Tell It Like It Is!

•February 16, 2016 • Leave a Comment

We all have recurring themes in our lives that we chalk up to coincidence, bad luck, or blame on outside influences.  The truth is, they are none of those.  They are forms of communication from that place of knowing inside of us and if we take the time to work with them, they transform us.  One of my biggest personal lessons in this life has been to have the courage to use the power of my voice.   The most recent symbol from Spirit for this specific lesson was written about in a previous post, which you can find here.

When a lesson is presented by Spirit as something you are meant to learn or understand, the signs you receive are often repetitive. This way, you are sure to trust them.  Today’s blog will give you some insight of how this one continues to present itself in my life, and why this lesson is of such great importance to me to take this opportunity to use my voice in regard to a very specific topic.

As human beings, we naturally look for solutions to ease the pain and unpleasantness of our situations in life.  But we don’t live in a society that values truth.  We live in a society that values capitalism.  So, naturally, the response from a business perspective is to give the people what they want.  This has led to a lot of seemingly helpful products that are presented in the guise of being the complete solution to what ails you, and yet, falls very short of the mark.

Spirit has taken me through many experiences to show me that there is a need for spiritual warriors here.  When I see people that are let down when their expectations are not met, and even worse, they are blaming themselves for ‘not doing it right,’ I can’t help but feel that fire in the pit of my belly, asking me to do what is necessary to stop this unnecessary misery.  One of the worst offending misrepresentations in the spiritual self-help genre is the  illusion that all of our ‘negative’ emotions and traumas can be washed away into thinking happy thoughts.  This is nonsense.  Nothing exists without a purpose, even if it creates discomfort, sadness, grief, or pain.  Ignoring these natural forms of communication from our own beings is detrimental. No rain, no rainbow.  The real gold is in being taught how to work with and through these feelings,  not in pushing them away.

The predominant attitude at large that it’s someone else’s job to solve our problems is creating a world where we are less and less in touch with ourselves.  We are all too busy with the ‘important’ things, and have no time to give to such matters as healing our traumas.  Why put ourselves through the anguish of examining our difficult feelings when we can pay a ‘shrink’ to take care of it for us?  That’s a very easy question to answer.   It’s easier for us to give someone else the responsibility of handling the difficult tasks in life.  But what’s the trade-off?  Giving away the responsibility, also gives away your power.

You know all of those books out there that tell you how powerful you are?  They are right.  You are powerful, and yet the counterpart to really standing in your power– taking responsibility for it– appears to be oddly absent, doesn’t it? Recognize that when something is uncomfortable, it is calling your attention to it, so you can use your power to transform it.   If you are truly following your path, your guidance will always be present, even when you think you are just disappearing into the sweet escape of watching sci-fi in your pajamas.

You are worth more than the collection of books on your shelf, filled with the theories of other people.  Have the courage to have an original thought, and to gain knowledge through your own personal experience.  Rely on you!


From the Deck of I AM, by Deb Barrett,

With Love and Respect for all of my Readers, ❤️


The Love of Spirit and Angelic Connections

•February 15, 2016 • Leave a Comment

Last year around this time, I was out having lunch at the Ninety-Nine with my Bestie.  As we waited for our food to be served, I flipped through the pages of the latest edition of Wisdom Magazine.  As I looked at the articles, I noticed a single word on one of the pages jumped out at me, 3-D Spiritual style– ‘lightarian.’  I didn’t know what it meant, but I knew if it was appearing all shiny and sparkly it was because it had significance.   “Hmm,” I said, “I don’t know what it is, but that is something.”

After we finished our lunch, we headed off to The Sanctuary, right on 6A in Barnstable Village on beautiful Cape Cod, Massachusetts.  I had only just heard about this little shop, and was very excited to visit.  When we arrived, we were greeted by a sense of warmth.  The fireplace was lit, and the store was filled with all sorts of treasures, from jewelry and artwork to oracle cards and magical tools.  My Bestie and I took our time, exploring all of the nooks and crannies of the space.  I could feel in my bones that the energy here was of a high vibration, and that is something that I look for whenever I enter any space, but especially a ‘new age’ shop.

As we started back toward the front desk,  the lady at the counter asked, “Are there any questions I can answer for you?”  It was Karen, the smiling face that first welcomed us to The Sanctuary.  My spidey senses were tingling when she asked us this, and I immediately flashed back to that word- “Do you have anyone here who does ‘Lightarian’ work?” I asked.   The answer was a resounding, “Yes, we do!”  This is where I first learned about the AngelLinks™, a series of attunements that connect you to a Seraphim named Rose Aura, and to each of the 4 Archangels.  I intuitively knew this was what Spirit had intended for me to be drawn to.  I took home the brochure that explained these attunements and made a phone call to Rev. Amy Marino, who was the store’s proprietor, and the facilitator for the AngelLinks™.

A day or so passed by, and I found myself in my car, driving back from my lunch break.  I was only working part-time, and did not have any extra money to spend on things I deemed non-essential to living.   I was thinking out loud.  “The only way I can afford to pay for these attunements is if I can take one class a month, over the next 5 months.”   I knew I would be moving to Florida by the end of June, and I did not want to miss out on this opportunity I was being guided to experience.  Within minutes of having this thought, Amy returned my call.  I asked about the process, and if I would have to make individual appointments for each attunement.  This was the moment that any doubt I had, was wiped from my mind.  She told me that a few people who had one or two of the attunements were suddenly calling her to take the others, and since there was enough interest, she was putting together a schedule of one attunement per month, that would be done with a small group.  My smile must have been enormous.  I silently thanked Spirit, and signed up for the first class, which was the attunement to Rose Aura, on February 14th, Valentine’s Day.  What a perfect day to express my gratitude for the Love of Spirit.

One year later, almost to the day, it has been become clear that the time has come for me to share these AngelLinks™ with others.  As such, I am currently taking appointments to pass on these attunements, which have greatly enriched my relationship with the Angels, and brought me a new sense of being connected to Spirit.

Please click on the image below for more information, and to sign up for your personal attunements!




The Lightarian Institute for Global Human Transformation

The Sanctuary



The art of interpreting signs from Spirit

•February 1, 2016 • 1 Comment

When we first begin to converse with Spirit, it is easy to dismiss the things we receive as coincidence or imagination.  We are taught to believe what we see with our physical eyes, and can prove in the physical world. Spirit communication, however, is not the same as one physical being having a conversation with another. The unseen world, although it is all around us, can feel like a fantasy.  This blog will help dispel some of your doubts and preconceived notions about how Spirit communication comes across– as always, using my own personal experiences as examples.

Spirit is persistent, and will not give up until you receive the message that is coming through to you.  You may think you heard something that sounded like it pertained to you, for example, while watching a movie, then later, overhear a conversation while in line at the grocery store that sounds oddly like the answer to your question. You may see various symbols that appear over and over, everywhere you find yourself.  Because we ask so many questions in our minds on a daily basis, we may be unaware that our energies are not only being perceived by Spirit, but are a bit scattered, which can result in receiving messages that appear to be confusing.

Throughout my life, Bear has been one of my most sacred symbols.  I have come to understand that Bear is one of my Totem Animals.  I have had many experiences with Animal Spirits who have appeared to me in dreams, or have shown up as signs in my life when I’ve asked for help in how to handle a situation at hand.  Each animal has its own ‘Medicine.’  There have been several instances where I have had very lucid dreams, in which I’m on a path in the woods and am joined by Wolf, a powerful spirit animal that represents the highest Teacher in the animal spirit kingdom.  I would walk alongside with Wolf, and suddenly understand things instantly that up until that point made no sense to my waking mind, waking up with clarity, and a sense of calm.  Recently, though, I began a course in animal communication that requires me to complete a series of exercises, one of which, is to discover your ‘Power Animal.’   I didn’t really think too much about this, because I had so many experiences with powerful animals like Bear, Wolf, Panther and Hawk.  I thought, ‘one of these must fit that description.’  In the following couple of weeks, I got busy, unable to really sit and focus on these exercises, yet still keeping the thought in mind- ‘Who is my Power Animal?’

NOTE:  Because signs and symbols often appear over a longer length of time in the beginning of your development, it is crucial for you to document anything you notice in your journal, as suggested in my previous post.

The answer came in an interesting sequence of experiences that all pointed to the same, surprising answer.    Over a period of about a month, the Lion made himself known.

   I was nudged to notice images everywhere I went, ranging from architecture, to business logos, Internet memes, and clothing/accessories.  Then, there were the dreams.  They were recurring.  I would be in a dorm, a house, or apartment, and the Lion would be following me.  In one instance, no matter how hard I tried, Lion found me.  I was behind a locked door, and saw his powerful paws, reaching for me from underneath the door!  I was confused because I didn’t feel he would hurt me, but something else told me, ‘hey, this is a lion, and they are dangerous, so you might want to run!’

At this point, I knew the Lion was reaching out to me- literally!   The next step was, ‘why?’  I didn’t understand what this meant.  I looked it up in various resources, but as you know, it’s not always in someone else’s research that you find YOUR answer.  So last night, before I went to sleep, I asked for a sign in a dream.  I also asked that I be awoken from the dream, so I would remember it.  Sure enough, I dreamed of the Lion, but this time he wasn’t chasing me  He simply appeared in all of his majesty.  In a flash, I saw him as a sculpture outside a building.  I woke up instantly, and said out loud, ‘Lion is guarding me.’  I knew at that point, that not only was Lion working with me to guard me through the powerful medicine of his roar, he is my Power Animal.  The qualities that I’ve been guided to exhibit, particularly leadership, are all part of this Medicine.  I got my answer, and now my real work begins.

So as you can see, intuitive work and receiving answers is definitely not the same as a traditional conversation.  You have to have the patience and openness to listen with different senses, and the faith of a child to trust that they are real.  Your journey is your own, and no one else will have the exact same experience with the Divine that you have.   If, however, you would like a little guidance in your development, you may reach out to me at to schedule a Personal Development session with me.  I love hearing how Spirit reaches out to people, and I am always happy to be a part of another’s journey back to Spirit.

To be of Service to Others, or to Self?

•January 8, 2016 • Leave a Comment

There are many of us right now, who are discovering the myths behind what we thought were our truths. This year is all about that, so it’s fitting, and if you are one of them, you’re on track.   Something that needs to be addressed in the process of self-discovery is self-love.

Like many others, I have had my own struggles with understanding what the difference is between being loving and kind to myself, versus being selfish.  I’ve also struggled with that calling to be of service, while trying to understand how that translated into self-care.  Spirit has shown me through my own experiences, that there is a need for clarity in this area.

I am brought to a time when I was so down in the dumps I couldn’t see my way out.  Others came to me for help, and the tiny bit of strength I could muster was given freely, as my calling to help others is so deep.  As is the case with many of us, I found that my great love for helping others did not seem to be reciprocated.  In my humanness, I thought about what that might mean.  Was I not giving enough, even still?  Was I not worthy of receiving?  Is this from a past life or am I paying some kind of Karmic debt? It’s normal to look for reasons when something is not working the way we anticipated it would work.

In that space, I was asked to think about what it was I was giving the people who needed my help.  Was I being fully present with them?  Perhaps not.  How could I, when I was in such a state of discomfort, depletion and hopelessness?  Was I giving them a clear picture of what was possible?  Maybe, but not from my own example.  It’s tough to see much from that deep place of processing grief, shame, or the other emotions that are considered ‘negative.’

So the lessons is this- self-care, self-love, and self-development are key to being whole and healthy.  We can’t wait for someone to pick us up and dust us off.  We must find that within ourselves.  You may be asking, “If I have nothing left to give, what can I possibly give even myself?”  That’s where the truth comes in.  We are not just these physical beings.  We carry a seed of the Light of God in all of us.  That seed is the door to our strength.  The strength within you is the Light within you. You may not realize it, but it’s that place of Light inside of you that you are calling in when you help others, and it’s that same place that will help you to help yourself as well.

You’re not just your body, and your body/brain, is not the source of all things.  Use them as tools and resources, by all means, but do not mistake that they are your only source!  Your connection to the Light of God, is what makes you who you are.  It’s not your education, style of fashion, choice of automobile or your job.  Those are all things that are physical, but they do not define the whole of who we are.   At the end of the day, you can lose all of those things- even your physical body, and you will still have your Light.

You are entitled to the full spectrum of the Love and care you offer others, and it is available to you, always.  Call upon it when you need it.  The supply is Limitless.

2016: The Year of Manifestation

•January 1, 2016 • Leave a Comment

Manifestation is a hot topic, and there are plenty of ‘experts’ that will tell you, or rather ‘sell’ you, how it all works.   Just like you, I, too, have had my eyes and ears open to the maelstrom of information that exists on the topic.  And like most things, I’ve found that when it comes to how to accomplish something, there’s only one way that works for me- my way.

No, I’m not ego-tripping on you!  When I’m helping others, I often try to use story as a method to illustrate this very point.  I’ve been through workshops, readings, training and certification on various techniques on how to do one thing or another.  The exercise wasn’t really to find ‘the way,’ but to observe and uncover the hidden truths in the applications of techniques and methods- resulting in what I call, ‘my way.’   In the end, the truth that always rings the loudest-

To thine own self, be true.

Now be careful with your definitions.  Words don’t always mean what you say with your lips.  Before there are words, there are ideas.  In order to communicate them, we use the words available to us to explain.  Sometimes it doesn’t always translate, as is the case when people use a phrase such as this.  It can easily be taken as a self-important, pompous way of being. But consider this-  that is only the case when we separate ourselves from all that is, as if we are not connected, not a part of all that is.   Read that last sentence aloud, and then see if you find a difference in where you are coming from when you now repeat the phrase, ‘to thine own self, be true.’

2016 is the collective reawakening of humanity to the idea that there is strength within communion that is not attainable through separation.  What I mean is this-  in comtemporary society, it’s acceptable to think in terms of Darwinsm, even if you don’t necessarily subscribe to that teaching.  We are tiny machines, competing for resources and only those who separate themselves from the pack and rise above it are successful.  This mindset is responsible for every act of violence taken in everyday life.  The fear behind the thoughts that we must be stronger than the next person, and eliminate competition for resources in order to survive and thrive, creates a system of subsequent values that move us even further in the direction of separation.  The result?  War on a multitude of levels, including war within our own selves.  It is true that change is not easy or comfortable, but I believe we are coming into an age of awareness that will allow us to adopt the concept that we are all connected, and that everything you do affects others, and everything others do, affects you.  In this model, all of us have a stake in doing the right thing because it makes a better world for all of us- thy self, included. So celebrate the accomplishments of others.  Be in awe and appreciation of the things your fellow brothers and sisters have and are- because they are yours as well, by virtue of our connection to all there is and to one another.

So what does this have to do with manifestation?  Well, if you are willing to become aware of your connection to all there is, then you can’t help but notice that you have access to all there is.  And if you know that we are all connected, you also can’t help but notice that means you are in communication with all there is.  This is an important shift.  As you awaken to this sense of connection, you are also becoming aware of the aspects of your self.

You = Thought/Mind + Emotion/Heart + Intuition/Spirit.

Each aspect of our ‘self,’ has a role and function.  Manifestation does not come from thoughts alone. Big news flash- Thoughts do not program your entire being. They are not responsible for the whole of you! Thoughts attempt to explain and decipher, and that is where you are lead down the primrose path of confusion. The way to the Truth, is to become aware of the other aspects of yourself that a you are discounting, and allow them to be a part of the conversation.  The Heart is the bridge that connects Thought and Spirit through Emotion. Once you begin to see this as the true ‘Trinity,’ within, you will begin to understand what real wholeness is about, and for the first time, perhaps, alignment is possible!

So, my dear readers, the key to manifestation is awakening to our whole, recognizing your connection to all living things, in being in communion with all there is.  Once you come from this place, and not a place of fear, separation, and hierarchy, the universe conspires to bring you what you seek, and you begin to see synchronicities and omens that validate the process.

It would be so much easier to sell you a package for $199 that will give you the steps to manifestation, and then continue to sell you the sequel and so on, but my purpose here is not to keep you attached to me, it is to set you free!

Wishing all of you a Blessed 2016! Happy New Year!

This is your year to transform!

This is your year to transform!

Moving Past Your Blocks, Part 2:  Your Shadow is Your Friend

•December 27, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Sometimes the darkness can show you the light!

Christmas Moon 2015

If you read my blog on how to move past your blocks and into your future, and have started the process, then this is a good time for you to move on to the next phase.

Simply gazing up at the beautiful Christmas moon, shows you the power of the Darkness, as the Light of that beautiful heavenly body pierced the night sky.  So too, can your darkness show you, your powerful Light within.

The Shadow Self, a term coined by Carl Jung is the part of us that we keep hidden from the world, and oftentimes, from ourselves.  This is not necessarily a conscious decision, however, taking steps to explore it and what it holds is a conscious choice.  After you have been journaling for some time, you will begin to notice things that didn’t pop up into your awareness before.  These are your personal Shadows, and they can help you move forward if you allow yourself to look at them without judgement.  For example, you may have been writing about your career, or lack of one.  Perhaps you will find that there are words or phrases you use frequently in your journaling about this topic.  Look carefully.  Pretend you are looking into the heart of another person, who is allowing you to peer into the window of their soul, revealing their darkest secrets.  Are you seeing patterns that suggest you feel undeserving of a successful career?  Do you detect an undertone that implies that people who seek to have an abundance of money are immoral?  These concepts may sound silly on the surface, but when we take the time to dig deep, there are patterns and beliefs, operating underneath the surface that are the origin of our blocks.

In order to move past these blocks, you must first acknowledge them.  Let yourself sit in the vibration of the thought pattern you’ve uncovered.  You can do this actively, thinking about it as you clean up around the house, or take a walk, or you can be still and meditate on it.  Either is fine, as long as it feels good to you.  Ask yourself if there may have been a specific instance or age when you first came to believe this to be true.  Go with the first thing that comes to you, and try not to second-guess.   The answers are not right or wrong in this process, and it is quite personal, so be compassionate with yourself as you move through it.  You may find something as simple as an incident from your childhood where you saw someone who had a lot of money using it to do evil things, for example.  You may have overheard a conversation at a young age around what is a good career choice or a bad one.  One simple thought can implant itself in your energy field and act like a virus, hijacking your dreams and personal fulfillment.

Once you have this information, your next step is to ask it to be released.  Intuitively, most people have a gut feeling of a ‘yes’ or ‘no,’ but you may also use a pendulum, muscle testing, or other form of accessing your subconscious that feels appropriate.

If you sense there is a ‘no’ or ‘stop’ energy around it when you ask if it is okay to clear the pattern, let it be.  There may be a number of reasons for this, such as a lesson your soul is trying to learn, or that you may not be ready to let it go.  This doesn’t excuse you from giving it the attention it needs to move past it. It simply means there is more for you to ask your Shadow about.  Continue to journal about what you have uncovered and repeat the process of reviewing your writing after a period of time, and ask again, if it is appropriate to remove it from your energy field.

If you sense an intuitive ‘yes’ or ‘go,’ then you may use the method of your choosing to relase the energy of the belief or pattern from your energy field.  Since we all have our own ways of intuitively sensing information, I will not prescribe one single way to clear your pattern, as one way does not work for everyone.  Some people find that visualizing themselves surrounded by pure Source Energy works well.  Others find that it’s helpful to feel or sense where the pattern exists in their aura and use their hands pull it into a bubble of light they send straight to God.  Doreen Virtue has a clearing meditation which may be helpful if you feel you need a bit of guidance in your process.  However you feel is best for you, is the right way.

If you’ve successfully removed the pattern,  you will feel a shift, or difference in your energy field of some kind.  It may be subtle or it may be big and booming.  Let it be what it is without judging it.  If you do not feel that it has been removed, you may try another technique, or you may try going back to your Shadow to ask for more information about the problem you are trying to clear.

As we look forward to 2016, creating our New Year’s Resolutions, it’s also important to also peer into our Shadow and see what is hiding there. You wouldn’t fill a filthy house with new furniture before you cleaned it out, would you? So it’s time to clean house to make room for the all the new, wonderful experiences ahead of you!

Tiny, salty, badges of courage

•December 6, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Today I need to share something very urgent with all of you.  This is a message about the Truth in your tears, and the preciousness inside of you that we call emotions. 

Most people find themselves unhappy, seeking out things in the physical world to give them this feeling of joy.  At some point, we realize we’ve reached a point where we’ve got to start looking elsewhere. Material things didn’t do it.  Money didn’t quite make the mark either.  Working out and sculpting our body maybe fell short as well.  

I’m here to tell you, that you have come to this place because you are a seeker of Light, not happiness.

You see, much of the ‘self-help’ movement has focused on how we can manipulate our minds and trick ourselves into feeling better.  If that truly were the answer, there wouldn’t need to be any more books, speeches or gurus to get us there…. and yet, there are, and here we are.

Feelings, my dear readers, are a precious gift.  They are a way of experiencing the world in a body.  Yes, we have our 5 senses, but we also have our emotions, which are discounted and treated as inconvenience.  Yet, we continue to seek.  We continue to find that one holy grail emotion, happiness, through artificial means.  Let me ask this question.  Do you really even know what happiness means?  Is happiness falling in love?  Is it being greeted by a puppy who is excited to see you?  Is it the feeling secure in the arms of a loved one, or the face of a child who trusts us to care for them?

We are coming at this from the wrong angle.  Some of you may have answered ‘yes’ to the aforementioned scenarios.  But heres the thing-  they are just scenarios.  How you feel about them, and what you feel about them is not the scenario, itself, but the internal process of experiencing the scenario.  

Feelings are not to be ignored, manipulated or confused into being other feelings.  They are messengers.  They provide insight into your current state of experiencing the world.  They allow you to experience things from your heart space, which is nothing to scoff at.  We’re tricked into this way of thinking about ourselves as these little machines, run by our brain and powered by thoughts alone.  We are not.  We have emotions because they are an integral part of our experience.  

Emotions are the bridge between the Soul and the Body. That is why the lower or more ‘physical’ chakras and the higher or more ‘spiritual’ chakras meet in the middle, at the Heart Chakra. 

My title speaks of one particular kind of emotion- the kind that illicit those beautiful little badges of salty courage, and love that spill from our eyes, sometimes without our permission.  These are the emotions of grief, sadness, shame, lonliness, pain, regret, and fear.  This is only a small sampling of what kinds of feelings may bring you to tears, but for the purposes of this blog post, they will suffice.  Tears are not acceptable in Western society.  We are taught that from an early age.  Tears mean you are weak.  Tears mean you have CHOSEN to be a victim.  Tears mean you are shameful. Tears mean you cannot control yourself.  Lastly, tears mean there is something very wrong.

Tears, can be many things.  I will list a few examples here.

– Relief

– Letting go

– Strength or endurance

– Cleansing 

– An outpouring of Love or Joy that we cannot contain but must allow to flow through us

One thing tears are not.  Tears are never ‘wrong.’ 

Your thoughts and emotions are not separate.  They are different.  I like to describe thoughts as the way we process situations from the collective information we hold in our brains, and emotion as the way we experience a situation with our Hearts.   You cannot think yourself out of a feeling, and you cannot feel yourself out of your thinking (although sometimes it feels that way).  They both have something to say, to contribute to the conversation that is your experience of the world.

Please, honor your feelings, especially your tears.  They need not be public, but they should always be listened to.  The next time you experience an emotion that brings you to tears, allow them to happen, and then speak to them.  Ask them what message they have for you.  Connect them to your thoughts, but never mistake them as thoughts.  Your emotions and thoughts are holding hands, and exist to assist you on your journey here.  Respect them both, and your world will transform. 

How to move past blocks and into your future

•November 25, 2015 • 1 Comment

There are so many different approaches and systems that are in the self-help genre, it can be difficult to choose which one is right for you.  For many of the people I’ve worked with, a sense of failure quickly follows when whatever the newest trend in self-help, and self-healing didn’t yield the results they were looking for.  This has been a sense of frustration for me, personally, over the years as well.  Until now.

What I’ve discovered is the first step to any self-help approach has to begin with self-examination.  If you had to plan a party, for example, you wouldn’t just go out and buy up whatever you saw in the party store and plop it all down on the counter.  There’s a thought process that goes into planning a party, and there’s a thought process that goes into self-healing.  After all, you could be setting up for a Bat-Mitzvah, when you wanted to end up with a Graduation party.  The process makes a BIG difference in the end result.

Step 1

Since most of who find ourselves in a pinch try to think ourselves out of it, let’s start with your thinking.  Do you even know what you’re really thinking, or what words you use most?  This is important, because so many of us are stuck in a pattern that keeps repeating because we are unaware of them.  So how do you get aware?  You need to start writing things down.  Journaling is one of those things that is recommended by almost every guru I’ve ever come across and there’s a good reason for it.  It helps you to get out your thoughts without anyone’s judgement, which can be a calming exercise.  It also gives you the opportunity to be totally honest, because this journal is not meant for anyone else to read.  This is a healing process in and of itself.  Being bottled up often leads to destructive behaviors and can lead to illness.  Human beings weren’t meant to hold things in, but we don’t necessarily need to share them with other human beings to get them out.

You may be thinking, “Can’t I just go to the gym and work out my frustrations there?” or “I meditate to get calm myself, and I think that’s enough.”  Those are valid ways of working out frustrations, and I applaud you for realizing that you are frustrated enough to actually implement a practice.  However, like the party-planning, there’s something to be said for the method and the results it yields.  You can jog until you’re too exhausted to remember why you were upset to begin with.  You can meditate and reach amazing states of altered consciousness, melting away the worries of the world.  But here’s what journaling does that other practices does not.

You may think you talked it out in your own mind while you were exercising, or you may feel you got a sense of peace from your spiritual practice, but the pen is mightier than the sword!  When you journal, you’re using the written word, which is very powerful, especially if you handwrite, because your energy is pouring out along with those words onto paper.  In addition, you are creating a written record of events, and thoughts that you may not be aware of if you simply let those thoughts pass and be on your merry way.  At first, your journal may seem like page after page of ranting. That’s okay.  We all need to do that sometimes, and it’s the first step to this process!  When you’re writing in your journal, no one can see so they cannot judge, but it’s also important for you not to judge yourself either.  Don’t think about what is right or wrong to write down.  Just think and record.  Pretend that you’re in a courtroom and you’re taking down every word that is uttered during a trial.  Doesn’t matter which ones are valid in that scenario, does it?  What’s important is the record.  It doesn’t hav to be a certain length.  When you feel you’re finished with your thoughts, you’re finished with your writing.  This process requires commitment, but it doesn’t require any set standards or rules to follow.

For those of you who are drawn to this blog and this post in particular, I’d like to ask you to give this a try for a period of 1 week.  That’s it.  Set aside a time each day where you won’t be interrupted and make sure to write once a day.  You can do more than that if you feel guided to, but once a day is usually how most people start.

Stay tuned for Part 2, and please feel free to comment here.

*I am not a licensed mental health professional, and none of what is written intended as medical or psychiatric advice. If you are having a serious issue, please seek the help of a medical or psychiatric health professional.*

Namaste.  I see you.

“Hello? Is anyone there?”

•October 29, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Upon going to bed, have you ever had thoughts about what might be hiding in the dark?  Perhaps you even look under the bed.  Maybe you can’t sleep unless your closet door is closed.  The dark is scary, but why?   Logic would tell us that everything should be just the same as it is with the lights on, with the only exception being that we do not have the ability to see it in the absence of light.  So why is it that so many of us are afraid of the dark?

The dark is when things are quiet.  It’s a time when our other senses are naturally heightened to make up for our lack of visibility.  This means that we may hear things that wouldn’t catch our attention during the day when there are a multitude of sounds and distractions around us.

When your senses are heightened, it’s important that you maintain your sense of calm, and there are a couple of reasons for this.  First, it’s entirely possible to drive yourself crazy with anxiety and fear, sending adrenaline into your system at the slightest sound.  In this case, yes, it is all in your head- and your body chemistry.  However, the second reason is that your vibration is like a magnet for anything with a similar vibration.  You are like an antenna, sending and receiving signals.  And when that signal goes out, it WILL attract!

Yes, I’m going to say it.  It is possible for entities to find you and to draw near to you because you are broadcasting, knowingly or unknowingly.

So when you’re laying in bed silently thinking, “Is there anyone there?” someone will most certainly hear you and respond.   Although it can happen at any time, during this time of year, the veil between the worlds is very thin, and spirits are much more aware of us, as we are of them.  Since like attracts like, keeping your vibration high and your energy field clean is essential to keeping yourself protected and safe.The natural and supernatural world is filled with opposing forces. It is naive to disregard or scuff off the notion that the Dark co-exists with the Light.

This is not to say that you should obsess over it or put your focus there, but if you are going to play in the etheric realms, you must be aware. Just as we put on a seatbelt as a measure of caution when we get in a car, we must also take care to protect ourselves when we connect with Spirit.

So how do you manage this process?  Glad you asked!

  1.  Like attracts like, so the easiest way to keep the Boogey Man at bay is to vibrate at a higher vibration.  You certainly don’t want lower!  The energies that vibrate faster, are the ones that will bring you peace and protection, such as loved ones, guides and angels.  How?  During your day, monitor your thoughts and feelings.  If you find yourself being more negative than positive, catch yourself and try to repeat the thought in a more positive or loving light.  For example, if you are at work and a customer snaps at you, you may think, “this person sucks.”  Catch yourself and then think a more positive thought such as, “this person is struggling so much he/she could use some kindness and care.”  You’ll find that it motivates you in your actions as well as keeping your vibrations high.
  2. Keep yourself clean!  I say this in a playful way, but seriously as well.  All day long we are walking through fields of energy.  If your energy field isn’t clean and strong, you will be affected much more strongly and often by the energy you encounter during your day.  My suggestion is to develop your own script for an evening meditation, asking for Divinity, your angels, Jesus or whomever you feel comfortable asking, to clear any blocks, repair any holes and to strengthen your auric field.  Some people like to use the chakras as a way to gage any energetic blocks or issues, which is also a way to clear your energy.  Find what feels right for you, and do it!
  3. Whenever opening up to Spirit, always have a ritual of setting protection and intention.  Lots of people simply imagine White Light surrounding our entire being as we are doing our spiritual work.  If you like, you can invite your angels or loved ones to lend their energy and protection as you are entering this space.
  4. Choose a time and place that will be comfortable for you to connect to Spirit.  In your bedroom at night probably isn’t the best choice.  If you have little privacy, a better choice may be the bathroom!  Perhaps the best time for you to connect is during your morning preparation.  Spirit hears your thoughts, so you can brush your teeth and talk to Spirit at the same time.  Morning may be less frightening than night, and the bathroom or other area is probably less frightening than your bedroom.
  5. Don’t forget to close the door!  When you’ve opened up and invited the Spirit world to join you, it’s vital that you intentionally set some sort of guidelines for ‘closing’ the door when you are through.  You wouldn’t send out an invitation for a party without designating a specific time slot, and it’s no different with Spirit.  Leave the door open, and you will find very quickly that missing this step will be much like having a party that never ends because your guests don’t know when to go home.  They came because you invited them, so give them the courtesy of letting them know when communication is done, and you are closed for business.

As always, I am here to help!  If you have a specific question or would like to explore your personal path, you can email me at  Personal sessions are confidential and can give you an opportunity to open up with someone who certainly understands where you’re coming from.

~Happy Halloween!~IMG_3273

In Love, we live forever

•August 29, 2015 • Leave a Comment

For a long time now, Spirit has been guiding me to speak to people  about Death.  I’ve been meditating and blending with their energy as much as I can so I can find a way to pass on this message.  Here it is.

When we are born, we are in a dark place, waiting to emerge into the arms of people who are here waiting for us.  We arrive vulnerable and must trust that we are in the good hands of people who will care for us.  Loved ones gather to greet us.  People fuss to make sure we are comfortable.   There is so much joy surrounding us as we are welcomed by the new world around us.

When we are born, those who make up our Soul Family in Heaven send us off with Love, wish us well, and promise to keep watch over us while we are in our incarnated form.  A part of us stays behind, as our Souls are made of Light, and when our Light touches the Light of another, some of ours is deposited there and becomes part of their Light as well.

When we die, we are not necessarily in a dark place, though we can feel that we are leaving all of the Light of our lives and the world.  We are vulnerable and dependent on those around us for comfort and care.  And when we cross the threshold, our Loved ones are there waiting to receive us.  There is joy surrounding us as we are welcomed to the world of Spirit, and into the arms of all those Souls who know us and are part of our Light Family.

When we die, our families, and the people we lived our lives with, see us off, promising to pray for us and talk to us even when they can no longer see us in our physical existence. They tell us that we will be a part of them forever, always in their Hearts.

When you love someone, your Light blends with theirs. The piece of your Light that you share, never goes away or disappears. It simply becomes part of another's Light.

When you love someone, your Light blends with theirs. The piece of your Light that you share, never goes away or disappears. It simply becomes part of another’s Light.

When we die, a tiny piece of us stays behind, on Earth.  We share our Light through giving Love, and when we give our Love, a piece of our Light becomes part of all those we share it with.  When our Light touches the Light of another, some of ours is deposited there and becomes part of their Light as well.

In this way, we never truly die.  Our Light is always alive in one form or another.  The greatness of our Soul, lies in the magic that is our Light, which can be in many places at the same time.

When you love someone, your Light blends with theirs.  The piece of your Light that you share, never goes away or disappears.  It simply becomes part of another’s Light.

In this way, we are all connected.  In this way, we are all the same.  Energy is alive and moving.  It never stays still.  We never stay still.  We are always alive.

The path to eternal life is Love.

Answers from Spirit

•August 26, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Whenever we feel lost or alone, someone is always listening and watching.  Generally speaking, more than one someone is listening and watching.  Some of us have been taught that the only way we are heard is if we actively and formally pray to a specific being, angel, or God.  The real truth is, our thoughts project a vibration that ripples throughout the cosmos, 100% of the time.   In fact, this is why it’s impossible to lose communication with ‘Home.’  We are connected all of the time, and exchanging information even when we are not aware of it.

Spirit understands us completely and is a wonderful Teacher. There is nothing coincidental about the way your messages will come to you.  Many of my messages come to me by way of Nature because it I connect with animals, plants and even the vibration of the land, itself.  If you are similar in nature, you may notice the same. When I moved to Florida in June of this year, I had many internal conversations with my Spirit People around all of the new things that would be a part of my life.  It was a lot of change, very quickly.  The answers came through the wildlife that appeared to me during quiet moments.

I saw Otter, who reminded me that it was okay to take time to be playful and allow things to unfold without so much worry.

"Otter," from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

“Otter,” from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

Rabbit paid me a visit to help me see that my fearful thoughts about the future would chase me and to be mindful of this.

"Rabbit," from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

“Rabbit,” from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

Dragonfly fluttered past me regularly, nudging me to consider that my perception of things was not always reality, and to entertain the notion that the very opposite of what I saw was the real truth. Typically, we think of situations where we think things are okay, and assume Dragonfly is telling us it’s not.  This time, She showed me that when someone seems to be combative, what appears to be an attack is really an attempt to hide their true colors so I wouldn’t see the softness beneath.

"Dragonfly, ' from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

“Dragonfly, ‘ from Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams & David Carson, Illustrations by Angela Werneke

The most important thing to do when you are actively working with your Intuition and Spirit, is to keep a journal, detailing what is happening in your life.  This way, when a sign seems to pop up out of nowhere, you can go back and see what was happening in your life when the sign showed up.  You may notice a pattern emerging.  For example, in times of doubt,  when I’m not even really asking for help or thinking particularly clearly, my main Totem, Bear, will appear.  It’s not until He finds me that I realize the issue at hand isn’t the 100 things I’ve been going over in my mind but my confidence that is behind my resistance to forward-motion.

A note of encouragement for any readers who may be new to receiving Spirit messages-  be patient and kind with yourself, and above all else, discount nothing as imagination.  If you keep your journal and remember to notice what catches your attention is significant, you will develop a vocabulary with Spirit over time that will be of immense comfort and value to you.  Remember also, that although all of us are born with the ability to communicate with Spirit, not all of us are meant to give messages to others.  Focus on your own conversation with Spirit, and see what comes.  Spirit knows your soul and its mission.  To give you clear messages about your own life is no less than prompting you to give them to others.  Everyone receives exactly what is needed to serve their soul’s purpose.

~Namaste, beautiful souls!~

Why do we suffer?

•August 10, 2015 • Leave a Comment

It’s been said many ways by many people throughout the world.  Suffering is so terrible.  Why must we endure it?

Twice in my life I’ve spoken to Spirit about my own ‘pain.’  Both times I received an answer, but as with most lessons we came here to learn, it took some time before I really understood the messages I received.

The first time, I was getting to work as a massage therapist.  I set up my room and was feeling a very intense tightness in my shoulders, which not only hurt, but limited my range of motion.  My job was to help others feel better, and I thought I was doing a good job at being of service- which has always been my purpose here.   After charging my room with Reiki, clearing out any residual energy from the prior day’s clients, and blessing the space, I sat on the table and asked Spirit, ‘if I’m serving my purpose, why are you making it harder for me by giving me this pain?’  The answer I was given was, ‘your pain is a gift.’   That was all.  I rarely get a very detailed explanation when I ask about something that is a life lesson, and cannot be removed from my path.  Life lessons are for us to learn and move through, not to be erradicated.  I let the thought linger, then let it go.  That day, I had 3 clients.  Each time I reviewed their intake form, I noted their pain patterns.  I heard the same frustration in each of their voices, as they explained how it was affecting them.  And then I realized something.  They all had the exact same pain pattern I was having that day.  In fact, my pain that day was a gift.  It helped me to understand and be compassionate to each of my clients.  It put them at ease to learn that I had experienced the same type of pain.  In essence, it united us as human beings.


Suffering is the one thing that every one of us experiences.

Suffering gives us perspective,

and an opportunity to recognize suffering others.

As most humans do, I too, needed more than just once to truly understand this lesson on a level that would embed in my being so deeply, that it would no longer need explanation. So again, after a long day at work, and having to go home without any way to relax due to the spasm in my back, I asked.  ‘Why do I keep experiencing this pain?’  I mean, wasn’t it enough that I had experienced it, understood that it helped me with my clients, but didn’t that mean I completed the lesson?  Spirit’s answer- ‘Pain is a great Teacher.’  I knew in my heart, that it wasn’t only my pain that Spirit was referring to.  It was also the pain of others.  You see, my ex-husband had chronic pain.  It was to the point that he could not sleep, and the only way I could sleep was if I worked on him to reduce the swelling and inflammation enough for him to get some rest.  After a day of working on other people, and having my own pain, I resented having to do it at home, when I felt it was my time to relax.  My pain kept showing up to remind me what it feels like to be in pain.  How many times had I behaved in an uncaring way when he was in pain before?   Spirit had given me the gift of knowing seeing that I had not been as loving as I could be to someone who felt pain.  My pain was a reminder of that.  It was then, that I truly understood how powerful empathy was, and that I was not meant to shut off that part of me, but to use it for this purpose- to be connected to my brother and sister souls incarnated here on the planet.

Never doubt that your prayers are always heard, and your questions answered.  It may not be the way you expect, which is why it’s so important to to be too narrow in your focus when striving to hear the answer.  Be open.  Notice things that draw your attention.  Be still and quiet within yourself.  This is when you will have your ‘ah-ha’ moment.  Thoughts can drop into your consciousness that never occurred to you before.  Feelings may arise that help you understand.  Spirit is not only all around us, it’s within us.  You are Spirit.  Listening is easier when you remember this.

Walking with Spirit by your side, as you continue your journey.

•July 28, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Today, Spirit wants me to pass on a message to my readers:

Your spiritual path and purpose are not a separate part of your life that is floating around, waiting for you to notice it.  It is an integral part of you, and you are living it every day.  

Having shared that, here’s a little update on my own spiritual path and progress.

My move to Florida to build a new life from a fresh start has challenged me to remember this very thing.  I’m still in the process of looking for a full time job, which is a job in and of itself.   In the interim, I’ve been very actively meditating and talking to my People in Spirit about my new life and what my Human self can do to move the process along.  I’ve been instructed to work on making friends with my body, and to work toward making it healthier and stronger.  I have physical limitations that do not allow me to just go gangbusters at the gym.  In addition, I’ve not been active in a very long time, so I’m very much a beginner, all over again.   My People have helped me understand that my idea of how to make my body healthier is too narrow.  It doesn’t need to involve my ‘pushing’ through the pain, and going further than my body can comfortably handle.  I’ve been drawn to Yoga for some time, but have held off on that too.  Why?  Because I couldn’t do each pose perfectly, and therefore I thought I just couldn’t do it.  My People have brought this to the surface and made me see it for what it is.  Fear.   I’d be the first one to tell another person they don’t have to be perfect, but when it comes to myself, I show no mercy.  I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve had that have allowed my fear to surface, so I can see it, understand it, and heal it.  Now I do a very mild Yoga routine that may seem very easy to most people, is still quite challenging to me, but you know what?  I’m okay with that.

In general, I must learn to be more gentle with myself.  I admit, I am a very harsh critic.  Most people have been made to cry by what others think, but I am best at making myself cry with my own hurtful thoughts– but that is part of my journey.

It’s been very interesting, just plopping myself down in a new city, and a new state, not knowing anyone and having no real plan other than ‘get a job!’  But I’m actually very comfortable with where I am.  I trust Spirit.  I’ve never been lead in the wrong direction when I tune in and listen to my Soul.   While I know I am to work in a specific type of way with people, I’m still unsure how that process will unfold.  I had thought I would be going back to school- and I still might- but I am starting to see there is more than one way and I need to stay open to that.

I’ve been guided to become a part of a community of people here that I never would have approached on my own.  Typically, I like to stand at a distance first, and make sure everything looks okay before I make the decision to step into the Light, so to speak.  This time the decision was easy, because it came from a higher place, and I have learned to trust it.  There’s need for my brain to evaluate and overthink things, or for my mind to race through possible scenarios that I may find myself in.  I listened and I stepped into my place.  I’ve only been to 2 gatherings, and I’m already overwhelmed with the amazing souls I’m encountering as a result.  On the way out of the last gathering, it was raining so hard that you couldn’t see the grass in some areas outside.  I had no umbrella, so I just said out loud, “Oh, I’m going to get wet, but that’s okay, it’s only water.”   When I turned around, the head of this organization was standing there with an umbrella for me.  He said I could return it the next time I came to the center.   Now let me make this clear before I say anything else-  It’s not so much that I expect people will not care, it’s just that I’ve never felt the degree of openness and genuine caring for others that I’ve found here.  This is another confirmation that I’m where I’m supposed to be.

Know that you are safe and being looked after, even if you are not aware of it.  My wish for all of my readers is to discover their own inner voice, and to know it comes from a place of Love.  Many blessings to you, and the beautiful Soul I know you are.

Who do you think you are?

•June 11, 2015 • 1 Comment

This question is one that we can carry with us all of our lives.  Who are we, really?  I’ve had my own battles with conflicting philosophies, or world views.  When the time was right, Spirit explained a simple truth to me that shines a light through all of the conflict and it is a beautiful truth.

We all have a soul.  In fact, all living things have a soul.  The soul is our source of life.  The soul has an identity.

When we incarnate as humans, we take on the task of experiencing life from a new perspective.  We willingly let go of our infinite knowledge in order to experience life as human beings.  This results in a new identity with each incarnation, which I will refer to as the Ego Identity.

The conflict that we face as humans, is demonstrated beautifully through the life of Jesus Christ.  That is, we are both Human and Divine.

When we come into Human form, consciousness of our Soul and its Identity is diminished.  However, it is not entirely absent.  Modern man and his inventions have shifted our attention from having a greater consciousness of our Soul by distracting us from our inner world. The more we have turned our attention outward through technology and artificial attachments, the more we have grown to embrace our Ego Identity as our only Identity.

All ancient and indigenous Peoples have known we are Spirit incarnate.  This was not ‘religion,’ it was a universal truth, that connected us to all living things, and allowed the consciousness of our Souls to be present.   Evolution is the explanation for how, as a species, we went from here to there.  But, evolution is a scientific concept, not a spiritual one, and accounts for the physical only.  Science can only explain what we have the ability to perceive through our human senses and current technology.  In other words, it operates purely from the Ego Identity.

Why is this important and why am I talking about this today?  Well, it’s not a secret that mass consciousness has undergone a major shift, with 2012 being a major milestone.  People have been confused and without their internal compass for a long time, seeking means outside of themselves to understand who they are and their place in the world.  Now that the energy in consciousness has shifted, our awareness of our Soul Identity is coming to the surface at a rapid pace.  We are becoming more aware of who we really are.  This sudden awareness is frightening to those who have molded their reality based on science and religion, each which tells a story about reality that is finite, and limited.

I noticed most of the good people who have come to me for spiritual guidance have had the same dominating theme in their lives- a sense of uncertainty, and a crisis of direction.  Spirit’s explanation regarding our Soul Identity and Ego Identity is the answer to all of these issues, simultaneously.  It is precisely the shift in consciousness that has brought us here.

The best example of this is the unemployment crisis.  It’s more than just the economy.  As a society, we’ve created industries with hierarchies, and jobs as a means to obtain money in order to live.  Many have wanted more than the means to live, creating competition for resources and a world that appears to be more of a battlefield than of interconnectedness.  Because of the consciousness of our Soul’s Identity, we are no longer contented with our Ego as the only source of Identity.  People who have spent 20 years in an executive role, making tons of money and climbing the corporate ladder are finding themselves conflicted, simply because their Soul knows this is not their highest purpose.  The lack of awareness that drove people to pursue power and wealth cannot compete with the power of our Soul, which is why so many of us are calling our lives into question.

Our well-formed concepts of who we are and what we are here to do, are being challenged by the expanded awareness of our Souls.  For example, how can a person go to work in a cubicle every day, entering data and taking a one-hour lunch possibly feel a sense of deep fulfillment when their Soul is calling them to a life of healing others?   So many people have found themselves in a position where they have done all they have been taught to be correct, and feel something must be wrong with them because they are still not happy.  They are learning that there is one simple truth that must be followed in order to be whole, fulfilled beings:

Trusting in the outer world, those who possess power through prominent positions,

wealth and worldly knowledge is not enough to propel you

to that place of peace and happiness we all long for.  

Trusting in God, and the voice of your Soul is.

If everything you know is being challenged, and what you thought was the truth is suddenly unstable, this message is for you.

Everything is alive and communicates

•June 6, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Time for a more personal post. I recently moved to Fort Myers, FL. This change has been in the works for a few months. The short story is it is time for me to begin my life’s real work.

As I’m settling in, and getting used to my new surroundings, I’m finding that my soul is closer to the surface than it has been since I was a little girl.  My ‘knowing’ was not something I questioned as a child.  I trusted it, and it never lead me astray.  One of the major themes that has resurfaced is the theme of truth.  It’s all I’ve ever cared about.  I have always been empathic.  My feelings seem to encompass my entire energy field at any given time.  One of the things I’ve heard from people in the psychic community is that it is important to ‘turn off,’ and that it’s not good to be ‘open’ all the time.  From a certain perspective I can understand what they mean, however, for myself, this is not possible.  My empathic and psychic abilities are intertwined with how I experience the world.  To close one off would be like putting on ear muffs, or a blindfold.  They all work together.  My lesson, though, is in how to interpret all of the incoming information in a way that is comprehensive, and not just pieces that don’t fit together. In essence, my Spirit must learn to become part of my Human/Ego to merge into one Whole Self.  I can no longer be a Soul Identity and a Human Identity.  It is time for me to be who I truly am.

What I’ve found is that when I become clear- that is, my guidance comes through with amazing clarity- there are signs all around me.  Tonight as I walked in the light rain, just as the sun was beginning to set in the sky, I had the most peaceful feeling. I looked up, and saw a single, white, fluffy dandelion seed, floating in between the raindrops.  It seemed to be invincible to the wet rain drops, and was being carried by the breeze.

Every seed is a chance for life to begin anew.

Every seed is a chance for life to begin anew.

I tried to catch it, but it floated upward toward the sky just as I was reaching for it. I knew this tiny seed that could float between the raindrops was a sign from God because over the last 3 weeks, I’ve been seeing the little fluffy seeds everywhere- actual dandelions as well as in patterns on clothing and fabrics. They respresent my dream.  The seed had a message.  When it’s the right time and the right place, nothing can stop my dream from reaching its full potential.

I continued my walk and saw a squirrel climbing up a palm tree.  This made me smile, as it’s the first squirrel I’ve seen, and Squirrel is one of my Animal Totems.  When it reached its desired height, It turned around and looked at me.  I greeted him and silently let him know I was grateful for his appearance.  It was another sign- a ‘Welcome’ sign.

When you trust and follow your guidance, everything seems to communicate with you, and you can easily perceive the interconnectedness of all living things.

I look forward to writing more posts, more often, and sharing my journey with you. I thank you, my readers, for being my companions, walking by my side every step of the Way.

So you really think talking about your problems does nothing?

•April 11, 2015 • Leave a Comment

If you’ve read my past blogs, you know that I spent 5 years as a Massage Therapist, and my insight has been that the physical is the last place problems manifest.  Unfortunately for most people, problems are not addressed until the physical calls out to them- an ache, a pain, a stiff neck.  These are not the inconveniences we think they are.  They are Messages.  And when you don’t listen, they become LOUDER.  When they become loud enough, some people may see a doctor.  Other people end up on a massage table.

Some issues were relatively simple at first glance.  Of course, administrative workers came in with neck and shoulder problems, atheletes came in with sore muscles , and waitresses came in with stiff backs from standing and carrying heavy plates. Their pain made sense in a practical way, but that’s not where the problems started.  Each person had their aches and pains, but they also had a story.  This is where the Message Therapy comes in.

Rule of thumb in massage- the client is there to relax, not to chat with you.  I would turn down the lighting, put on relaxing music, and start my work– and my clients started talking.  They didn’t just talk, they were animated in their story-telling, and even passionate. There’s something special about saying something out loud and hearing it in our own voice.  This is where the healing began. My clients would suddenly have insights and come up with solutions they’d never considered.  Some of them would simply let out a sigh of relief at having unloaded a heavy emotional burden.  All of them received what they needed to heal and let go of the pain they were holding on to.

When I hear people say talking about their problems does nothing, I can’t help but shake my head.  The funny thing is, I hear this kind of thing most often from frustrated, disgruntled people who don’t talk about their problems.  Of course, I respect that they may not be at a point where they are ready to heal.  Sometimes of our lessons here are hard to take, and we avoid them by building boundaries and being defensive.  Some may never be ready to face them.

I have seen people transform right before my eyes,

just from sharing a story or confessing a worry.

Just seeing a look of recognition in they face of another human being when voicing our emotions can be transformative.  Talking about our problems helps us relieve stress, come up with new insights, create a sense of community with others, and validates our feelings, to name a few benefits.  It helps us get perspective.  It helps us feel less alone and isolated.  Might I also mention that those of my clients who did tend to open the floodgates would get better faster?

Massage really was the gateway I had to walk through to get how the process works for us stubborn humans.  We feel depressed but we tell ourselves we are fine.  We stay in situations that are detrimental to our mental health.  All the while, we know what must be done, remaining blissfully ignorant until it reaches the physical level, where we can no longer ignore that something wrong!  We may try to get rid of it with a pill, but if there’s a Message for you in the pain, it will persist until you get it.  Most people will put themselves through enormous amounts of suffering before they are willing to address the underlying problem.  That’s how far the lies we tell ourselves can go.  Speaking your Truth really is the best medicine.

Trusting in Your Guidance

•February 16, 2015 • Leave a Comment

When you make the commitment to follow Spirit, you must understand that you have entered into a very personal relationship that requires attention and continual trust. You will have many instances where your guidance does not follow any line of logic, but you must trust it!


William Adolphe Bouguereau’s “Dream of Spring”

A couple of weeks ago, I was having a visit with a friend. We stopped in a natural food store, and upon walking in I noticed some free publications- one of which was Wisdom–  a spiritual magazine. Since leaving the Boston area, I had not been able to find it anywhere. I was so excited! After shopping, we went to have lunch, and as we waited for the food to arrive, I poured through the pages of this awesome resource. As I looked through the ads for people offering services of a psychic nature, one word stood out to me- Lightarian. I didn’t know what it referred to, or meant at the time, but I know when something stands out to me in this way, Spirit is trying to get my attention. I spoke the word out loud, and asked my friend if she knew what it was about. She didn’t seem to have any reference points either, so we moved on and had a nice lunch.

The next stop I had on my list was to a place called The Sanctuary, a spiritual shop that carries things like books, oracle decks, jewelry and although I didn’t know it at the time, a variety of classes. We walked around, and explored the little nooks and crannies of the store. The woman at the desk started to ask us some friendly questions. The word, “Lightarian” popped into my head, and although I had no idea what I was asking, I asked. “Do you have anyone here who does Lightarian work?” “Yes, as a matter of fact we do!” was the response. It was quite surprising! She went on to tell me about something called AngelLinks, and a brochure that explains it further. I left my name, and asked if I could be contacted when the next class was being offered.

It wasn’t too long before I received a call from the facilitator, Amy Marino, to explain more about what AngelLinks was all about. She had left a voicemail, and as I was getting ready to call back my thoughts started to turn toward how I would be able to afford to take these classes that I knew I was supposed to take. I decided immediately that if I had to take it one-on-one, I would need to schedule the attunements over 5 months (there are 5 attunements). I called her back, and she explained a bit more about the process, and that she was planning on having the classes over a 5 month period to make it more affordable for people! This was an incredible confirmation that my connection to Spirit was very clear!

I’m happy to say that I booked that class and received my first attunement on Valentine’s Day. I’m looking forward to the next 4!

Had I tried to rationalize any of this, it would not have happened. I had to follow what I was being shown. It’s been over a period of months that my attention has been drawn toward the angelic realm, but nothing had presented itself for me as an action step. I had to wait. Impatience is a hard thing to pair with Spirit! Spirit works in its own time.

As always, my words are meant to serve as an example, not direction. You must always trust your own guidance, and be patient. There is no end-game. This is a never-ending journey.

Let me call you sweetheart

•January 16, 2015 • 2 Comments

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again– when Spirit wants to send us a message, it always finds a way.

For the last few days I’ve been hearing “Let me call you sweetheart,” gently streaming through my mind.  This was a song that my grandfather used to like to sing.  It was soft, not too much of a nudge, but it was there and made me think of him and the time in my life that to this day I consider the best time of my life.

I recently became a listener of iTunes Radio, which is a nice change of pace from scrolling through my personal library of music over and over. Since my taste in music is very eclectic, I have quite a few stations that you’d be surprised to see alongside one another. Today, I decided to create a new station, so I typed in “Let me call you sweetheart” and let the music play.

Oh what a different time it was when songs like this were popular. I found myself flying through my work at a very steady pace with artists like Perry Como, Patti Page and The McGuire Sisters, reminding me of a more gentle time in the background. I thought about being a little girl in my grandparent’s North End apartment, and how every time I turned on the bathroom light, the radio would turn on and I would hear all of these artists and more.  Then my thoughts turned toward my grandmother and how much I’ve missed her every single day of my life since she went Home in 1983.  It always brings me back to myself when I think of her. She was the only person in the world who I ever felt truly understood me. She never had an unkind word, although she was a tough cookie.  She’s the one who taught me how to tidy my room, saying things like, “if you take care of your things, you’ll always have new things.”  I thought about how my life would have been different if she was still with me.

And then, all of a sudden, there it was.

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod

My grandmother saying hello, through a song.  A song that came because I listened to my grandfather saying, “let me call you sweetheart.” She hears me.  She knows I’m still at her favorite place, Cape Cod.

When your loved ones are trying to reach out to you, they will use whatever means necessary to do so. My grandmother knows me so well, and can give me messages easily, but she never does!  She still remains that wonderful, fun Gramma that wants me to be as surprised now as I was when I was a little girl. She knows that even though I can hear her, there are times when I need to see something in the physical world that shows me I’m not alone.  And believe me, she loves to see the look on my face when she does the things she does to reach me. They are always ridiculously hard to ignore and absolutely perfect in the way they come to me.

So, why do I write about these things and share them with people on the web?  It’s simple. I’m the person people talk to when something amazing happens to them and they think they are nuts.  When the story is followed by the quesiton, “do you think it was “so and so” trying to send me a message?” I can’t help but share my own experiences.

It’s been said that for those who believe, no proof is necessary, and for those who do not, no proof will be sufficient.  This is one of those things for most people.  What you know in your heart, is your own truth. It is yours, and no one else’s.  Don’t let that truth become less than the beautiful light it is because a third-part perspective cannot see, feel or understand what you know in your heart.

Even when I’m sure everyone in the Spirit world is busy with other things, they make it known to me that I am never forgotten.

What better gift could I ask for?

The Path is before you. You need only to shine your Light upon it.

•November 10, 2014 • Leave a Comment

The beauty of the Spirit world is that no matter where we find ourselves, it is always present with us.  This can be a hard concept to grasp, as most of us are much more familiar with the physical world where the Eiffel tower is in France, and the Empire State Building is in NY.  But when it comes to Spirit, no matter where you find yourself, Spirit has already found you!


The Path is before you.

You need only to shine your Light upon it.

A couple of weeks ago, I was looking through a local paper, and saw that there was going to be a Native American Harvest event in a neighboring town.  I looked closer, and saw that it was centered around the American Girl Doll.  “Hmm,” I thought.  Until I read that part, I was considering going.  My brain surmized that it wouldn’t be the place for me.

Fast foward to Saturday, Nov 8.  I was looking through the paper again, and there it was, again!  I realized this was not a coincidence.  As I considered the possibility of going to the event, my attention turned to the television in the background- tuned to the Science Channel’s “How it’s Made.”  After the commercial break, the first image on the screen was a Native American drum, followed how it’s made, of course!.  I watched as native people stretched the wet cow hide across the wooden base of the drum- all of it made by hand.  It was another nudge from Spirit, and I knew it.  Even though I would have liked to stay in my pajamas and snuggle with my Sadie (my affection-loving pitbull rescue) I knew it was time to get up.

Lately,I have been making an effort to follow the whisperings of Spirit, instead of just listening, and dismissing them with my ego’s judgment.  This is something of a confession itelf, as the main thing I teach people is to trust their intuition.  In truth, it’s not that I don’t trust it. That’s not it at all.  It’s that I have a choice to do something other than what it’s telling me.  The good thing about a true sign is that it will keep repeating until we listen.  This was going on the third sign– first I saw the listing, two weeks later, I saw it again, and then the making of the drum on tv.

Over the past month or so, I’ve actively been working toward developing a ministry.  As you may know, I’m an Ordained Minister for Our Lord & Lady of the Trinacrian Rose Church.  My mind told me that it was best to keep quiet about this part of me because in my mainstream job and family life it’s not something that everyone is comfortable with.  That’s the ego part of me, trying to protect me, in theory, but in actuality– holding me back.  Luckily for me, with age comes wisdom and my intuition quickly showed me all of the times I was accepting of others around me with various lifestyles, occupations and beliefs.  Yes, I get the message, and yes, it is time I started listening. It was time for me to expose this part of myself to the world, or rather, for the world to finally be exposed to the loving energy of who I am.

I drove to the event, and realizing it was in an Episcopal Church, almost backed out.   I did grow up Christian, but Catholic, and didn’t know much about Episcopalian Churches, except that women were allowed to be ministers.  I wiped the thought out of my mind that I didn’t belong there, and walked right into the hall behind the Church, itself.  I was greeted by warm smiles from some very lovely older ladies, who welcomed me and told me I didn’t need a reservation, and to come on in.  I paid the admission fee and grabbed a program.

As I walked into the hall, I noticed it was full of round tables, each occupied by women of all ages, mostly ages 2-10!  What was I doing here again?  I kept walking, tuning into my intuition very keenly.  “Where should I sit?” I asked silently.  I was directed to circle back around, and to take a seat next to a man who looked about 50 with glasses and a gray beard.  The Native American drummers were in the center of the room, so I had a great view no matter where I sat.  I explained that I had come alone and asked if I could sit at the table.  He smiled and invited me to sit next to him.  He was there with his mother and his little daughter.  We began talking and I found out that not only was he into going to Pow-Wows, and had lived in New Mexico just to be closer to the native culture, he was…. one of us!  While we were not entirely of the same system of spiritual practices, we saw eye-to-eye on many points.  After the drumming was over, the conversation turned toward my position as a Minister and the true reason for the conversation came about.  He turned to me and said,” no matter who it is, I can talk to anyone, anywhere about spirituality in any form.”  This was pivotal, because it’s a message I’ve heard from my own Guides over and over. It finally occurred to me that my ministry was already in practice– just not the kind I was tryng to fit into.

Another bit of wisdom shared with me by my Guides came back to me in this moment: Every soul is important.  If everyone on earth became enlightened except for 5 souls, it would be every bit as important to Heaven to reach out to those 5 souls as it had been to reach all of the others.  In Heaven, the absense of one soul is felt by all. The same way a Shepherd leaves the flock to find the one sheep that is lost, Heaven finds a way to reach a soul seeking the light. To help one, is no less than to help a thousand. I had been judging my work as a minister to be less because it took place quietly, and usually between myself and one or two others at a time who found their way to me.

I hope my experience speaks to you. If you are reading this, it surely is meant to touch you in some way.  And in that spirit, I ask you this– how many times have you hidden the very core of yourself to ‘protect’ others from being offended or uncomfortable (real or perceived)?  How long have you remained silent about your beliefs or the way you really feel about something in order to keep from rocking the boat?  The time has come, my fellow Souls, to step forward from the Shadows, and BE THE LIGHT.  There are many, many others like us out there, who need to be shown that it is safe to be who they are.  We are everywhere!  We are in hospitals, law enforcement, schools, businesses, and the list goes on.  By hiding your light, you are re-affirming that it is acceptable for you to be less than you are.  The more we stay quiet, the more we are saying, ‘it is okay to dismiss me. I have nothing to offer.”   The real truth is, the more of us that give our community a voice, the closer we become to helping the world see that there is nothing to fear from people who are ‘different.’   It only matters that we come from a place of Love and repect. This is such an important part of our Human-ness, and evolution.  Please, move into your light.  You are not only denying yourself the beauty you have within, you are denying others the opportunity to see and feel that beauty.

Namaste, my fellow Souls.


Weaving Intuitive information into your everyday life.

•October 9, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Confessions of a Spirit Messenger has finally returned to the airwaves!  As of right now, you can hear me live, every Tuesday night at 7:30pm EST on blogtalkradio.   Tune in and join the chatroom to talk to other listeners and ask me questions that I will answer live.  All past shows are available through the archives, so you’ll never miss a beat.


Here’s the latest show.  

Happy Listening! 

Weaving Intuitive information into your everyday life. 10/07 by SpiritMessages | Spirituality Podcasts.

The Itsy Bitsy Spider

•September 15, 2014 • Leave a Comment

It’s been almost a year since I made my decision to move to Cape Cod.  In that time, many changes have taken place.  One thing hasn’t changed– the amount of pressure I put on myself to figure out what I want to be when I grow up!

Time and time again, I’ve asked Spirit– as I’m sure all of you have– to give me some insight on what career path best suits me, and how to ensure that I am financially secure.  And like many of you, I don’t feel like I’ve figured it out yet.  I will admit, I have a lack of patience in this department, and although I know there are many possibilities, my human need for security keeps me from veering too far off the beaten path.

One of the things I struggle with is finding my place in the world, which is far more important to me than you might think.  If I knew that, I could pick the right job, or  career path, and finally feel peaceful about my choices, right?  I often observe society’s belief that to be successful is to find a goal and pursue it.  It would seem that it’s the ‘doing’ part of us, that ‘masculine’ energy that is most valued.  This frustrated me, because  I’ve found that any attempt to merge with that energy did not yield results for me.  There has always been a feeling of resistence deep in my heart.  Something that knows this is not my way, or my place in the world.

Spirit heard my thoughts, and in a short time, signs began to appear.

One day I came into work and noticed several spider webs outside my window.   Each was perfectly shaped, and positioned in a way that was in a corner, not flush against the actual glass of the window.  I let myself be still, and take in this amazing creation.  I knew it was a sign, but I wasn’t yet sure how to make sense of it.   At home, I noticed that at the most inopportune moments, a spider would land on me!  This happened one night in particular, as I lay propped up in bed in the dark, watching TV.  All was quiet, and suddenly a spider lowered itself from the ceiling right in between my glasses and my face!   OK! OK! I’m listening!

I had read so much about animal signs, but the ones about Spider just didn’t make sense to me.  Then it hit me…. the webs.   Because my question was specifically about how to go about finding my place, I was missing a very important point.  You see, a spider doesn’t chase its prey.  A spider creates its web, and waits for its prey to come along and become entangled it.  I had been arguing with Spirit that ‘this is about survival,’ and I need to act!

In an instant it became clear.  I heard the soft whisper of my guides.

“Prepare, and be patient,’ they whispered.  ‘Doesn’t a spider need to eat in order to survive? And yet, they spin their web and wait.  They do not panic and try to chase.  This is their way.’

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.



And with that, everything shifted.  I stopped feeling guilty that I wasn’t aggressive enough.  I ceased grinding my teeth over how it felt wrong for me to push and fight, and to take what I wanted.  It’s not my way, and that’s okay.  Humans make these judgements about what is right and wrong.  Nature just is.  We cannot all be fierce hunters, and we are not all supposed to be.  My nature, my way, is different, and there was no sense in fighting it, or apologizing for it. I don’t know about you, but I’ve never seen a fly make fun of a spider because it’s just sitting there instead of chasing it.  Nor have I heard of a spider that keeps itself up at night because it’s not a good hunter!

So there, my friends, you have it-  a simple sign that brought me great peace, understanding and brought me back to the beauty of the web of life.   Always know that there is wisdom in all creation, and nothing is a mistake.  The very thing you find to be a flaw in yourself, can be the very thing that saves you when you least expect it!

If you would like to learn more about the card pictured in this post, you can find this deck, Medicine Cards: The discovery of power through the ways of animals, on Amazon here.

A Reason, a Season or a Lifetime

•May 29, 2014 • 1 Comment

Throughout my life, whenever I’ve been presented with a challenge or a fork in the road, Spirit has placed someone in my path to help me move forward in my journey.  Each of these amazing people has made an immortal imprint on my soul, and I will forever be grateful for their appearance at just the right time.

This is a soul lesson that is of vital importance, especially in times when we are certain we are alone in our struggles.   For most of us, the little gifts that Spirit places carefully on our path are not evident until long after the experience has passed.  Aging has a way of showing us what was important in the past, and hopefully helps us to be mindful of this wisdom in our future. Hindsight is 20/20, but wouldn’t it be nice to have just a little bit of foresight now and again?  With a little practice, we can come to recognize these signs, symbols, and people sent by Spirit as our experiences are unfolding.

So how does one come to recognize those that step in at just the right time, or a sign that appears to speak solely to us in that moment of need?  The first step is building awareness.  If we are too focused on our drama, or the bleakness of the situation at hand, we cannot possibly be aware of the little things happening that tell us it’s okay and to grow!

Mediumship- your conversation with Spirit- starts with awareness.  Meditation is the best way to experience a shift in your awareness, which is why it is emphasized by so many schools of new age thought. In the absence of the chaos and outside distractions, clarity becomes much easier.  Once you have cultivated a relationship with your inner silence, you will begin to feel more grounded, less scattered, and your conversation with Spirit begins. This is where you begin your real work.  You see, no matter how many signs Spirit sends your way, it will always be up to you to acknowledge it or ignore, to use the information or toss it to the wind.  True messages from Spirit will always guide you, never push you.  This is for a very good reason.  Spirit gave us free will, and therefore cannot interfere without your consent.  Guidance will be available to you when you ask, but whether or not you act on it is entirely up to you.  This means that in order for something to happen as a result of this guidance, YOU have to do something!

They say someone steps into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime.  This is true, especially when it comes to divine guidance on your path.  Some people you meet will serve one purpose only– to deliver a message, or to get you from one stepping stone to another, hence they appear for a Reason.  During the periods of time when you are in a state of suspension on your journey you may meet someone who will remain with you until you find your footing.  They come for only a Season.   If you love deeply, and keep an open heart you will have many who fit the last description of those who step into your life and remain with you until the end of your Lifetime.  They move with you through your cycles, and hardships, always making sure to be your safety net if /when the time comes that you need one.  These people are true treasures.  Keep in mind that throughout your travels, you will also be the Reason, Season, or Lifetime gift for others you encounter on your path. You will be THEIR gift. 🙂

Here’s a little tip –  those who are sent to save you, will sometimes come in the guise of someone who, themselves, needs saving! Do not be fooled.  The simple act of caring for another can be the most therapeutic thing for our own selves.   This is a very special way that Spirit guides us, because sometimes we ask for help but aren’t open to receiving it directly as guidance.  So Spirit finds a way to help you while you’re not looking. 😉  Spirit never gives up on us.

Count your blessings, for they are many.


A true confession

•March 31, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to take your own advice.   Much like everyone else, I need a fellow human to pick me up and dust me off- and kick my butt back into shape.

The truth is, people who have abilities to see beyond the physical are subject to the human experience, just like everyone else.  We make mistakes.  We love people who aren’t good for us.  We do things that aren’t in our best interest for one reason or another.  Being gifted excuses nothing!

This is my confession for today.  That I have been just as wounded as those around me who seek me out for advice.  When I’m ‘connected,’ I am drawing on energy and information from the other side, not this one, which is the only reason I am able to see things, hear things, help people heal.  I’m not a superhero, but I do love to help people. If I were to try to use my own personal energy stores to accomplish this, I’d have been pushing up daisies by now.

That being said, I’ve spent the last 2.5 months getting my physical self adjusted to yet another move!  I’m pretty sure this one has been in the works for a long, long time.  Sometimes it’s our own selves who keeps us away from the things we really want. The only place I’ve ever felt 100% at peaceful has been Cape Cod.  I told myself for years I couldn’t live here.  Why?  Exactly.  I am a human, just like you.

As I pour over some of my writings, I’m inspired by Spirit’s simplicity and purity.   I could not write without the help of Spirit.  It truly is the energy of my angels, guides and guardians that brings through these teachings.  It reminds me how small I am, and also, how important one soul is, no matter how insignificant we may feel.

That’s all for today.  Just some thoughts to ponder.


Time Wounds All Heels…

•December 8, 2013 • Leave a Comment

As time goes by, everything changes. Around this time of year, I find it especially important to ‘check with’ myself.  I constantly observe, take inventory and evaluate where I am on my path. I’ve discovered something that only time passing by can teach us.

I’ve seen memories change form.  I’ve felt my viewpoint of the same issue shift from one end of the spectrum to the other. I’ve learned that actions that once had a very specific meaning, have no meaning at all.  Over time, our wounds become teachers.

In short, sometimes, Love is all about perspetive.  Observe:

What looks like an ordinary thing- such as this bunch of hydrangea that I hung upside down to dry...

What looks like an ordinary thing- such as this bunch of hydrangea that I hung upside down to dry…

Can easily become a sign when the perspective is changed.

Can easily become a sign when the perspective is changed.

Love is a perspective. Especially around the holidays, this is very important to keep at the forefront of your thoughts.  It’s a joyous time of year, but it’s also stressful for a lot of people for varying reasons.  For some, this is the first Christmas without a loved one. Behind what appears to be a smiling face, may be an aching heart.  Be gentle with your words and actions.  If someone lashes out at you, consider they are feeling unloved and in order to conceal this, they act out in a way that takes attention from them and turns it toward you.   When you find this perspective, sit with it, and really let it sink in.  This gives you the incredible opportunity to be a part of someone’s journey to healing their wounds- visible or not.  This is one way that time heals our wounds. 

Try to remember that the way others treat you, or speak to you says much more about them than it does about you.   It may take years before you master this skill, but it is one that will be priceless once you do. 

Peace and Love to all of you, throughout the holiday season. 

The Art of Walking Your Path in Balance

•November 18, 2013 • 1 Comment

Greetings to all of my loyal readers!  Happy Holiday season!  I’m sure you are all in full swing with the changing of the seasons, darkness coming much sooner and those *much* too-early commercials that are decking our halls even before Halloween!

Today I bring you a message of Balance.  Most of the time, when life feels overwhelming, it’s not so much the circumstances beyond our control as it is our sense of balance being disrupted.  It’s easy to be too focused on one thing.  For many of us, it’s the physical.  We obsess over calories, clothing sizes, hairstyles, the perfect little black dress, and so on.  It’s easy for us to become fixated on these things because they are so physical, meaning they are highly visible, and we are capable of making adjustments, indulging our ego-self’s perfectionism.  The main reason we fixate on these things, isn’t their importance. It’s actually the illusion that we have control over them.

True, you can change the color of your hair, eyes, and skin tint at will.  But think about it for a second.  What is it that we are really striving for in the creation of our outside world?  Peace?  Hmm, I think not.  A feeling of peace is often something we feel when we are in an environment that is to our liking, but think about being in that perfect environment right now and let yourself really feel that sensation.  Everything is as it ‘should’ be.  Nothing needs to be adjusted or changed.  Soothing, yes?  Maybe for about 15 minutes.  Then what?  They the mind kicks in, and you begin to think about texting a friend about your newfound serenity.  You wonder if your boss got your last email.  You realize what day it is, and your thoughts turn toward things like your bank balance, when the credit card payments are due and a score of other, seemingly controllable, outside elements of your life.

What happened?  Paradise was shattered so easily in just a short time.  And it had nothing to do with your outside world, and EVERYTHING to do with your inner world.

When I tell my listeners and readers to ‘work on themselves,’ what I am really asking is for everyone to take the time to be still and quiet in their own mind, so they can collect themselves on a spiritual level.  This makes the outside world change- or maybe it just looks a little differently than it did just a few minutes ago, prior to your stillness.

In order to ‘Walk with one foot in each world,’ as my tagline says, you must have a consciousness of both!  You cannot ignore the physical for too long without losing a sense of balance, nor can you drift in the spiritual for any length of time without losing a sense of the physical. In order to be in a state of balance, you must first achieve a sense of your own self.  Are you aware of how your body feels? Are your emotions being suppressed by a false belief that you’re holding?  In order to be a whole Human Being, you must also acknowledge and spend time with the Divinity that dwells within you.  This is also the path to developing psychically.  As you begin to honor both of your selves, your intuition is suddenly more clear.  Your physical self will become more familiar with that physical feeling that comes with receiving your inner guidance. Your guidance will become familiar with that mental resistance that comes with the physical fear of knowingness.  Your sides must become friends with one another in order for both to function properly!

Example?  When I know my guidance is telling me to call someone, my mental consciousness immediately starts listing the reasons I should not.  My stomach suddenly feels as if something is pressing against it.  What does this tell me?   It tells me that I am receiving true guidance.  How do I know?   Through observation.  I’ve meditated until my own name made no sense to me anymore, and all of the physical was called into question.  On the flip side, I’ve ignored my divinity and fell hard down the physical pains of a reality that existed in the absence of any inner world.  Each felt different.  I noted these things.  I wrote about them in a journal.  Then I began to allow both of these sides to be ‘active’ at the same time, and I noted the changes I felt on all levels.  I began to see the physical reactions to my guidance, and when the physical world was overwhelming, suddenly the whispers of my guidance were more clear.  Each held out a hand, and allowed the other to take hold of it.  I now walk in both worlds– and I always have to be mindful whenever one feels a bit heavier than the other. I simply ‘check in’ with myself, and follow my guidance, allowing for all of my feelings to co-exist instead of competing.

How beautiful is it to know that we do not have to be one thing or another, but can be many things, all existing simultaneously, each with full knowledge of the others?  Life becomes more of an experience when all of our selves have a steady voice.

Once I had mastered this art, I was able to have a greater understanding of all things!   Another illustration?  No problem!   I am a Medium and I am a Witch. Neither of these is easily explained, or accepted in most social circles in modern society.  I was very unhappy, feeling that I had to deny these essential parts of myself nearly everywhere I went.  I had to hide myself from the feeling of rejection that was certain to come if I revealed either of these.  I recognized that I was in a state of imbalance, and I started to make my connection between my guidance and my physical selves to find the answer.   It was  explained to me by one of my People, that sometimes we deny ourselves a part of who we are, due to outside circumstances, or the expectations of others who are close to us.  I was shown that it is not necessary for me to deny who I was, only that I should be mindful and respectful of how I express it.  This brought a whole new perspective to my mind that helps me tremendously.  I am never NOT a Witch and I am never NOT a Medium!   It’s just that in some circumstances, I see the value in keeping that fire burning quietly within myself, rather than casting it to the wind, where it can do some damage to myself, my relationships or others. I am not hiding, and I am not denying.  I am always FULLY who I am.   And with that, I felt the balance return, and I felt peace.

So, my dear readers, this is the message for today.  You are always all of your selves, and none of them needs to be sacrificed, or suppressed in order for the others to exist.  They are the instruments in the symphony that is you.


Messages from the Massage Table: ‘Laura’

•September 12, 2013 • Leave a Comment

In the early stages of my psychic side finally being allowed to come out and play, I didn’t trust it.  Big surprise, right?  Some of what transpired during my massage sessions was just as much for my benefit as it was for theirs. I needed to learn to trust what I was getting, and this story is a prime example. I’ll call this next client, ‘Laura.’

It was a fairly quiet night, with a mellowness to it that was unusual for a weekday.  I was booked for a 2-hour session with Laura.  What I first noticed about her was her Cape Cod sweatshirt.  “Hey, did you go to the Cape?” I asked her.  “I live there!” she answered.   She immediately seemed more relaxed and at ease, which is what I strive for when meeting a new client.  In this case, it was that connection to home and that mutual look that says, “what are you doing all the way in Texas?”

She had no specifications for her session, so we decided to focus on relaxation.  As I said, for some people, they are much more comfortable talking to me while they are being worked on than they are falling asleep.  Sometimes I think it’s nervousness, but once they begin talking there is an immediate softening of the muscles, and a sense that they are actually releasing the tension in their bodies by talking about their current issues, so I go with it.  Who am I to tell someone they have to be still and quiet during their session?

Laura talked about a lot of things going on in her life, while I listened, stopping only to let me know if she wanted me to adjust the amount of pressure I was using.  During the first 15 minutes of the session, I began to see two figures beginning to show themselves right beside the opposite end of the table.  I could tell one was a child and one was an adult.  “Uh-oh,” I thought, “not a good time guys!  I’ve only known this lady for 15 minutes!  I can’t scare her away this early in the session!”  They lingered for a few minutes, but faded after I mentally told them I couldn’t speak with them at that moment.

At the 1 hour and 45 minute mark, the conversation shifted, and she suddenly comes out with, “I wish my sister would go see someone like John Edward.”  I asked her why.  She started telling me the story.  “A couple of years ago, my sister was in a car following her husband and her son up over the bridge to New Hampshire.  You know that bridge?”  I told her I did. She continued on, telling me that as they were going over the bridge, the car her sister’s husband and son were in tumbled over and fell down over the side of the bridge.  The husband died and the son had broken every bone in his body, dying shortly after.

At this point, I’m realizing why I had seen the two figures– the adult and child.  This was her sister’s husband and son.  Unfortunately, since she had given me all of this information, I couldn’t give her sister a reading.  I knew too much at that point.  Instead, I referred her to my mentor.

It was at this point that I was learning I could trust what I was seeing and getting.  To see something like that, and then find out it was valid after the fact, proved to me that I was really connecting to the Spirit world.  Once again, the message was, “trust.”

If we do not do what we love…

•August 6, 2013 • Leave a Comment

…We risk doing nothing at all.

This is the quote that graces a little plaque I was inspired to purchase a couple of years ago.  It currently hangs from the mantle, which is also my ancestral altar.  On that same corner of the mantle is a small wind chime, given to me by a friend and a glass Bluebird ornament– bluebird being one of my major symbols.

Sometimes we do things without knowing why.  I call that a whisper from Spirit, others may call it intuition or inspiration. Whatever your name for it, you can be assured that it is quite real. We are all hard-wired to receive messages from ‘Home’ so it should come as no surprise that these whispers come along at just the right time…. which leads me to the topic of today’s post.

A funny thing happened to me on the death anniversary of my Grandmother, July 8th.  If you read this blog regularly, you know she’s one of my major supporters on the Other Side, and she is always very close in Spirit.  It just so happens that although I’m a regular visitor to her resting place, on this day every year I do not visit.   So there I sat on my couch, watching television when I heard my wind chime.  I looked over and saw that my little Bluebird had flipped over- though still attached to the post- and drew my attention to my little sign.  I smiled, and spoke aloud, “Hi Gramma.  I see you found a way to say ‘hi’ today.” 🙂

The message was loud and clear.  All of those moments when I’d whisper to Spirit, “What am I supposed to do? How am I going to move forward?” had been heard.   This time it was my Grandmother who answered.  This kind of thing happens to me quite often on a subtle level, but there are times when she does something out of the ordinary because she enjoys seeing my reaction.  For me, it’s like receiving an unexpected package or gift on my doorstep.  It truly is a gift, and it always makes me smile.

You may have asked for help, or direction and think you have not received an answer.  Remember this- sometimes we tune ourselves out to the answer we receive because it is not what we wanted to hear.  We expect Spirit to give us some kind of secret backdoor way to get what we want.  This is a very human trait.  What we need to remember is that we see things through a limited, tiny lense, compared to the way Spirit sees them. I’m reminded of a quote from Oprah’s Master Class- “God can dream a bigger dream for us than we can dream for ourselves.”  Be open.  You’re being listened to and you’re getting your answers.  Spirit knows your soul, and will always give you the inspiration needed to fulfill your purpose, even if it’s not what you think it’s supposed to be!

Blessings to all of you, my amazing readers!

The Lesson is Always Love.

•July 30, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Today’s blog is intensely personal, but worth sharing.  When I am struggling with understanding something and I ask for help, I always get my answer.  Sometimes a situation presents itself, not to be solved, but to show us something about ourselves that once we recognize, will shift our entire perception, and our ‘problems’ will suddenly melt away.   You will encounter the same ‘problems’ over and over until you learn the lesson.  Here’s how it was shown to me.

A few years ago, while living in Texas, I was faced with a situation that had me feeling very fearful and unsteady.  My (now ex) husband had permanent physical damage from an accident that left him in constant pain. I can remember going to doctor after doctor with him, trying to understand the nature of the pain, and how to improve it. We tried several chirpractors as well.  Because money was an issue, we were not able to go the alternative route, as insurance would not cover 99% of the treatments or office visits.  He was fighting his own body and miserable. In order to keep his sanity he was working out regularly at the gym, pushing himself as far as he could, trying to gain some control over his body.  What happened as a result?  He ended up injuring his knee.  I believe he had a torn ligament.  You can only imagine his frustration when he could no longer work out the way he wanted to, and his cardio routine – running- would have come to a complete hault.  In his eyes, it was yet one more limitation he had to live with.  From my perspective I can tell you, living with someone in pain is difficult in and of itself, but throw in a defeatist attitude and my maximum tolerance was being stretched.

He didn’t express it in words so much as he did in actions, but he was feeling utterly hopeless. Being a fairly verbose individual, I was blind to a lot of the ways he did express himself, but I could tell he was getting more and more depressed based on his habits, which seemed to be more and more unhealthy, and self-punishing over time.  He’d overeat, drink more than usual, and stay awake all night watching movies.  More than once, I’d be sitting in our living room, and he’d come over to me, kneel down and wrap his arms around my waist, his face buried in my chest, and just sit there. My early reactions were of panic. How could this 6’4″ tall, big, strong man who is older than I am, lived all over the country, and lived through a very rough childhood be sitting here, asking me to be his Mommy?  My thoughts raced- ” I can’t do that!  I can’t take on the responsibility of being someone’s caretaker- I can’t even take care of myself!”  I mean, here I was, I had moved 2,000 miles from home and anything I knew, got laid off from my job, working hourly as a massage therapist (and a poorly paid one at that), and was consciously holding onto my seams daily so I wouldn’t fall apart. This is where the lesson comes in.

The problem here wasn’t the actual problem. On the surface it looks as if the circumstances and our inability to overcome them was the core issue. It wasn’t. It was our judgements of the circumstances, and ourselves. We weren’t being defeated by life. We were being defeated by our programming.

As human beings, it is natural for each of us to look to one another for acceptance, reassurance, and love. I can see now, that I judged him as being weak, and I judged myself as being even more weak and helpless on top of that.  I see now that as I held him in a loose embrace, giving him an awkward pat on his back, I was not giving him what he needed.  Because I was judging him as being needy, and unable to handle himself, I was reinforcing his own fears. At the same time, I was judging and denying my nurturing, loving side (that I now like to call ‘Mommy’) as somehow giving in to a weakness.   Let me make this clear.  There is nothing wrong with needing love, and there is nothing wrong with giving love.  I was making judgements based on what both of our actions meant, completely blinded by the obvious.  I did not see the strength it took for him to show me that he was human and vulnerable. I did not appreciate the wall being let down. I did not understand that what I considered to be MY greatest weakness- my soft heart and sensitivity- were to be my greatest strength in this moment. I had judged him, and myself, and as a result both of us were sitting on the very resources we needed to get through the storm, but unwilling to see them as such.

A reassuring, strong embrace.  A gentle stroke of the hair.  The simple phrase, “it’s okay,” when someone is sure it is absolutely not okay.  These things can move mountains on an emotional level.  Every human being fears rejection of who they truly are. Every person out there knows what it’s like to feel they need to hide their emotions from the world.  Even if this is essential to our survival at times, behind closed doors with the ones we love, those walls need to come down!  Everyone deserves at least one person in life that sees past what others consider to be flaws, and accepts him or her in their entirety.  This is what is called unconditional love.  It’s not, “I will love and treat you well as long as you live up to my expectations.”  That’s the complete opposite of love.  Love isn’t logical.  Love doesn’t keep score.  Love isn’t selective about which of our qualities it will accept and which it will ignore or reject.  Love always says, ‘yes.’  Love isn’t a judgement.  Love isn’t disposable.  Love should not be confined by our convenient little definitions. Without it, we would survive, but we would not live.

In all of our pain and rejection, there are lessons to be learned, if we can quiet our minds, allow our emotions to flow and connect to our inner selves.  That is where our truth lives.  To continually deny this to our selves is to live a life of misery, and it is not necessary!

I see now that although I judged my situation then, and even my divorce as defeat, they were great teachers.  I cannot regret my journey.  I do not wish to go back.   Neither of those things make a difference in whether or not I learned something valuable.  We are constantly learning.  We only need to be aware of it.

Let go of your want to be in control and you will let go of your judgement.  Let go of your judgement and you will see things in a new light.  When you see things in a new light, new solutions will come to the surface and things will begin to make sense in a way you could not see before.

Namaste, and thank you for reading.

Messages from the Massage Table- “Red”

•June 25, 2013 • Leave a Comment

As many of you know, I experienced my official spiritual awakening while living in Texas. I was working as a full time Massage Therapist in cozy, dimly lit rooms with soft music, which is highly conducive to connecting with the spirit world.  During this time, Spirit was trying very hard to show me I could trust what I was getting, and it was in this setting that some of my most memorable readings occurred. I’ve decided to dedicate the next few posts to these instances, as people seem to really enjoy hearing these stories as much as I enjoy telling them!  You may want to check out this previous post: Messages and Massages.  It was my first ‘sign’ that something was afoot! 

Having said that, after a lifetime of thinking I was imagining everything, I was about to find out that truth was definitely stranger- and more exciting- than fiction.  Let’s see how that unfolded, shall we?

I’ll call this client, “Red.”  Red was from the east coast originally, so we got along well straight out of the gate. It was only her second session when I noticed what I have come to know as a spirit who wants to communicate. I had been diligent with my meditations, and with the help of my mentor, felt a bit more confident that what I was receiving was genuine, so I decided to interact with this energy. It was a young guy, wearing a sports jersey, who wanted Red to know he was there. In my thoughts, I told him that I had only seen her twice and did not want to scare her off with this! After all, people weren’t paying me for readings, they were coming in for massage therapy. He was reluctant to leave, so I made a deal with him. I told him if he could find a way to let me know that she wanted to hear from him, that I would pass along the message.  I honestly thought it would never happen, but as I had seen time and time again, something always happens.

Red and I somehow got on the topic of our parents. We talked about how interesting it is to be in the minority, as both of our sets of parents are still married. Then she suddenly said, “but things haven’t been the same since my brother died.”  I’m sure if she could see my face she would have thought I’d just seen a ghost, and, well, I kinda did!  I looked back to the corner where the young guy was standing, and heard, “Well? Now are you going to tell her I’m here?”  I was so taken aback, that I shook my head and said, “no!”  I just couldn’t do it.  It wasn’t for lack of belief, though. It was more my feeling that it was inappropriate. I mean, at the time, I was working for a major massage chain. Can you imagine the look on my manager’s face when my clients emerge from their massage with tales from the dead? I’m pretty sure it wouldn’t be one of wonder and amazement!  I told him I would let her know once I knew her just a little better….and that time did arrive a few weeks later. 

It was just after Thanksgiving. Red and I were a bit more acquainted with one another.  Every month she greeted me with a warm smile and I happily spent an hour working the kinks out of her neck and shoulders. We’d covered a number of subjects during our conversations, from where to find a good farmer’s market in the area to her best friend’s upcoming wedding. There was a point in our conversation that was perfect to ask that pressing question. “Do you believe in mediumship?”  Surprisingly, more often than not, the answer is ‘yes,’ as was the case with Red. I explained to her that during a previous session that the spirit of a young guy had made himself known, and that I believed it to be her brother. She was excited, so I proceeded. I gave her the information he was conveying to me, and she confirmed all of it. In every reading there is one moment that really nails it for people. In this one, it was an image her brother gave me of a perfectly set Thanksgiving table, complete with turkey and candles lit, but with no one sitting around it. So I asked her, “Did you cook and set your Thanksgiving table even though you spent that day alone?” She laughed and said, “Yes, I did.”  So I continued, “Because he’s showing me the table, all done up, and did you actually light candles and everything?”  She laughed harder, confirming once again, that she had done just that! Red may have thought she spent the holiday alone, but her brother made it clear that he was with her that Thanksgiving. 



What happens during a reading?

•May 9, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Since I have decided to start offering readings again, I thought it might be useful to offer some basic information about my process, so you may better understand how I work.

Not all mediums and psychics work the same way.

How we receive information is quite individual and much more than your stock answer – clairvoyance, clairaudience and clairsentience. Here’s what’s happening with me during a reading.  First, when you make an appointment with me, know that it’s a partnership- both here and in the Spirit world. My part in this partnership is the commitment of my time and my commitment to Spirit to help them bring their messages through. Your part in the partnership is also a time commitment– bear in mind that having that appointment is like a target for your Spirit people. It gives them a time and a space where they can focus their energy so they can reach you. They begin working on this as soon as you make your appointment with me!  The other important component in our partnership is for you to be open, which helps your Spirit People connect with both you and I. Your openness provides an open channel for them to enter our energy fields and work with us to communicate.

How the communication works:

The first pieces of information that I receive usually have to do with identity. In a sense, they introduce themselves to me. I receive information about their appearance, relationship to you and their personality or character traits. This is how it would be if I met them here, except the way I receive it is very different.  The way I ‘hear’ is much like the voice in your mind that appears when you are silently reading. It’s not audible to the ears, it’s almost like a very loud thought… that I wasn’t actively thinking. I actually just relax and stop thinking, creating an invitation for the information to drop right in. When I ‘see,’ it is much like the way you’d see something in your mind’s eye when someone tells you a story and you picture it.  The Spirit People will also use their energy to pull up memories of mine that relate to what they are trying to get across, the same way you might try to get your point across by comparing it to something your friend has already experienced. During the reading, I may ask you a question or two that pertains to the information I”m getting, purely as confirmation that I am getting it clearly. They sometimes will use symbols that I do not understand, but that YOU do. For example, during one reading, I received a very strong image of a daisy. I told my client this and asked if it was her favorite flower, to which she replied, “No, it’s what we called her! That’s amazing!”  In that case, the message wasn’t clear to me, but crystal clear to the sitter.

I continue to bounce back and forth between all of my psychic senses until I’ve received the message the Spirits want to convey.  Occasionally, my grandmother will pop in and act as an ambassador!  It’s quite comical. She’s like my spiritual sidekick.  Once, during a reading, I heard her say, “she is very nervous, but it’ll be okay,” referring to my client as she was coming into the reading.  My grandmother knows I am highly empathic, and sometimes cannot distinguish my own feelings from those of the people around me, and in this way she is very helpful when she chimes in.

When you are open to Spirit, each day is an adventure.

Oh… if people could only know what goes on inside my mind and energy field all day, they’d understand why I am so inclined to be in a more peaceful environment, with as little chaos as possible. My ‘internal dialog’ is never-ending, AND it’s not just between me and myself, so you can only imagine the conversations going on in there at any given point. I truly am a satellite for Spirit. My lack of ego is often mistaken for low-self-esteem, when in reality, it’s simply the nature of my soul to always be in a position of service. Being of service means you set your own needs aside.  It’s not that I do not care about myself, it’s that my commitment to my soul’s work is paramount. My physical self sometimes can suffer if I don’t keep this in mind, but in no way do I suffer from low-self-esteem!  Actually, I think I’m pretty awesome, humbly speaking, of course.

If you would like a reading, please email me at I prefer to do readings via Skype, as it doe not require any travel time (so distance is not an issue for either of us). If you are in the Boston area, I can make arrangements to meet you at an agreed upon location. My availability is limited, so if you do book time, please be respectful of this and have the courtesy to keep the appointment unless it is absolutely necessary to cancel it. I require a 48-hour notice for cancellation.  Bear in mind, I never know what is going to happen during a reading until is happens, so I cannot make any guarantees regarding the information or people who will come through to you. Spirit is in control of my sessions. I am simply the instrument. FYI, I do not work with predicting future events or finding lost objects. My work is strictly as a medium or channel, meaning I am like a telephone. I can only relay what the People tell me. The messages that come through are determined by them! If you are looking for someone who does that type of work, I will happily refer you to someone who can help you.

Many Blessings and thank you for reading!

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