about a mile away. Every day, the women of this village would gather their vessels and bring them down, toting their young ones with them, to fill the vessels and carry them back together. One day, individuals from the developing world arrived and brought them the gift of irrigation. This eliminated the daily task of having to fill water jugs and carry them back to their village. This was seen by the ‘helpers’ as a positive improvement for the people, and they patted themselves on the back for being clever, inventive and progressive in their ways. However, in implementing this new way of getting water, much was lost. Each day the women who gathered their water jugs and their children, talked and shared their lives and stories with one another. The children played, established bonds, and had the benefit of the teachings of all the women, shared as part of the daily ritual. Each looked forward to their ‘work,’ though it was a bit of a hike, it was a good exercise and kept them strong, walking up and down the hills, then carrying the filled vessels back.

Some speak of their ancestors as if they were less than we are, because of the way things were done during their time here. In our thirst to create a better world, we forget that we were gifted the one we already live in and try as we might, we cannot recreate the things we have discarded as unnecessary in pursuit of ‘better’ things. Each time we make progress, we should be mindful that everything we do to ‘improve’ our lives, comes with a cost. On a personal note- perhaps I am an old soul and retain many ancient memories, but I can attest that no matter how much I try to work out in a gym, it feels empty and pointless to me. I cannot focus and I feel completely disconnected. BUT, if you ask me to do something like help with a project that requires hiking, picking herbs, or to take a walk, I am more than happy to participate in that exercise.

We cannot treat human beings as if we are blank sheets, waiting to be programmed. We are born with a soul that is eternal, connected to our ancient, inner knowing. There was a time when a mother didn’t need to be told she was to care for and tend to her children. There was a time when other mothers helped when they saw the need, without being told it was the right thing to do. There was a time when we gathered together, long before crypto or money, and when we traded our hand-made goods, we traded stories and created bonds with each other. We are losing so much as we ‘make progress.’

When times get dark and challenging, my greatest comfort are what people would call low-tech, old ways of doing things. Access to the places in nature, untouched by man, have become vacation spots and occasional getaways. Connecting with each other has evolved into obligations that we fulfill when we are summoned. We cannot know what we lost until it is too late. Once it is gone, sometimes we cannot get it back.

My friends, it is the mandate of all those who are still here that remember a time when we didn’t have our current technology, to educate our children, grandchildren, and so forth. It is the only way to keep them connected to their roots, in a way that fosters the growth of a new branch rather than severing the tree into pieces and wondering why it’s not developing into a new tree. Future generations are only possible because of those who came before them. We must pass on the foundational values of those who came before us so they can be incorporated into the new systems and progress we make going forward.

Putting on digital masks and creating online identities is not connection. Affirming the things we want over and over in their absence rather than having gratitude for what’s in front of us is not spirituality. Being a ‘boss’ so you can feel secure in your station in life does not compare to the sense of security that comes with the authentic bonds of a community. We are too busy constantly re-inventing the wheel to see that we aren’t really doing better, we are just spinning our newly created wheels.

The Messengers say: It is time to bring back the Sacred.

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Are you ready for the Truth?

•September 30, 2024 • Leave a Comment

I can tell you from personal experience, the ‘truth-teller’ is, by far, the most unpopular person in any room. Personally, I think that is tragic. I also think the reason behind it has more to do with ego than with the ability to recognize the truth.

Humans spend all their time building ideologies, cultures, subcultures and creating theories that are not part of reality until they are willed, weaved, and ultimately accepted into it. We find our own selves fascinating and inventive. We celebrate creativity…until someone else comes along who is more creative, more fascinating and more inventive than ourselves. And here is where the ego takes over.

If you’re not looking you don’t see it, but the modern world with all its technology, has not only glorified the self, it’s chipped away and in some cases cut out the relevance of a Creator, save ourselves. We have reinvented God in the form of science, which once again, is a matter of ego more than anything else. How dare there be anything WE cannot explain, or control? We cannot handle the thought that there is a higher power that, not only has more power, more wisdom, or a better understanding of the entirety of the universe, it has jurisdiction. The truth is, my friends, Humans have a limitations. We are not all-powerful, and that creates a problem for the Ego.

As these tiny bits and pieces of ‘self-importance,’ have become ingrained in our life via advertising, reality television, and the worst offender of them all, the self-help industry, we have quietly and without notice, accepted that each of us individually is the tiny center of our own universes. We’ve slowly moved from a space where the majority of people in a community recognized the health of the community means the health of individual, to being outraged that we should have to sacrifice any whim for the good of the whole.

But why is this a problem? Shouldn’t humans feel empowered, and make choices that are right for themselves? Are we not given free-will to do as we wish?

This is a slippery slope. I write this to address, not to criticize, the effect this culture has on the collective of humanity. While I’m not against someone who wishes to make choices based on self-interest or achieving a particular set of goals, I am intensely aware of the void that is left where there used to be an awareness of the impact our choices had on each other.

Humanity has undoubtedly inflicted terrible things on itself, and let me point out, specifically, through its free will and choice. The more the culture has shifted toward the attitude of ‘do what thou wilt,’ the more we are collectively suffering. Our choices and free will do not create the world- that was gifted to us. They create the state of being we experience while incarnated as human beings.

Before the advent of the internet, and all the many forms of technology we enjoy in a first-world country, we had more of a sense of physical connection. After all, we are physical beings, and this is a part of the human experience. As we became more connected to technology, we became less connected to one another. We find it easy to compartmentalize things based on our need, instead of seeking out genuine connection. We think by having relationships where we get our various needs met piecemeal, we have it all. So why are we more depressed, anxious and lonely than we have ever been before? Aren’t we getting what we want?

Before society had formal government, we had tradition and community. Community wasn’t consciously created, nor did it have to be, as it’s a foundational component of human nature to create meaningful bonds. Somewhere in that freewill process, there were people who became ego-centric, and they poisoned the very foundation of our traditions with their need to be powerful. They hurt others, and instead of recognizing that the hurt inflicted was the result of individual choices, we’ve decided to throw away the baby with the bathwater. Ego loves blame. Pointing the finger, of course, gives us a feeling of power and control. Being a victim allows us to be free of that blame. These concepts have been used over and over by humans who are aware of their impact to direct and corral. In short, the more freewill choices we make in our own self-interest, the more havoc we wreak on the collective.

As I’ve said many times- I’m not here to direct you, I’m here to affect you. My aim is always to deliver the messages I receive, with the hopes that you will be inspired to entertain new possibilities or gain some insights that will allow you to move in new directions when they feel appropriate. Living our lives sometimes feels like groundhog day, and we forget that there are so many possible choices we can make other than the ones we’ve stuck to, because they feel safe. After all, it is the power of our choices that shapes our human experience, and that experience is shared with all of humanity. If we can make choices that will create harmony for all over indulging our own ego, we should consider them.

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A Tiny Gift of Gratitude

•July 30, 2024 • Leave a Comment

When Hurricane Ian struck, it tore down nearly every tree in our community. A day or two after the storm ended, I watched with heartbreak as all the birds who nested in our trees returned to find their nests were destroyed and their homes gone. A small but heartfelt gesture was all I could do as my own home was damaged but still standing. I began to put some bird feeders out, so my winged brothers and sisters had some nourishment. As they timidly began to approach, I would sing and talk to them, which seemed to calm them and make them feel safe. I expected nothing in return, as what could a bird possibly do to help me?

To my surprise, one day as I was returning to the spot to refill the feeder, I Iooked down and saw, in the middle of the mulch, a single, perfect shell. 🐚 It was a gift from of my regular visitors, whom I nicknamed, The Captain- a majestic Crow, who was a bit of a watcher, calling out to his flock when he saw me walking to the feeder. With this small token of gratitude, I experienced both a sense of connection with my winged brothers and sisters and Oneness with Creator. So yes, even though I never expected it, that day I was helped by a bird, and my heart was forever changed. Thats him below. 👇🏻 #oneness #connection #creator #kindness #crow #love

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Confessions of a Spirit Messenger returns to BlogTalkRadio!

•June 5, 2024 • Leave a Comment

Thursday, June 6 at 6pm- Join me! https://www.blogtalkradio.com/confessionsofaspiritmessenger

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Which Camp are you from?

•March 22, 2024 • Leave a Comment

I always say, there is no better place to really see the basics of human behavior than on the playground.

Let’s go back to a time when all of us were just innocent little kids, yes, on the playground. You were unapologetically ‘you.’ You ran around with the other kids having a grand old time, playing games and swinging on the swingset. You had a best friend, whom you did everything with, and shared all your toys with. Everything was right with the world.

Then one day, that bestie just ditched you. What happened?

Maybe another kid had something they wanted, like the latest cool gadget. Maybe your bestie met a kid who had a pool and they decided that was a better friend to have on a sunny day. Maybe your bestie found a group of ‘cool’ kids, that invited him to their table, but only if he didn’t bring you. That day, something happened that, no doubt, imprinted itself on you forever.

As children, we don’t have the capacity to fully understand actions such as these. Instances like these are typically followed by an emotional response such as anger, hurt, betrayal and abandonment. A trusted adult may have tried to explain it to you with sage wisdom such as, ‘that kid was never really your friend,’ or ‘don’t worry, you’re better off without that little booger!’ Helpful as adults try to be, when it comes to the fragile psyche of a child, this isn’t very helpful.

Today, I want to talk to the child that still lives in you, and explain something that I didn’t understand fully until I was well into adulthood.

First, I’m so sorry that you were made to feel like you weren’t good enough. I’m sorry it happened so abruptly and without explanation. I’m sorry you had to watch someone who meant so much to you just walk away as if it were nothing at all to do so. Lastly, I am deeply sorry that hurt has stayed with you for so long.

No, it wasn’t that you weren’t cool enough. It wasn’t that you didn’t have the right toys or that you sat at the wrong table. And no, it wasn’t because you did or said anything wrong. These experiences that to you felt like an assessment in your value, were simply a matter of conflicting natures.

From a Spiritual perspective, I’ve found there are two camps of humans- The camp of Hierarchy and the camp of Oneness. Another way to view these two camps is Cooperation vs Competition.

Determining which camp someone is from is as simple as observing their actions. Words can lie and mislead you, but actions will always reveal what words will try to hide.

That day on the schoolyard, you discovered something very important. You discovered your nature. Chances are, you knew all the same kids on that playground, right? So why didn’t YOU run off and ditch your bestie? The answer to that question lies in your value system, and that is how you know which camp you come from.

You valued the bond of friendship. You saw your bestie in all their talents as well as their flaws and you accepted them both unconditionally. Your actions came from a place of connection. You, my friend, are from the camp of Oneness. When you love someone, you take them as a part of yourself. Therefore what is good for your bestie becomes something you want for them, and in that spirit, it is good for you too.

The actions your bestie took were those of someone who values hierarchy and status. Your bestie chose to level up when presented with an opportunity to boost social status or popularity. Your bestie valued self over connection. Your bestie’s fundamental nature was competition, and hierarchy.

Why am I talking about this? Because all of this drama is still going on today. It doesn’t leave you when you’re too old to play games on the playground. I speak about this because until we are able to process these concepts with our rational mind, we continue to cycle through feelings of unworthiness, rejection and fear of abandonment– which have no real basis in the truth of what these experiences are about. To you, the experience felt like an action taken against you. In Truth, it was the result of the unspoken, underlying nature of the person who took the action.

I urge you, my dear readers, to please take this information and use it as a filter to see that you have and always will be ‘good enough.’ I beg you to see that your only folly then, and most likely now, is that you see things from a place of Oneness and do not realize that everyone is not in your camp. Through no fault of your own, but from a lack of basic understanding, you have carried so much pain and hurt throughout your years. It’s time to put that down, and know that there is nothing wrong with you, and yes, there are many more out there like you.

My call to action, my beloved readers, is for you to embrace this knowledge that you value Oneness and Connection, and that there are others in your camp waiting for you to join them on the playground. Let them see you! I know this can seem difficult as society at large seems to favor competition and hierarchy. But consider this…

Back in the day on the playground, there was always that kid who would see an insect and take absolute pleasure in smashing its poor life out of existence. But there was always at least one other kid on the playground who would put themselves in harm’s way to grab that insect, and hold it in his hand with an outcry of ‘this little bug is special, and vulnerable. We should take care of it and protect it!’

My fellow Oneness travelers– these are your people! Seek them out, and you will find that many of the conflicts in your life were simply a matter of incompatibility in values. With this knowledge, go forth and make better decisions about the company you keep, and who you want to see in your circle. I promise you, if you take this tiny piece of wisdom and apply it, you will see changes in your life and you will move forward knowing your True Value. You will never again measure of your worth by the standard of someone who doesn’t understand– that you simply come from another camp.

With this knowledge, go forth and make better decisions about the company you keep, and who you want to see in your circle. I promise you, if you take this tiny piece of wisdom and apply it, you will see changes in your life and you will move forward knowing your True Value. You will never again measure of your worth by the standard of someone who doesn’t understand– that you simply come from another camp.

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Oneness vs Hierarchy? Humans love to size eavh other up. But to those who know we are One, the assessment of value is non- existent. We KNOW we all have value and purpose. What camp are you from? No wrong answers, just exploration of how we relate to one another.
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Confession #1: Confession is Good for the Soul

•March 17, 2024 • Leave a Comment

Any person who carries a burden in silence knows the weight of it. Biblically speaking, this little nugget appears in James 5:16: “Confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed.”

Although I’m using a Christian reference point, please look past the word ‘sin,’ and take this statement for what it’s worth. Carrying painful emotions such as guilt, grief, and hurt of any kind can absolutely affect us on every level. So why do we carry them? Why do we bury our hurt so deep down inside where no one can see it? Well, quite frankly, it’s painful, and as humans we are wired to avoid any kind of pain- physical or emotional- even from ourselves

As we grow in what I call our ‘humanhood,’ we are going to experience new things constantly. An observation that I have often made, is that at the time of the wounding, we see it in a very specific way and we judge it as if it’s the only perspective that will ever be. That’s pretty limiting, if you agree that when we grow, we see things differently, and NOT revisiting some of the hurtful things in our past can stop us from understanding our experiences. This is not to say we wallow and dwell on them. Moreso, we see things from a new perspective, the same way a tree would see the ground, the sky and all of its surroundings quite differently each time it reached a new height.

It is in this Spirit that my Soul Sessions were created. It’s an opportunity for personal growth and expansion, as well as a way to let go of old ideas that we thought were ‘truth,’ that are simply a perspective– one which we probably no longer have. In addition, I’ve decided that my meetup group will offer a Weekly Reflection session that I call a “Confession Session.” This is, of course, a play on words, considering my platform has been Confessions of a Spirit Messenger since 2010, but it is also based on the personal experiences I’ve had with those who I’ve met on my journey, as a soul and in a ‘messenger’ capacity.

Each week, I invite the members of my Soul Circle to join me in a sacred space to share and discuss the things they have been pushing down, holding onto and hiding- including spiritual experiences that they fear no one will believe. Check out my group here: https://www.meetup.com/living-well-soul-circle-meetup/

This is with the pure intent of laying down our burdens and give ourselves rest as well as peace. I’ve often found that when we finally say the thing we think we can’t say, we feel heard and seen in a way that allows us to let it go and move forward again. In my group, no matter what has been shared, it has been met with compassion and understanding, as we all acknowledge we are souls on a journey, finding our way through this life. In this way, we re-member and re-connect through community. As a Gen-Xer, I can vouch that during the times of the greatest stresses, this is what got us though, long before the advent of internet. It seems the more technology connects us, the more disconnected we become to one another.

If you are in the area, I encourage you to take advantage of one of my meetups. If not, I highly encourage you to reach out and book a session. This is your sign that it’s time to get ‘unstuck,’ and begin moving forward with a lighter heart and spirit!

Check out my offerings here: https://confessionsofaspiritmessenger.com/services/

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Spiritual Guidance for 2024- Part 4

•January 23, 2024 • Leave a Comment

This is the conclusion of this series- thank you for reading and hanging in there for the last part!

The Final Card- Card #4- HORSE

Horse medicine is the medicine of freedom, power and the Four Directions. This card holds the promise of something many of us have yearned for. My beautiful followers, after several years of watching your world come apart at the seams, and many of the people in your life reveal their true face from under the mask….this is the year you find your tribe.

If you follow my TikTok (@cinnamontsuki), you know that last year’s reading was very specific to the energy of those good-hearted souls, whom I call ‘Dog’ People- those who come with being a soul who comes to Earth with the agenda of ‘being of service.’ We had a chance to ‘jump into the stream’ and truly move through the many challenges that are unique to this particular soul group. Last year’s work has prepared you to face this year’s work!

Although it was likely painful, and felt like loss at the time, it was necessary to release people and situations that felt familiar and comfortable but were essentially holding us back. When it becomes all-consuming to hold onto something, it is sometimes a way for Spirit to call our attention to how we spend our energy. It helps us to stop, evaluate and redirect. Our energy is precious, and we must learn to use it wisely. Sometimes we have to put something down if we wish to add another bundle to our backs. We must make room. Let go of the burden and feel the lightness of being freed from its weight. Forgive yourself for ‘not doing enough,’ to hold onto something that wasn’t meant to stay.

Horse reminds us of the Medicine Shield and the Four Directions. This information is found in many books and online sources, however, in the interest of getting to the point I will be succinct. The Medicine wheel has Four Colors, which are said to represent the four races of People. In the Hopi Origin story, when the People emerged from inside the Earth, each was given a direction, and each was to the be caretaker of a specific element and medicine. The more pertinent part of the story tells us that after each People went to their corner of the Earth, they were to return to the place where they were given this assignment and SHARE all that they learned with one another as One People.

Horse’s appearance in this reading shows us that as the superficial parts of us fall away in the wake of the ascension process, we will suddenly begin to recognize one another, in our authentic vibration. This is how we find our tribe. This will create the seeds of community and belonging that we have forgotten. However, just as the People in the Hopi origin story, our tribes are meant to come together and share with one another as One People.

Man has free will, and may choose to destroy other men. But Man can also choose to create bonds, communities and support. Once again, bringing us back to the message I receive most often from Spirit- “Your power is in your choice.” If we truly want peace, we have to choose it.

Thank you, dear readers, for having an open heart and mind to read these words. It is an honor to share them. If you feel they have benefited you , please share them with others. If nothing else, I hope this encourages a discussion so we can begin to explore better ways for the sake of our future.

~Reverend Nicole D’Andrea

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Spiritual Guidance for 2024- Part 3

•January 16, 2024 • Leave a Comment

Thank you so much for opening your heart and hearing this message. This is Part 3, and here is where we will find the heart the message as it relates to our fellow brothers and sisters. It is asked of us to be mindful of reacting- or as people like to call it ‘being triggered.’ These cards are being presented to us with the intention of helping us recognize and understand, that when conflict arises, we are to stop, observe and listen in order to make the best choice. The first two cards give us perspective of the ‘scene’ from a higher perspective. These cards help us to see one another, the players, on a deeper level. Each is intended as a segment of the population based on a specific kind of philosophy and/or mindset. So let’s get into it!

Card 1 of 4- OPOSSUM

The first group- ‘Opossum’ people. These are kind and gentle souls who are mainly peaceful in the way they choose to move about the world. When an Opossum is faced with a threat, Opossum will ‘play dead.’ Opossum knows that when the struggle and hurt are the true sport of the attacker, removing that element removes the motivation for the attack- sort of like a bully having no fun if you don’t cry and beg for them to stop. This is the medicine of strategy over reaction, but also the wisdom in knowing the motivation counts when a conflict arises.

Card 2 of 4- LYNX

The second group- Lynx people. Lynx is the knower of secrets. He knows what is unspoken, such as a hidden agenda, or the fear you try to conceal from others- and from yourself. They have an inner knowing or clairvoyance. It is said that for those who believe, proof is not needed, but for those who do not, no proof will suffice. If you have this medicine, it will serve you well- once you learn to trust it. When conflict arises, Lynx people do not require evidence, or an explanation for the actions of others, they simply trust in their knowing, and choose their actions accordingly. If you encounter someone with Lynx medicine, and want to know what they, you must offer something in the spirit of energetic exchange.

Card 3 of 4- Wild Boar

Wild Boar is the medicine of confrontation. It is the courage to face and conquer uncomfortable circumstances directly, as opposed to avoidance. Boar people are straightforward, and wish to uncover the truth, in order to reach understanding and resolution. This medicine is sometimes perceived as aggressive or antagonistic, however, this is not the case. Boar people move through the world with determination, and the willingness to reveal the whole truth, including their own accountability. In the face of a challenge, their medicine is to brave the fears that keep us in conflict, clearing a path that reveals truth and understanding so we may move THROUGH it.

As you read about each of these medicines, Spirit asks that you take this wisdom and observe those around you, in various environments such as work, friendships, social organizations, etc. You will begin to understand the value system of each person when you recognize their medicine. True, some may misuse their talents or choose to create imbalance. This is a beginning point to seeing the value in the medicine’s strengths, and to recognize when it is out of balance. The exercise in observation and understanding is universal in its nature. It is only when we take the time to disengage, observe, and assess, that we are able to move through challenges and conflict with clarity. When we are engrossed in the drama, acknowledging only our own victimhood, we see nothing but struggle, resulting in a limited viewpoint that keeps us in our struggle. We must remember that the challenges we are presented with are not punishments, but opportunities for our spirits to triumph. When we overcome them, all of Heaven cheers for us.

In the next post, I will tie this together, completing the picture for 2024. And as with any authentic prophecy- it carries Hope. Thank you for reading this with an open heart and mind, and please come back for Card 4. I pray that these words will give you the chance to rest in the space of knowing Spirit is always present and has your back.

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Spiritual Guidance for 2024- Part 2

•January 13, 2024 • Leave a Comment

This is the second card in the series for 2024 Spiritual Guidance. Please start with the last entry as it leads into this next concept. Hummingbird’s medicine is the medicine of joy, beauty and sweetness. Hummingbird darts from one flower to another, tasting the sweetness of the nectar. She can fly up, down, backward and forward in a snap. What’s important to note about this medicine- it is fragile. When there is discord or disharmony, she quickly flies away.

How does this tie into the first card, and Spider’s message of all things being connected? Well, Hummingbird had one very specific characteristic that is both beautiful and heartbreaking- if she is caged, caught or imprisoned, she will die. If the right environment is crucial to our survival, and all of creation is connected, that means the harm done to one or the brokenness of any thread reverberates throughout the web of connection.

Spirit’s message here is that the state of our environment that can nurture or destroy us. This is the message we’ve been receiving for a millennia about the health of our Mother Earth, and all of her children. Although generations have come and gone, their actions have lived well beyond them. Each generation is handed the inheritance of those who came before.

Beneath the state of the environment is insight into the mindset of humanity. Actions speak louder than words, as they say. When we see humans treating their environment with disrespect, taking for granted the precious life and resources that were cared for and carefully left for them by the generation before, we see the complete disregard for the world left behind for our children. When we see humans categorizing and discarding one another, we see the lack of respect for humanity as a precious part of creation. What Hummingbird is showing us is that we are creating an environment that disrupts harmony and the very frequency that supports life, and that life is much more fragile than is perceived. If our joy cannot survive, we cannot feed our spirits. If we crush our own spirits, we continue the downward spiral, chasing ‘escape,’ and ‘addiction.’ The result is the pursuit of momentary pleasures, which cause more harm to us, in an attempt to find the joy we can no longer extract from life.

To tie these two cards together- this year, and all years to come is an opportunity to see the intricacies and connections between all creation here on Earth. It is a time to stop ‘believing,’ and know that we cannot continue to operate as if everything is separate, and the destructive consequences will ultimately result in complete annihilation of a world we once knew- the one that was in perfect harmony and blessed us with all we needed to sustain life. We cannot pick and choose one species, one tribe, or one land, discarding all others as unnecessary, any more than we can choose to eliminate one organ from the body and assume no harm.

These first two cards set the tone for the rest of this reading, which speaks to the many paths we will see emerge as a result of the present turmoil. Please come back for the third installment.

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Spiritual Guidance- a message for my followers to assist in your Journey through 2024- Part 1

•January 12, 2024 • Leave a Comment

Before we get into the reading, I’d like to state here that I am and have always been a being of connection. Many on the spiritual path encounter those who wear fancy labels such as ’empaths,’ or ’Masters,’ but rather than give myself a trendy term I chose to call myself exactly what I am- a Spirit Messenger. I don’t consider myself ‘gifted,’ or special any more than a frog is gifted for being able to croak or a bird for being able to sing. I am, and move as I was designed, and intended- as a Spirit Messenger. My purpose and intention is to be of service on a soul level to my brothers and sisters here on Earth. I do not interpret or even translate. I simply receive the message, and give it to the intended recipient. I am always receiving before I give, therefore I am never empty, nor do I become depleted, as I am giving from a source of energy that never tires and is endless, and not from my incarnated, ego self. With that in mind, please read these words with an open heart. Although language has its specific meanings, there is a thread of energy within them that will speak to you in an energetic language that only you will be able to know. Hence, their meaning becomes very intimate and personal. No matter how lost you are, if you have found this page, know that Spirit always knows the way. You only have to listen and trust.

This is a full 7-card reading that will be posted in installments, beginning with this one. At the center for the year 2024, is the medicine of this card.

Pulled from the ‘Medicine Cards’ (by Jamie Sams & David Carson with illustrations by Angela Werneke; St. Martin’s Press New York), this card holds a special place in my heart. Spider medicine is powerful. Grandmother Spider is the weaver of worlds and the web of creation is her medicine. As the first card in this reading, pulled for the center position, the message is speaking to the connections between all of creation. A web has many threads, and within it, you are always connected to the whole of it. Any disruption, or contact with only one thread affects the entire web, and she speaks to us of this as a theme for us to focus on as we walk into 2024. She asks us to see that each of our little worlds are not separate. Each decision we make affects the whole. When the web of our world was created, each thread was created with care and intent. None of them are insignificant. None of them are disposable. All of them are with purpose.

While many metaphysical philosophies and new age concepts teach that ‘self’ is all there is, and that ‘self’ is responsible for reality, it is Grandmother Spider who comes forth to remind us that is incorrect. Just as you would not take a tiny section of a spider web and proclaim it to be a web, nor can you take a drop of water from the ocean and present it as THE ocean, it is deceptive to say that one soul is the entirety of Great Spirit. We are to understand that we are a part of creation and not the whole, though without us, the web would not be whole. This ‘I am all and all is me,’ teaching has been misinterpreted and misused. The human mind cannot comprehend the fullness of the truth, only a part of it. All of us are required to keep the web healthy, connected and whole. Once we say we are separate, we have forgotten the truth. The fullness of our consciousness does not reside here in this form, and the awareness we have here is designed to create the illusion of separateness- hence we are born with an identity (ego self), and once there is self, there is other. This is, once again, part of the design. There is no judgement in this, as it is only an experience- a perspective and not the full truth.

My dear soul brothers and sisters, we are meant to experience separateness, BUT, we are given the amazing gift of choosing to see the connection. It is a choice. When we are shown that our thoughts create reality, it is a distortion of this concept. The human mind is designed to process experience, not to create them. It is your CHOICE that molds your perception, as each decision brings you to a new perspective. Therefore, Grandmother Spider’s wisdom is central to the theme of your choosing in terms of your philosophy and choices going forward, and not just for this year but for all years. What this looks like will be different in each of your earthly lives, and how it plays out will show you that underneath all the trendy terms, mindsets and self-help propaganda, is the truth of what you came here to learn. You see, many think there are two choices: to be caught in the web, or the weaver of the web. There is a third option. You can acknowledge the web as a whole and see the purpose of your place in it, without worry for competition, control and power struggles. You may rest in the knowing that all of creation is in harmony in this third option and you may choose this at any moment. You may also change your mind over and over again.

This is the first of the 7-card teaching from Spirit. These are not my words. I have been given the song by Spirit, and I simply sing it into the world. Please return for card #2.

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Tags: 2024prediction, angels, egocentric, grandmotherspider, holyspirit, inspired by spirit, intuition, Intuitive Medium, new age teachings, psychic medium, Spirit, spirit messages, spiritual guidance, spiritual philosophy, spiritual teachings

Where can we go, when we can’t go back ‘home?’

•December 20, 2023 • Leave a Comment

Today I did something I probably shouldn’t have done, but my mind wouldn’t let go and I did it anyway.

I woke up with that feeling that has become all too familiar to me. It’s a feeling that I’m on some sort of moving platform with no way of sensing the direction or my precise location. My head was swimming in an ocean of thoughts- a product of the intense dreaming I had been experiencing for what seemed like hours. That’s when I did the thing I shouldn’t have. That’s when I allowed myself to reach deep within and feel that sense of safety, security, warmth and ‘home’- a place I haven’t been to in a decade.

I picked up my phone, and I went to the Google Maps app. I was nervous because it had been such a long time since I had seen the place my soul felt most at home. I was worried it would be gone.

After typing in the address, I took a breath and waited for the images to load. My heart sank. The cottage was still there, but one of the most beloved parts of the property had been removed. The new owners had cut down all of the trees, but one. All the wild plants that grew all around the cottage were torn out, without a trace. I started to cry.

I miss these trees.

Why does this matter? Those trees were more than just trees. They were witnesses to the most joyful times in my life. They were friends that allowed us to hang hammocks from them, and to run around them without a care in the world. They provided so much shade to the cottage, we didn’t need air conditioning. Every morning my first breath was their aroma. The feeling of their dried needles under my bare feet, my first tactile memory.

Someone looked at this beautiful piece of land, and didn’t see what I see. It was most likely written off as a landscaping expense, replaced with an unnaturally green, thick lawn that undoubtedly requires chemicals to maintain. The precious pines were removed as a trade-off for a more attractive rental property and lower landscaping fees.

In this moment, I really felt how different I am from most people in the way that I think of, and experience the world around me. To me, that land, that cottage, was a place to be cared for, as in being a caretaker of the entirety of it- not something to modify without any thought as to the healing vibration of the plants and trees, in favor of a way to turn a profit with minimal upkeep. I’ve always seen through the eyes of a child with a heart of gold and a deep compassion for all living things.

It also occurs to me, that contemporary viewpoints in terms of sizing up the value of something is not only applicable to property. It extends to the way we think about people. How useful is someone in your life, and if they are not actively fulfilling a vital need, how quick are we to discard them? When someone in our live goes through a tragedy or setback, how much does it feel like having to exert extra effort to lend a hand or support? So many speak of ‘gratitude,’ but how much of that is lip service, in an attempt to appear trendy and fit in with the crowd?

Life’s conveniences have overshadowed the value of all the incredible, foundational elements that brought us to this modern world. I’ve seen so many wonderful things, people and even history, destroyed. It is destruction in the name of creation. There is no need to tear down everything that came before. We are missing the point, that we are standing on the shoulders of all those who came before us, and we are holding up a world that will be left for those who come after us. The greed, selfishness and disregard for humanity shows up in many ways. It’s an underlying attitude that permeates the decisions on a larger scale than we realize. We chase after things that cannot be sustained for the excitement, without regard for the consequences we leave behind.

Yes, this appears to be about a longing for a small cottage, that brought me peace and joy for most of my life, especially childhood, but it is, indeed, a much more expanded conversation about the ‘whys’ that lie beneath the shifting culture and its effects on the heart and soul.

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Tags: #shetalkstoangels, angels, capecod, caretaker, cedar, confessionsofaspiritmessenger, dennisma, healing, home, honoringtheland, intuition, mediumship, nativeamerican, Pine, psychicmedium, Soul, spiritmessenger, spiritofplace, spirittrees, Trees

Everyday Signs- the Language of Spirit

•March 17, 2023 • Leave a Comment

Hello, my readers! Today, I’m bringing you my teaching on signs from Spirit, and why you may not be recognizing them.

This is something that is quite often asked by those who come seeking guidance, as they become frustrated with trying to understand their own gifts. If you come to this work as a skeptic, then I welcome you. Frankly, skeptics are the ones who usually receive the most profound, undeniable signs. As my blog’s tagline suggests, “Walking in the Light of Spirit with one foot in each world,” I have fully embraced that there is an incredible, unseen world all around us. I have never tried to seek it out. It has always been something I’ve been aware of, however, I am honest that I didn’t always understand it. No matter where your starting point is, I hope this blog will help you find your way, or at least help you see how another person took a next step.

Spirit is Patient

When it comes to communication with the unseen world of Spirit, this is one of the hallmarks. You may discount something a dozen times, but if it is true communication, and on some level you have asked for it, Spirit will not give up until you have recognized it. In the early days of my learning to actually understand this new language, Spirit showed me things in threes. Over time, my healthy skeptical mind began to see the pattern and trust that I was not imagining it. I’ve been actively doing this work for over 20 years now, and even still, I may need something twice, just to verify, and Spirit is never upset or angry with me for not getting it right the first time. If you, like me, had impatient, disgruntled teachers as a child, who made you feel like you weren’t worth the time or effort, this is something of a healing of that trauma. Learning the language of signs from Spirit is gentle, and there’s never a time when Spirit will just give up on you.

Spirit Knows Your Secret Heart

We all have our own private thoughts and feelings that we do not share with the world. The thing is, in our physical world we primarliy rely on words for communication, along with body language, to relay information. Part of the unseen world is our energy field, and it contains ALL of the information, without needing words. For example, if you’ve always been fascinated by willow trees, but kept it to yourself and never spoke a word of it, you might think that unless you spoke it out loud, another couldn’t’ know it. It would require your permission, in a way. Your sign may come in a way that seems like a coincidence to you because you hold that belief that information is only available when you share it with someone. Let’s say you are thinking about taking classes so you can start a new business or just add to your skillset, but you are unsure about this decision. You then drive up to the first night of classes, and after sitting down, you notice a willow tree just outside the window where you chose to sit. Spirit does not require words to communicate to you because it sees all of you, especially the parts of your heart that are most precious to you. That is why the meaning comes through so clear when these signs appear.

Everything that is Alive Communicates

The spark of life that animates all creation means that we come from and are connected to the Source of all things- Spirit. Each of us is capable of this communication, because of that connection. You may think of someone and that person sends you a text or calls you, and think that’s just a coincidence. Perhaps it’s because we are so indoctrinated into this physical existence that we focus only on our five senses and rely on them only. This is where a daily practice is mandatory if you’re serious about really developing your other senses. Practice makes perfect. The only way to recognize signs consistently enough to develop your vocabulary with Spirit is to work with it consciously. As a tool to help you with your focus, I always suggest journaling. To some it’s a time-consuming task, and they don’t see the value in it, but the truth is, this is the only way you will prove to yourself that what you are experiencing is real. If you are the type that is not open to sharing experiences, then your only way to see the patterns over time is to keep a log of them that only you see. It does take time, but time is required in learning any new language. You wouldn’t expect to learn Italian overnight, would you? You’d need to see visual cues, repetition, and become comfortable with the translation. This language will be your personal language with Spirit, and only you can develop it. Referring back to my last point- if willow trees are sacred to you, but to me they are just like any other tree, they will not speak the same meaning to me when they suddenly appear. To you, there is a meaning. Keep track of when signs like this with personal meaning come to you, and over time, you will look back over your writing and notice they appear at a very specific moment.

Thoughts are not invisible to Spirit

Thoughts are only heard when we speak them aloud in the physical, or translate them into action. In Spirit, they are heard clearly and plainly. As you journal (or draw), notice if there is a specific thought you’re having just before the sign appears. For example, if you sometimes speak to your loved ones who have passed on, and there is a sign that appears, know that you are receiving a response in a way that helps you understand that person is present and has heard you. For many people, this type of sign comes in the form of a bird- perhaps a Cardinal- and it is one way you may receive confirmation that you are being heard, and maybe being helped by that person. Thoughts are very important that way, as they are broadcast in your energy field and require no words for those of us who speak energy, and especially for Spirit.

I hope this helps you on your personal journey to developing your intuitive, spiritual and other gifts. There is so much more than what our naked eye sees, but in order to discover all the wonder and possibilities, we must put in the focus. The rewards are priceless.

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Tags: #intuition, #intuitivedevelopment, #LanguageofSpirit, #LoveSpirit, #psychicdevelopment, #shetalkstoangels, #sixthsense, #spiritcommunication, #SpiritSigns, #youareneveralone

So you came here to experience Earth? Are you ‘On-Task?’

•March 13, 2023 • Leave a Comment

One of the many reasons we came here to Earth is for our Souls to have experiences we cannot have any other way. As a Soul, we think, ‘Yes, this is where it’s at! Set me up and let’s launch this adventure!’ If you’re reading this, you’re actively on your Earthly mission. My question is this- how many times have you sat in the dark with yourself praying that you will be finished with your lessons and tests here, and hoping you are doing what you think you came here to do?

Oh, and did you realize that when you were ‘dropped off,’ you specifically chose others in Spirit to keep watch over you and help you with your lessons?

It’s not an uncommon thing for those of us who are spiritually aware or in touch with the higher self aspect, to have visitors drop in from other realms. Sometimes they are loved ones who come to show us they are okay and have made their transition. Other times they may be higher beings who are assigned to us as helpers, and will show up to assist with healing on many levels. Then there are The Guides, and they are many. In fact, you have an invisible team that you would find quite remarkable if you realized how dedicated they are to assisting you on your journey.

I recently met someone who mentioned an experience that I found quite interesting. He said his visitors appeared to be to be somewhat unhappy with him.* Following that, I had a conversation with a longtime friend who shared an experience that seemed to answer why they may have seemed unhappy. That’s what lead to this blog post.

Note: When similar things come up in close succession, we call that synchronicity, and you should definitely pay attention to these instances because they are genuine communication from Spirit.

The Guides are never sinister, however, if they appear with a sense of urgency, or intensity it is because THEY are on their task- which is to keep YOU on-task. Before you came, you asked for them to come tap you on the shoulder when you are getting off-course from the plan you created for this incarnation. A Guide’s presence at just the right moment can be like feeling lost at a really strange cocktail party, and suddenly looking over to see a friend who is giving you the nod. Suddenly you are able to excuse yourself, get a little pep talk or pat on the back and get your head back in the game.

So many of us, myself included, fear we will not complete the assignments we gave ourselves when we came here. If you’re there, know that help is available to you, however, a huge part of the exercise here is free will/choice. You knew when you came here you could choose to go ‘off-task,’ midstream, and/or included a bunch of side-quests. When you are in Spirit, you don’t worry about ‘incomplete assignments,’ for a few reasons. First, you are fully aware that you are an eternal being, and there is no end-game, there is only more growth and expansion. Second, your sense of perfection is much different than what we think of here in human form. For example here, you experience hierarchy and order, which creates the idea that perfection has a specific set of rules to follow. In Spirit, all is in unity, so our consciousness doesn’t feel the need to course-correct or control an outcome. Neither decision is correct or incorrect. They are what I call ‘choice points,’ and will simply alter your ongoing path.

Having said that, if you decide in your Earthly wisdom, that living your purpose isn’t all that special, you have the choice to ignore it. If you want to shut out your inner voice and treat it as imagination, you may. However, if you are reading this, I’m assuming your purpose is paramount and what you decided before you got psychic amnesia is worth pursuing and completing, so this next part is for you. Just as firefighters are at the ready, 100% of the time, so are your Guides. The essential part of this comparison is this- just as firefighters wait for ‘the call,’ so do your Guides. They are not allowed to interfere with your design. They must be invited to participate. They are your dedicated team and will come when called upon. Although they will not complete the task for you, they will help you by showing you signs, perhaps something to help you remember why you chose the tasks to begin with, why your purpose was important to you to accomplish, or help you see the effect your work will have on others.

It sounds simple, but as humans we think we are supposed to bear the heavy load and do it all ourselves. So, do yourself a favor, and allow yourself to entertain the idea that you’re not cheating by asking for help. After all, you made the choice to make the help available in the first place- so take it!

*Force is not a hallmark of Divine Design, so if anything appears to you that feels harmful, or menacing, please call on Source or for Divine assistance. Spirit is persistent, but not threatening *

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Tags: #AskForHelp, #AskYourGuides, #divinepurpose, #ListenToYourIntuition, #spiritguides, clairvoyant, intuition, spirit messenger

The Hidden Gifts of Hurricane Ian

•October 8, 2022 • Leave a Comment

My friends- especially my fellow Floridian friends- we have been through something that I can only describe using one word- horrific. As the 100mph winds gusted, whistled, and warped the frames, blowing in the heavy panels of the sliding doors on my lanai, I knew one emotion- fear.

In the wake of this ordeal, many have their own stories to tell about what they went through, how they handled situations they never thought they would have to, and what it feels like on the other side. Please listen to all of them. All are valid, and all have something to teach us.

My ‘gift’ of sensitivity, intuition, or whatever label you prefer, has been with me always. I’ve never known a time when I was truly alone, though my human need for connection made me believe I was. I’m not ashamed of my experiences here in this life, as I know from a much higher place, many were chosen by my soul, for a purpose I will only know when it is over. The struggle is having the ‘knowing’ but not all of it. No one does. However, the pieces of the puzzle have a way of coming together if you are doing the work. I was not given a vision of this hurricane. I had no idea it was coming, but I was being given pieces of information that I was told I needed to share.

In the months leading up to this hurricane, the messages Spirit urged me to share were posted on my FB Page, Confessions of a Spirit Messenger. At this point, if you have been paying attention, you now know why they were there. Most recently, I did an entire video in a private group urging people to be aware of the answers to their prayers when they arrive. I was even given the image of a man struggling in a body of water, surrounded by pieces of wreckage, who was being offered a raft by a small boat passing by. The message was- you’ve prayed for help, please take the help.’ In addition to this very clear message, the card-pulls that are posted have been addressing topics such as removing the masks we use to be who others think we should be, and sowing the seeds for what you truly want. In one post I spoke to the need for balance, and another was about clarity. And now here we stand, in the wake and destruction of Hurricane Ian. Many of us, myself included, have had destruction to things like property, businesses, and sadly experienced the loss of their homes.

So with all that it has taken from us, what is the Gift of Hurricane Ian and what does it have to do with all of the messages that lead up to this storm?

This is a screen shot I captured during the hurricane, while I still had the ability to receive cell data.

Many of have you been praying for help, for months and maybe years. Take a moment to think about your passing thoughts during the day, for example, because those are not just thoughts, they are communication that is being broadcasted – AND received. Maybe you were dissatisfied with your work. Perhaps you had been feeling increasingly isolated or lonely and without a tribe. Indeed, many of us have been struggling with interpersonal relationships of all kinds for quite some time. In all its manner of destruction, Hurricane Ian is offering us a chance at creation.

Are you going to rebuild the life you had? You know, the one where you complained daily about the same issues, people, lack of opportunity, etc? Or will you take this chance to build the life you actually deserve for yourself? Will you go back to wearing all of your lovely masks, trying to fit in where you clearly do not belong? Had you been thinking of changing location, career, partner, direction in your life? This is the hidden gift of Hurricane Ian. It may take a moment for you to process this, and I am certainly not minimizing the enormous loss this has cause many of us, myself included.

But you’ve been praying for change. For things to be better. To feel more purpose in your life. To be loved for who you truly are. For a new life.

We cannot control the way our solutions come to us, and they surely do not feel like victories in the moment, but make no mistake, the wheel is still turning and it’s up to you how you move through and past this event. Just like the Tower card in the major arcana of the Tarot, in order for progress to be made, and for something better to emerge, we must first tear down the old.

Have you been saying you’ve wanted to move on but did not or could not because of the things already in place that you were not willing to let go of? Well, for many of us, those things may be gone, so holding on is no longer an option. So where do we go from here?

This is where you get to take a moment and take inventory of where you were, and where you want to be. To create the life you wished for, and can love living. Take a look around. Do you see now that all that you had around you to hold you up was a struggle because it was never really what you actually wanted? I’ve given readings for people who spoke with such passion and urgency about how much they disliked their lives, and wanted better, but at every single opportunity that came along to move in a different direction, chose to stay exactly where they were. They are entitled to their decisions, as are we all, but when you ask for help, and help arrives, it is only on us if we do not accept it.

Hurricane Ian is showing us where we were not in alignment, and struggling to keep those oars in the water even though we no longer wanted to move in the direction we were headed. Anything that is out of alignment will not be able to stand forever. We all tire of the fight, and eventually, it collapses. Spiritually speaking, this is your answered prayer, painful and destructive as it may seem. Take this and do something with it. Rebuild, redirect, readjust your sails.. but please, do something. Everyone’s ‘something’ will look different. It may be simply beginning to say ‘no’ to the situations and people who have drained you and left you wanting. It may be finally having the space and time to go to school for something you are passionate about. After all, you have to rebuild, so isn’t it worth it to choose a starting point that’s in alignment with your soul? It may be walking away from what you thought was a friendship, because in a crisis situation, you’ve seen someone’s true colors. If you were dreaming of packing up and running away to a faraway place, your gift may be the lifting of the burden that was stopping you. However big or small, you are being given the gift of a reset button.

If you have been affected by Hurricane Ian and are actively in the throws of this struggle, this message is not for you. I urge you to get all the care, support and community you can right now, so you can get to a place where this message makes some sense to you at a future time.

For those who hear it right now, and need further guidance, please reach out and book a session. It’s time for you to move in the direction of your dreams. This is your Calling.

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Tags: Aignment, divine timing, Energy Clearing, Hidden Gifts In Challenges, hurricanian, intuitivereadings, metaphysical, metaphysicalmeaning, prayforflorida, spirit communication, spirit guides, spiritualguidance, TowerCard

The Magic in the Stillness

•June 28, 2022 • Leave a Comment

When was a little girl, my most favorite place to be was in our screen house in the backyard during a rainstorm. When it was sunny, I’d be out on our enclosed front porch, which was mostly used for storage, including my mother’s ‘Hope Chest,’ from days gone by. By the time college came, my sanctuary was the library. I even got a job working in the microfilm and microfiche room, so I could spend more time in the dimly lit, muted environment that was filled with an air of order.

As I look back on my life, I realize that the most productive times in my life were those times when I was able to spend in a peaceful environment. Adult life has a way of robbing us of this kind of stillness. Our responsibilities become a lot of fast-paced activities, and when there is time to rest, we feel guilty for not using the time to do something else on the checklist.

It’s time to make room for the sacred, the stillness, and the deep soul-need for peace. It’s the only way to ‘right’ the ship, as they say. We can chase after all sorts of very impressive-sounding solutions and systems of thinking to try to make sense out of why we aren’t feeling that sense of centeredness, but the truth of it is, we will never find it until we allow ourselves time and space for stillness.

You are responsible for making this happen. It’s your life. If you are letting other people or circumstances dictate your choices… if you are creating a list of priorities that does not include your own mental and emotional health… if you are willing to trade an ounce of comfort in your own life so another can enjoy comfort in theirs… this blog is speaking to you. Know that the state you are in is not just a result of your choices, but the place from which you make them. While it is considered loving to give up something for another- such as a mother who sacrifices her own peace to offer more of her energy to her children- there is always an opposing, contrasting energy to every decision.

Nothing is all good or all bad. All of life is both.

There is a deep seed of truth in the Universe that permeates everything, and that truth is that all of us will experience ups and downs, sometimes simultaneously. Life is about balance. If too many decisions favor one side, there will be a strong reaction from the other side of the scale. The key is to be aware that this is a law of the universe that will not be ignored. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

As humans we have many things in our lives to prioritize, in order to complete the things we wish to accomplish here. Today, ask yourself if you are being balanced in how you go about weighing the importance of those priorities. While time is a factor that can help us manage the order of things that we need to accomplish, do not forget that it is you who is ultimately the master of your domain, and you who have the power to reorder, reorganize and recreate at any time. Life is more than a series of making and cleaning messes. It’s about recalibrating and readjusting to maintain balance in all aspects of our lives. This is possible, I promise. You will still get where you are going, but you don’t have to do so in a state of exhaustion and disarray. You have the power.

Find the moment when you can feel that stillness, and that peace will return to you, long enough for you to adjust your sails and see clearly again. If there is no such moment- create one. The magic is in the stillness.

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The Living Well Soul Circle is Open

•March 18, 2022 • Leave a Comment

Last year around the end of May, I had an experience that sent me on a journey for better health and well-being. It started with a frightening doctor’s appointment. I had recently been able to obtain an affordable plan for health insurance after a few years of going without, so it was my task to find a primary physician. Needless to say, I chose poorly, and I left the appointment in tears, fearing that I was set on a course that would leave me in the hands of the ‘medical’ profession, who had little empathy for the patient, but a lot of interest in keeping me as a ‘customer.’ I knew I had to do something to help myself, or I would become another statistic. I did the only thing that has ever provided me with strength and answers- I prayed.

I remembered a book that I was guided to read about 2 years prior to this incident. It was interesting and made sense, however, I had no real sense of urgency around the information I was reading. If you’re interested, comment below and I will tell you which book I’m referring to. The fact of the matter is, when Spirit gives a piece of information to us, it is often something that will be useful in the future and not necessarily in the given moment. Suddenly, it became very relevant, and I went back to my bookshelf so I could investigate.

Around the same time, I was reunited with a friend whom I had lost touch with who turned out to be an answer to my prayer. He lives on the west coast and I’m in Florida, but at the time we first met we were both in the Boston area. Long story short, he had emailed me out of the blue a couple of months prior, and I had neglected to write back- but I thought I did. When we reconnected, I learned that he had become a Brand Ambassador for none other than Young Living, asking if I had heard of it. He had no idea that I had become a lover of these oils back when I was doing massage therapy and energy work, but had lost touch with the person who introduced me to them and didn’t know how to order them without her. Back then, she had small gatherings at her home to introduce us to the oils and products. Now the magic of the internet made everything I remembered and loved, just a click away! My mind was blown by the serendipity of the meeting and everything that came about as a result of it. I immediately signed up, and began to restock my most treasured oil companions!

Many of my favorite oil blends were still around, which I was very excited about. They were like, old, familiar friends, who shared very special times with me. It had been more than 10 years since I had used Transformation to support my transition from married to single and White Angelica was my primary support oil for spiritual support and connection. I began incorporating these and more into my spiritual practices, and once again, I found myself achieving new heights.

In addition to cleaning up my diet, which was and continues to be very hard work, I began cleaning up my life- starting with any household products that contained synthetic fragrances and other harmful substances. My lungs and sinuses were very grateful right out of the gate. I had often had sneezing fits when I used ‘normal’ household items like hand soap or dish detergent. I began to slowly replace household cleaning products, hand soaps, oral care, bath products, and laundry care with Young Living products. With each month, the ‘ditch & switch’ brought more signs of relief from my whole being. I was no longer bogged down with the toxic load that came from the traditional products that I was in contact with regularly. Between my clean diet, and reducing the burden of so many toxins on my body, I was feeling better than ever.

As my body felt better, my mind surely did follow! I had more clarity, better sleep, and my skin was soft again. It’s an amazing thing to witness your body’s resiliency. If we simply give it the care and attention it deserves, we thrive.

About a month ago, I started a group on Facebook called “The Living Well Soul Circle.” I put a lot of thought into the title, as I wanted it to embody several things- Living Well, which is what I intend to do, and to help others do the same. The Soul Circle part acknowledges the part of all of us that is Source energy and everlasting, seeking others to form that sacred community of like-minded individuals to journey along with as fellow human beings. I’ve been privileged to connect with others who are seeking to enhance their overall well-being, sharing our success stories, and exchanging ideas. I’ve also been able to utilize my spiritual gifts through group meditations that have been very successful in assisting with the goals, self-care and loving support of my fellow Soul Circle tribe.

A single incident that left me feeling hopeless and alone has lead me down a path to a new connection, a higher frequency, and a new sense of purpose that I desperately needed in my life. I invite you to check out my group on Facebook, and if you feel so inspired, join us on one of our live, channeled group meditations. The combined energy of those who show up and do the work is a benefit to all of us, and adding the incredible oils to this endeavor has transformed the experience to being the perfect combination of mind, body and soul. When you are ready, please take that small, first step, knowing that you have arrived at this moment precisely at the right time.

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When it’s not enough…

•September 28, 2021 • Leave a Comment

I want to talk to those of you today who clicked on this link specifically because of the title. I know you need to hear this. I know you’ve had days when you have run out of hope. I know you feel alienated and misunderstood. I know because I’ve been there too, and I want you to know that there are still good people in the world. Please stay with me and read on.

I’ve been blessed by being surrounded by many interesting and unique people throughout my life. I’ve enjoyed learning their back-stories, and finding out the steps that lead them to where they found themselves. I’ve held space for people who needed someone to listen without judgement, and allowed them to express emotions without censorship. I’ve seen walls come down that some didn’t even know were there. I’ve seen tears turn into smiles. I’ve felt the years of stored emotion pour out and furrowed brows become smooth again. Witnessing these things was incredible. This is the greatest part of being an Intuitive person.

As I grew in my personal development, uncovering my intuitive and mediumship gifts, I found a wonderful teacher who told me something that I’ll never forget. She told me I was ‘very good at putting yourself aside in your work,’ and ‘one of the rare people who does this from the right place.’ This piece of information became very important in my self-discovery. Another important encounter came from a shop owner in Salem, MA. I had my aura photographed and interpreted, which was supposed to be just for fun, but the shop owner looked surprised at how it turned out. She said, “it’s very rare to see an aura like this. Typically I only see this with animals and small children.” This became another clue about who I am. I began to understand my blending of qualities and the way I saw the world had purpose and meaning, but yet something seemed to be missing.

~To be accepted is to feel loved, and to be loved the way we need to be loved is a rare thing~

If you already know Teal Swan’s work- great! If not, look her up because what I’m about to speak of is something she teaches beautifully. Teal Swan says that to love someone is to take them as part of yourself, which makes perfect sense in my world. If you see us all as tiny sparks of light from the same Source Light, then you already understand. We are all part of each other already. Looking at it through this lense, I came to the realization that I loved many, many people, and yet, somehow I still felt alone. It took time, but I started to see the significance of those two important encounters and what I was told by my teachers. I take others as part of myself without question, because that is who I am. The problem is that wasn’t being offered in return. I was out of balance, and I had to start taking better care of having my needs met. If I cared about you, and you cared only about you.. who is left to care for me?

Being different is not easy. Living and making choices from a different foundation requires true strength and bravery. Every human, in some way, wants to belong, whether it’s to a family, a profession, religious organization, or even a clique. We were made to form connections. When things aren’t working, we wrestle to ‘make things right,’ or to ‘fix ourselves’ so things will work. But we are not machines with tiny metal components that can just be removed or replaced. We are complex. We hide things from our own selves. We lie to ourselves. When we take this approach, we cannot be authentic with others, and our decisions come from a completely different place. We forget who we are.

It’s Time to Flip the Script

Those of you who have worked very hard to know yourself, trust yourself, and live in alignment understand how hard that can be in a world full of people who do not understand your choices. I’m here to tell you that even if you feel that no one understands you, you must press on. There will be a period of losing people, and it will hurt your feelings. It’s okay to be hurt by this, and you need to know that you did nothing wrong. You need to know that just because you don’t fit into the definitions and molds that others have for you, you are lovable and worthy of love just as you are. We are many, and we are now in a time when we can finally ‘see’ one another. Your Tribe is out there! Though we may be separated by distance, technology has given us a way to connect. The important thing now, is not to hide yourself or shy away from showing your light. Others out there need to see it, and you need to see theirs. Stay vigilant. We always find the thing we were looking for just when we were about to give up.

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Confirmation is King!

•July 12, 2021 • Leave a Comment

Hey Spirit Bunnies! I’m sharing something today about a personal experience that I hope will help you on your journey with developing and trusting your abilities. I was questioning a current situation.

My thoughts, like yours, have an electrical charge that go out to the universal grid that connects all of us as well as those in Spirit and Source. “Will this always be like this? Should I just cash in my chips and accept that it’s just the way it is?’ The answer came clairaudiently- ‘No.’ I asked ‘how in the world could it be possible for any of this to change?’ And there it was, ‘because something will happen that will make it impossible not to.’ Well, okay! But guess what? I woke up and I felt like I wanted to know for sure that I heard it right- which happens even to the most seasoned people.

I pulled a card, and laughed at myself, because I should know better by now but there it was. I’m posting the meaning verbatim from the guide book, because the message is unmistakable. Happy journeys and know even when you are sure you’ve fallen off the grid, your problems are not invisible, and your prayers are heard! If you think you got it wrong- Spirit will not give up on getting you the confirmation you need to move forward in confidence.

From the Earth Warriors Oracle by Alana Fairchild, Blue Angel Publishing

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For the Love of Sadie, Part 1

•June 29, 2021 • Leave a Comment

When we lose a beloved animal companion, the grief can be unimaginable. To those who don’t understand, no amount of explanation can suffice, but for those of us who understand the depth and purity of a connection to an animal companion, none is needed. This is my story of a connection that cannot be broken, no matter time, space, or dimension.

In 2012, I met Bob. He lived on Cape Cod, and that was a 90 minute ride from where I lived, so I was sure it would be nothing more than banter and flirting online that wouldn’t go anywhere. I was surprised when things started to go in the direction of an actual relationship. The first time I went to his house, I met Sadie. He had just adopted her only 4 months prior. She was about 3 or 4 years old, which was an estimation by the rescue where she was surrendered by her ‘family’ who cited the reason as being something along the lines of not getting along with their chihuahua. Shortly after Bob adopted her, Sadie was attacked by a neighborhood dog while out for her walk, which left her with a huge scar from the other dog’s bite.

Sadie was a white pit mix, with one brindle ear and one that had black spots. One of her eyes was encircled with a pretty black marking that looked almost like eyeliner and eyeshadow. She had the prettiest white eyelashes and that fabulous pittie smile. She was quiet, and very interested in me when I walked through the door for the first time. At first, I walked past her and ignored her, as I’ve come to understand that this was the best way to introduce yourself to a dog. She moved her ears back and patiently wagged her tail, waiting for a sign that it was okay for her to greet me. I spoke to her gently, and let her sniffer go to work! I’m not even sure if I pet her that night. I wanted her to be comfortable with me, and I made it a point to watch her reactions to things like Bob running around the kitchen making dinner, her response to commands and her overall temperament. I could tell she was a gentle, loving soul.

One weekend, I decided to drive down early. Bob was working so I stopped by to get his key and drove to the house. When I arrived, I let Sadie out of her crate, and for the first time, I was alone with her. I didn’t know how she would react to me, but she seemed happy to see me. I put her leash on and walked her, then brought her back inside and allowed her to do her thing. I popped on the couch and searched Netflix for something interesting. Suddenly Sadie came over to the couch, pacing a bit, wagging her tail and making whining sounds. I started to talk to her, asking her what she wanted, and the most amazing thing happened- she began to respond back with her sounds. I knew she was actually trying to talk to me, so I started to make my voice higher pitched to see if she would match it with her sounds, and she did. Then she started licking my hand, and shoving her head underneath it to let me know she wanted me to pet her. From that moment on, Sadie and I were lovingly connected beyond words, quite literally. This was only the beginning.

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Alone

•April 20, 2021 • Leave a Comment

Every once in a while I write about something very personal, as I think it’s important to understand that living an intuitive life doesn’t mean you have all the answers. You still have to go through the experiences- good and bad- which is the whole reason you incarnate in human form.

Today I’m swimming in a sea of realization that many of the people who I thought were my friends are not. Some were nice to me to size me up, just in case I was some sort of professional or social threat. Some needed something that I was good at without having to pay for it on their own, such as massage, connecting to a loved one in spirit, or listening without judgement. When it became clear that I wasn’t being valued as a person, but a resource, it definitely affected me.

Giving is a source of joy for me, and in all of my past relationships and work environments, I’ve been called upon when someone needs help. It came so naturally to me, it crossed my mind that it was being seen as currency by many of these people. I was told that because I tend to be a giver, I must have low self esteem, but those same people will also call me selfish if I do something they don’t get a benefit from as a result. That’s some judgemental transactional BS right there. I cannot change my nature, and I will not weigh my giving, as if it is some sort of currency in a transaction. I’ve given to people who had nothing to give back in return without a second thought. The only condition my giving has ever had is the golden rule. “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you” or if you prefer, “Love thy neighbor as thy self.” When I see someone who is genuinely in need and struggling, I think to myself how easily that person could be me. The constant bombardment of opinions and judgements wore me down over time to where I stopped explaining myself.

The last couple of years have brought so much struggle, especially with Covid-19 and the restrictions that it mandated along with the politics that I’ve made it a point not to discuss for obvious reasons. Being backed in a corner will cause the same reaction in nearly all living things. We revert to survival, and it’s every man for himself. I watched supposedly loving people turn into hateful, selfish creatures. Those around me who would be constantly promoting love and light suddenly began to post horrific things on social media. Many I have had to unfollow or unfriend, and though they may not realize it, the way they acted out was not only seen but felt, and I will never see them the same way again. It reminded me that I need to be mindful of something said by a character on Game of Thrones:

I feel I was brought up with good values, and a great moral compass, but after all that I’ve seen and experienced I have really had to hold back and deny myself the one thing that I know I was born to do. As a result, I spend most of my time alone, and the rest in a state of emotional self-defense. I’m hyper-aware that there is a motive for every action, and up until recently I had mistakenly taken for granted that most people are not like me in that they have a hidden agenda. Sometimes I wonder if I’m at a disadvantage for not thinking the way everyone else seems to be, but then I remember I chose not to play the game because I do not want to contribute to that body of energy.

If you are reading this, then something in your energy field must resonate with it. You may be triggered by this, and that’s okay too. Remember this, everything is about you and your experiences. You may, at times, be able to be neutral and observe, but other times you will be in the thick of it without any ability to see what’s really happening from a higher perspective. I’m not immune to it either, believe me. Perhaps you will read this as a kindred spirit on a similar journey and feel less alone. Perhaps you will become angered and judgmental of my experience. In either case, I wish you a good journey, and my only hope is for you to connect to another human on this planet who is struggling just as you are. I hope you will see yourself in my struggle, knowing that what I’m dealing with could easily befall you too, and not judge me too harshly.

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Tags: Alone, emotional healing, giving and receiving, StrugglingToBeHuman

The Lesson really IS in Letting Go

•March 8, 2021 • Leave a Comment

Hey guys! So I promised more content, and as I’ve always promised- this is going to be an honest, full disclosure post. This blog has always been about speaking from my own viewpoint as a spirit medium, and the reason I started it was to show a side that you don’t get on the big talk or tv shows. What’s it like to live your every day life with ‘gifts?’ Well, this is my bread and butter so I hope you’re hungry!

For the last couple of years, I’ve been working as a full time musician. If anyone told me even 5 years ago that’s what I’d be doing I would have laughed in their face! Here’s the truth, though- I’ve made a commitment to following Spirit’s guidance, and that means no plan, no map and only TRUST. Is it easy? Yes and no. Here’s the skinny on how this happened.

When I moved to Florida I began searching for my people. That lead to the Center for Spiritual Living, where I very honestly was just looking for a community that was at least somewhat open-minded about spirituality. One day as I was attending ‘Sunday Celebration,’ which was my only source of social interaction at the time, I heard something. My energy field was super open, and that means that I am accessible to my Guides, or as I usually refer to them- my People. “You should get up there and sing,” they said, “this is going to lead somewhere.” Now, I have sung here and there in front of people at family gatherings but nothing performance-wise since high school, but after all this time having ignored similar messages from my People, only to find that I wasn’t as smart as I thought I was, I decided to start listening. I simply said, “okay.” I didn’t dare bother coming up with all the doubts and roadblocks that I typically envision when I am evaluating the pros and cons of a decision I’m about to make. I just did it. I listened. I went up to the head minister, and she advised me to see the music director, and then, I was up on stage singing in front of about 300 people….weekly. Holy Hell, what was I doing?

Here’s the full disclosure- I have never, ever, EVER been drawn to performing in front of a crowd of any kind, in my whole life. I am not a person who is comfortable being the center of attention. In fact, I’ve made a career of NOT doing that. Most of my professional years were spent assisting high-level executives behind the scenes and then sending them off into the spotlight. I loved it, actually, because I was the hub for everything but didn’t have the pressure of having to make any kind of public appearance. I’d do all the research, prep, and materials, then send it off for someone else to be in the spotlight. I was the superstar behind the curtain- the real Wizard! But life, and Spirit, have a way of bringing you to the place you are meant to be.

Each time I performed, I was approached by people who wanted to hire me for more singing work. One gig lead to another, and before I knew it, I was working full time as a singer. The steps that got me there were all the same- trusting the guidance. I made no plan, whatsoever, to do this. I simply followed the guidance. Even with all of the events happening, there were nights when I would lay in bed, awake at all hours, convinced that people were just being ‘polite’ or ‘nice’ and all of the compliments weren’t real. The ultimate disclosure is this- even as I heard the words of my Guides and all the reassurance of my loved ones in Spirit, I did not think I was good enough. I wouldn’t even watch videos of my performances or listen to recordings because I was convinced I just wasn’t very good. That’s when I discovered a real Truth-
All people must come to things on their own terms. No amount of praise, reason, convincing or otherwise will bring them to it.

Growing up, the nuns would tell us that it was sinful and vain to think we were special in any way. Truth be told, this wasn’t an issue. I’ve always carried a feeling that there was nothing special about me at all. Even so, I would always be asked by the nuns to sing at church. One nun, in particular, spoke very plainly to me one day when I said that I didn’t want to sing at mass that day. “God gave you a gift, and if you don’t share that gift, you are being selfish!” So, of course, I sang! I spent most of my young life not knowing if my fears were real, or if I was being silly and couldn’t see past the nose on my face. I didn’t know if I had self-esteem issues or if it was just my lack of being pretentious. I trusted the authority figures to direct me to the correct choices, because I felt they must know better. At the end of the day, every human being let me down, or fell short in some way. I finally came to really understand that the only thing in my life that never let me down was Spirit. And so we come one of the lessons in this experience: Doubt does not disappear when you have spiritual gifts, because Doubt is human, and we do not cease being human even if we are gifted.

We all have gifts, and we all have fears and doubts. Both can be present simultaneously. Gifted people do not escape being human. I don’t know if my thinking that I’m not good enough is a virtue (as the nuns would teach we are all unworthy) or a disease that I needed to remedy. Once again, this blog is not to judge, but to observe and open up the conversation. Your decisions are always yours to make, but maybe by sharing my journey, you will find there are more options available to you than you thought. It took years for me to listen and trust, and look where that has lead me! Once I let go, life just flowed.

A caterpillar doesn’t fight being in its cocoon, or doubt that it will become a butterfly. It simply trusts and surrenders to the process.

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Tags: doubting yourself, spiritual gifts, spiritual guidance

The Price of Authenticity

•September 19, 2018 • Leave a Comment

Authenticity is a huge theme in my life, as I believe it is for many of you who follow my writing. I’d like to share a bit of my own journey with you as a way of connecting to those of you who I don’t know personally.

If you haven’t yet seen the movie, “I Feel Pretty,” go watch it. It’s the perfect expression of how we hold ourselves back. We go through life like Mockingbirds, singing the songs we hear back to those who enjoy the sound of their own song. We strive to be ‘good enough’ to run with the people we see as ideal, when, in fact, they are anything but- because they are part of the same energy.

As a child, I remember being confused a lot. I have always had a sense for what is going on beneath the surface with others. I’d try my hardest to quiet that inner knowing and go with what my 5 senses told me was real. Every time I believed something based on that logic, I’d find myself regretting it. I couldn’t explain what I knew, and that made it more confusing. I once remember telling a family member that I “used to be big (as in an adult)” and remember being told that I was wrong about that. This made me doubt myself.

I remember another instance when I was in 5th grade, and the teacher had left the room. I was fooling around, like all the other kids, and when the teacher came back in she glared at me and I felt an inch tall. She later told my parents that she came back to the classroom to an ‘ungodly’ laugh. It was mine. Another instance that planted a seed of doubt, and this time, silence.

Sometimes when I ask Spirit for help with a situation, I am shown these memories in my mind’s eye. Spirit communicates using images that we understand, even if it feels like a memory, which surfaces out of nowhere. Like most people, I wanted to do something constructive with it and I tried that first. It soon became clear that there was no task to be completed. Instead, I was to see where I had learned to be inauthentic.

These instances instilled in me a fear and a secret hurt that it was wrong for me to be who I am. In the first instance, I learned that my truth wouldn’t be believed, and it made me feel insignificant. In the second, my joy that was expressed in the form of laughter was not only unwelcome, but somehow offensive and ugly.

I learned to hide myself, and that I didn’t belong. There are more instances, including the one where I excitedly told my class about the time my grandmother came to see me after she died. Each one brought about more feelings of being unacceptable and was followed by more isolation. My parents worried about me as a child because I had a tendency to want to spend time with adults rather than play with the kids my own age. I still have that tendency to this day, and I think it’s because I have always been fascinated with older peoples’ stories- you know, the things that make them who they are. Kids didn’t talk like that.

As a result of this kind of conditioning, over time, I’ve found that I prefer being alone much of the time, and also to be very selective with who I let into my life. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing.

These feelings of rejection, judgement, shame and being cast aside, no matter how much you try to push these down, demand to be seen. It is only when you sit with them, and talk with them, that you understand who you are and how you came to be. From there, you have choices you didn’t have before, because you become aware.

If you know me at all, you know I do not like games, and I don’t play them. I won’t. I make decisions on the company I keep based on a few very important criteria. First, I trust my gut and my inner knowing. I’ve learned the hard way that it is my only truth. Second, I look into a person’s energy for authenticity. There are other factors, as well.

I share this with you to let you know that being more aware, psychic, spiritual, etc, does not make your path any easier. I also share because I know how lonely it is to be authentic in a world that does not always appreciate that quality. It keeps us from being who we are, and knowing who we are. It also keeps us from really admitting what we want, love and need in this world. We’re so busy working hard to get the house and the car that we don’t realize these things don’t matter to us. Sometimes losing these things is a huge blessing. When you are without, is when you truly know what matters.

Embrace yourself today. And if no one else tells you- you matter.

Today’s card, from the Sacred Rebels Oracle by Alana Fairchild.

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Tags: authenticity, childhood trauma, Fake world, learning to hide who you are, you matter

Heart on a sleeve

•September 14, 2018 • Leave a Comment

Authenticity is something I prize. It’s not always easy, and many times we build up our armor out of fear that in protecting ourselves we are doing ourselves a disservice. I’m not saying we should all sky-dive without a parachute, but there should be a healthy sense of allowing when it comes to our energy. Why do we make people fight so hard to see who we are? We do we make it difficult for people to share their affection with us?

There is a sense of what we deserve that plays heavily into this, but you know what? We are the only ones that assign that judgement. Attribute it to whatever you wish- Eve eating from the tree of knowledge, if you like. But the sun doesn’t judge itself as too hot, too bright, or harmful. It simply is the sun. Most living creatures are authentic in this way. Why aren’t we that way? Why do we judge our feelings as appropriate or inappropriate? Why do we think we belong in one place and not another? I’m not an expert, but I sincerely doubt there is a hippopotamus sitting around feeling bad that it’s not as pretty as a giraffe, or bird ashamed to sing its own song.

We do these things to ourselves, and then we don’t know how to be who we are anymore. It’s not a question of hiding, over time, it becomes a question of not even knowing who we are in the first place.

It takes a lot of courage to face ourselves and accept who we are, if we’re even brave enough to look beneath the surface. If we become more child-like in our approach, and suspend our judgement in order to explore and observe, we can see more clearly. Are you brave enough to look? If you are, it will change your experience of the world.

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Tags: allowing, authenticity, child-like, non-judgement

The Secret Struggle

•September 10, 2018 • Leave a Comment

We are all fighting a secret battle that no one can see. I’m no exception to this. Each of us, at some point, becomes so good at hiding our struggle, that it appears that no one notices. And then, you stumble across that one person, who without effort, creates a tiny crack in our fortress, and things come pouring out.

Then what?

We immediately panic. We pull back. We hide. We try to quietly let the crack heal in the private hell we create for ourselves that no one is supposed to see or know exists.

The world tells us that any sign of weakness makes us vulnerable to attack. I’m not sure which is worse- the fact that we see our authentic selves as weak or that we have to walk around feeling like we are prey.

So here’s what I really want to say, and this was just laying out some groundwork for where this is coming from.

All living things, if they are healthy, instinctively crave love, safety and comfort. Somehow, we’ve created a world where these needs are looked at as weaknesses, and that is devastating. To deny this is to create a world that thrives on fear and addiction. If we can’t get love, we try to fulfill that need other ways- sex with strangers, drugs, alcohol, over-spending, extreme sports, etc. Love makes us feel connected and alive, and if we do not have that, we will do anything to find a way to feel those things, even if it’s only temporary and detrimental in the long run. They always fall short.

The devastating part is that we are all in need of the same thing, and all afraid to admit it- and for some of us, it was a spiritual teaching that brought us to this place. That’s right, my friends, you thought you were doing yourself a favor by not needing anyone and being ‘strong’ on your own, but all you achieved was isolation, and denial of what truly makes you thrive as a human being. Looking at it from that viewpoint, the thing you thought made you powerful actually made you quite weak, and easier prey for those who enjoy destroying someone’s spirit.

You thought that by keeping yourself in control of your emotions, you were being strong. Instead, it created a dissociative state that you are now very comfortable with, hence having the thing you truly want and need- love, safety and comfort- become a threat.

Can you see where I’m going with this?

We’ve been conditioned that our ego is evil. I don’t understand that. Ego is your identity in this life, in other words, your gender/ancestry/name, anything that is associated with your physical form. It is not the enemy. It’s simply your current incarnation. This physical form will have needs that need to be tended to. Ego gives us an individual personality and identity, so that Spirit, which is our true identity, can experience itself in its many forms. Ego IS the purpose of being human. It’s the experience we came here for. So why are we trashing it? Why are we telling ourselves that it’s something that needs to be shed and transcended?

Ego is the incarnation, but it is not disconnected from Spirit. Spirit also has needs, and they are linked. Spirit craves oneness, connection, and harmony. These pair perfectly with the needs of the ego, they are not in opposition. Living from this space creates a different experience of the world.

The person who hides their emotions, authenticity and need for love is living in a state of imprisonment. This WILL lead to the cycle of addiction and abuse. This will yield a fear of intimacy and closeness to other human beings. It will trick you into thinking you are weak for any need you have and that will make you feel unworthy of those needs.

Hear me. I know it’s hard to think that anyone would even want to be a part of your struggle, and your lips are sealed when someone asks you about how you’re doing. But living this way is creating a private Hell for each of us. Jesus said to love one another as we love ourselves. If this is the way we love ourselves, how can we ever expect to love and be loved as we truly need to be loved? It’s impossible.

Being authentic means washing away the things we are taught as right and wrong, and reconnecting to the inner-knowing of what those really are. Destroying other human beings in a quest to best everyone has become the only way to be seen as ‘successful.’ Inside, you know this is wrong, but you are taught that it is weak to be kind, loving and nurturing.

Fuck all that. I need to be loved, nurtured and to feel like I’m of value. I’m done pretending I’m ‘fine.’ I’m not fine, and neither are many of you reading this. I don’t need a professional to counsel me, I need friends who care. I don’t need a happy pill, I need a sense of belonging. I don’t need to make more money, I need to feel valued. We are part of nature, and nature is perfect. It’s the the creation of these rules that have corrupted us, and it’s time we all admit that we’ve created a false world that will never allow us to thrive as we were made to.

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Tags: ego self versus spirit, fear vs love, love, self love, soulmate, spiritual identity, spiritual love

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“Hey now, Hey now- Don’t Dream It’s Over.”

That’s how you break out of the Matrix.

It’s always on the table, we just have to choose it.

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I pride myself on being honest, so here we go!

Understanding the Truth, rather than finding a convenient label

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Characteristics of choices

Stemming from the Ego-dominant Path

The Secret

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