When it’s not enough…
I want to talk to those of you today who clicked on this link specifically because of the title. I know you need to hear this. I know you’ve had days when you have run out of hope. I know you feel alienated and misunderstood. I know because I’ve been there too, and I want you to know that there are still good people in the world. Please stay with me and read on.
I’ve been blessed by being surrounded by many interesting and unique people throughout my life. I’ve enjoyed learning their back-stories, and finding out the steps that lead them to where they found themselves. I’ve held space for people who needed someone to listen without judgement, and allowed them to express emotions without censorship. I’ve seen walls come down that some didn’t even know were there. I’ve seen tears turn into smiles. I’ve felt the years of stored emotion pour out and furrowed brows become smooth again. Witnessing these things was incredible. This is the greatest part of being an Intuitive person.
As I grew in my personal development, uncovering my intuitive and mediumship gifts, I found a wonderful teacher who told me something that I’ll never forget. She told me I was ‘very good at putting yourself aside in your work,’ and ‘one of the rare people who does this from the right place.’ This piece of information became very important in my self-discovery. Another important encounter came from a shop owner in Salem, MA. I had my aura photographed and interpreted, which was supposed to be just for fun, but the shop owner looked surprised at how it turned out. She said, “it’s very rare to see an aura like this. Typically I only see this with animals and small children.” This became another clue about who I am. I began to understand my blending of qualities and the way I saw the world had purpose and meaning, but yet something seemed to be missing.
~To be accepted is to feel loved, and to be loved the way we need to be loved is a rare thing~
If you already know Teal Swan’s work- great! If not, look her up because what I’m about to speak of is something she teaches beautifully. Teal Swan says that to love someone is to take them as part of yourself, which makes perfect sense in my world. If you see us all as tiny sparks of light from the same Source Light, then you already understand. We are all part of each other already. Looking at it through this lense, I came to the realization that I loved many, many people, and yet, somehow I still felt alone. It took time, but I started to see the significance of those two important encounters and what I was told by my teachers. I take others as part of myself without question, because that is who I am. The problem is that wasn’t being offered in return. I was out of balance, and I had to start taking better care of having my needs met. If I cared about you, and you cared only about you.. who is left to care for me?
Being different is not easy. Living and making choices from a different foundation requires true strength and bravery. Every human, in some way, wants to belong, whether it’s to a family, a profession, religious organization, or even a clique. We were made to form connections. When things aren’t working, we wrestle to ‘make things right,’ or to ‘fix ourselves’ so things will work. But we are not machines with tiny metal components that can just be removed or replaced. We are complex. We hide things from our own selves. We lie to ourselves. When we take this approach, we cannot be authentic with others, and our decisions come from a completely different place. We forget who we are.
It’s Time to Flip the Script
Those of you who have worked very hard to know yourself, trust yourself, and live in alignment understand how hard that can be in a world full of people who do not understand your choices. I’m here to tell you that even if you feel that no one understands you, you must press on. There will be a period of losing people, and it will hurt your feelings. It’s okay to be hurt by this, and you need to know that you did nothing wrong. You need to know that just because you don’t fit into the definitions and molds that others have for you, you are lovable and worthy of love just as you are. We are many, and we are now in a time when we can finally ‘see’ one another. Your Tribe is out there! Though we may be separated by distance, technology has given us a way to connect. The important thing now, is not to hide yourself or shy away from showing your light. Others out there need to see it, and you need to see theirs. Stay vigilant. We always find the thing we were looking for just when we were about to give up.
Confessions of a Spirit Messenger 