Why do we suffer?

•August 10, 2015 • Leave a Comment

It’s been said many ways by many people throughout the world.  Suffering is so terrible.  Why must we endure it?

Twice in my life I’ve spoken to Spirit about my own ‘pain.’  Both times I received an answer, but as with most lessons we came here to learn, it took some time before I really understood the messages I received.

The first time, I was getting to work as a massage therapist.  I set up my room and was feeling a very intense tightness in my shoulders, which not only hurt, but limited my range of motion.  My job was to help others feel better, and I thought I was doing a good job at being of service- which has always been my purpose here.   After charging my room with Reiki, clearing out any residual energy from the prior day’s clients, and blessing the space, I sat on the table and asked Spirit, ‘if I’m serving my purpose, why are you making it harder for me by giving me this pain?’  The answer I was given was, ‘your pain is a gift.’   That was all.  I rarely get a very detailed explanation when I ask about something that is a life lesson, and cannot be removed from my path.  Life lessons are for us to learn and move through, not to be erradicated.  I let the thought linger, then let it go.  That day, I had 3 clients.  Each time I reviewed their intake form, I noted their pain patterns.  I heard the same frustration in each of their voices, as they explained how it was affecting them.  And then I realized something.  They all had the exact same pain pattern I was having that day.  In fact, my pain that day was a gift.  It helped me to understand and be compassionate to each of my clients.  It put them at ease to learn that I had experienced the same type of pain.  In essence, it united us as human beings.

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Suffering is the one thing that every one of us experiences.

Suffering gives us perspective,

and an opportunity to recognize suffering others.

As most humans do, I too, needed more than just once to truly understand this lesson on a level that would embed in my being so deeply, that it would no longer need explanation. So again, after a long day at work, and having to go home without any way to relax due to the spasm in my back, I asked.  ‘Why do I keep experiencing this pain?’  I mean, wasn’t it enough that I had experienced it, understood that it helped me with my clients, but didn’t that mean I completed the lesson?  Spirit’s answer- ‘Pain is a great Teacher.’  I knew in my heart, that it wasn’t only my pain that Spirit was referring to.  It was also the pain of others.  You see, my ex-husband had chronic pain.  It was to the point that he could not sleep, and the only way I could sleep was if I worked on him to reduce the swelling and inflammation enough for him to get some rest.  After a day of working on other people, and having my own pain, I resented having to do it at home, when I felt it was my time to relax.  My pain kept showing up to remind me what it feels like to be in pain.  How many times had I behaved in an uncaring way when he was in pain before?   Spirit had given me the gift of knowing seeing that I had not been as loving as I could be to someone who felt pain.  My pain was a reminder of that.  It was then, that I truly understood how powerful empathy was, and that I was not meant to shut off that part of me, but to use it for this purpose- to be connected to my brother and sister souls incarnated here on the planet.

Never doubt that your prayers are always heard, and your questions answered.  It may not be the way you expect, which is why it’s so important to to be too narrow in your focus when striving to hear the answer.  Be open.  Notice things that draw your attention.  Be still and quiet within yourself.  This is when you will have your ‘ah-ha’ moment.  Thoughts can drop into your consciousness that never occurred to you before.  Feelings may arise that help you understand.  Spirit is not only all around us, it’s within us.  You are Spirit.  Listening is easier when you remember this.

Walking with Spirit by your side, as you continue your journey.

•July 28, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Today, Spirit wants me to pass on a message to my readers:

Your spiritual path and purpose are not a separate part of your life that is floating around, waiting for you to notice it.  It is an integral part of you, and you are living it every day.  

Having shared that, here’s a little update on my own spiritual path and progress.

My move to Florida to build a new life from a fresh start has challenged me to remember this very thing.  I’m still in the process of looking for a full time job, which is a job in and of itself.   In the interim, I’ve been very actively meditating and talking to my People in Spirit about my new life and what my Human self can do to move the process along.  I’ve been instructed to work on making friends with my body, and to work toward making it healthier and stronger.  I have physical limitations that do not allow me to just go gangbusters at the gym.  In addition, I’ve not been active in a very long time, so I’m very much a beginner, all over again.   My People have helped me understand that my idea of how to make my body healthier is too narrow.  It doesn’t need to involve my ‘pushing’ through the pain, and going further than my body can comfortably handle.  I’ve been drawn to Yoga for some time, but have held off on that too.  Why?  Because I couldn’t do each pose perfectly, and therefore I thought I just couldn’t do it.  My People have brought this to the surface and made me see it for what it is.  Fear.   I’d be the first one to tell another person they don’t have to be perfect, but when it comes to myself, I show no mercy.  I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve had that have allowed my fear to surface, so I can see it, understand it, and heal it.  Now I do a very mild Yoga routine that may seem very easy to most people, is still quite challenging to me, but you know what?  I’m okay with that.

In general, I must learn to be more gentle with myself.  I admit, I am a very harsh critic.  Most people have been made to cry by what others think, but I am best at making myself cry with my own hurtful thoughts– but that is part of my journey.

It’s been very interesting, just plopping myself down in a new city, and a new state, not knowing anyone and having no real plan other than ‘get a job!’  But I’m actually very comfortable with where I am.  I trust Spirit.  I’ve never been lead in the wrong direction when I tune in and listen to my Soul.   While I know I am to work in a specific type of way with people, I’m still unsure how that process will unfold.  I had thought I would be going back to school- and I still might- but I am starting to see there is more than one way and I need to stay open to that.

I’ve been guided to become a part of a community of people here that I never would have approached on my own.  Typically, I like to stand at a distance first, and make sure everything looks okay before I make the decision to step into the Light, so to speak.  This time the decision was easy, because it came from a higher place, and I have learned to trust it.  There’s need for my brain to evaluate and overthink things, or for my mind to race through possible scenarios that I may find myself in.  I listened and I stepped into my place.  I’ve only been to 2 gatherings, and I’m already overwhelmed with the amazing souls I’m encountering as a result.  On the way out of the last gathering, it was raining so hard that you couldn’t see the grass in some areas outside.  I had no umbrella, so I just said out loud, “Oh, I’m going to get wet, but that’s okay, it’s only water.”   When I turned around, the head of this organization was standing there with an umbrella for me.  He said I could return it the next time I came to the center.   Now let me make this clear before I say anything else-  It’s not so much that I expect people will not care, it’s just that I’ve never felt the degree of openness and genuine caring for others that I’ve found here.  This is another confirmation that I’m where I’m supposed to be.

Know that you are safe and being looked after, even if you are not aware of it.  My wish for all of my readers is to discover their own inner voice, and to know it comes from a place of Love.  Many blessings to you, and the beautiful Soul I know you are.

Who do you think you are?

•June 11, 2015 • 1 Comment

This question is one that we can carry with us all of our lives.  Who are we, really?  I’ve had my own battles with conflicting philosophies, or world views.  When the time was right, Spirit explained a simple truth to me that shines a light through all of the conflict and it is a beautiful truth.

We all have a soul.  In fact, all living things have a soul.  The soul is our source of life.  The soul has an identity.

When we incarnate as humans, we take on the task of experiencing life from a new perspective.  We willingly let go of our infinite knowledge in order to experience life as human beings.  This results in a new identity with each incarnation, which I will refer to as the Ego Identity.

The conflict that we face as humans, is demonstrated beautifully through the life of Jesus Christ.  That is, we are both Human and Divine.

When we come into Human form, consciousness of our Soul and its Identity is diminished.  However, it is not entirely absent.  Modern man and his inventions have shifted our attention from having a greater consciousness of our Soul by distracting us from our inner world. The more we have turned our attention outward through technology and artificial attachments, the more we have grown to embrace our Ego Identity as our only Identity.

All ancient and indigenous Peoples have known we are Spirit incarnate.  This was not ‘religion,’ it was a universal truth, that connected us to all living things, and allowed the consciousness of our Souls to be present.   Evolution is the explanation for how, as a species, we went from here to there.  But, evolution is a scientific concept, not a spiritual one, and accounts for the physical only.  Science can only explain what we have the ability to perceive through our human senses and current technology.  In other words, it operates purely from the Ego Identity.

Why is this important and why am I talking about this today?  Well, it’s not a secret that mass consciousness has undergone a major shift, with 2012 being a major milestone.  People have been confused and without their internal compass for a long time, seeking means outside of themselves to understand who they are and their place in the world.  Now that the energy in consciousness has shifted, our awareness of our Soul Identity is coming to the surface at a rapid pace.  We are becoming more aware of who we really are.  This sudden awareness is frightening to those who have molded their reality based on science and religion, each which tells a story about reality that is finite, and limited.

I noticed most of the good people who have come to me for spiritual guidance have had the same dominating theme in their lives- a sense of uncertainty, and a crisis of direction.  Spirit’s explanation regarding our Soul Identity and Ego Identity is the answer to all of these issues, simultaneously.  It is precisely the shift in consciousness that has brought us here.

The best example of this is the unemployment crisis.  It’s more than just the economy.  As a society, we’ve created industries with hierarchies, and jobs as a means to obtain money in order to live.  Many have wanted more than the means to live, creating competition for resources and a world that appears to be more of a battlefield than of interconnectedness.  Because of the consciousness of our Soul’s Identity, we are no longer contented with our Ego as the only source of Identity.  People who have spent 20 years in an executive role, making tons of money and climbing the corporate ladder are finding themselves conflicted, simply because their Soul knows this is not their highest purpose.  The lack of awareness that drove people to pursue power and wealth cannot compete with the power of our Soul, which is why so many of us are calling our lives into question.

Our well-formed concepts of who we are and what we are here to do, are being challenged by the expanded awareness of our Souls.  For example, how can a person go to work in a cubicle every day, entering data and taking a one-hour lunch possibly feel a sense of deep fulfillment when their Soul is calling them to a life of healing others?   So many people have found themselves in a position where they have done all they have been taught to be correct, and feel something must be wrong with them because they are still not happy.  They are learning that there is one simple truth that must be followed in order to be whole, fulfilled beings:

Trusting in the outer world, those who possess power through prominent positions,

wealth and worldly knowledge is not enough to propel you

to that place of peace and happiness we all long for.  

Trusting in God, and the voice of your Soul is.

If everything you know is being challenged, and what you thought was the truth is suddenly unstable, this message is for you.

Everything is alive and communicates

•June 6, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Time for a more personal post. I recently moved to Fort Myers, FL. This change has been in the works for a few months. The short story is it is time for me to begin my life’s real work.

As I’m settling in, and getting used to my new surroundings, I’m finding that my soul is closer to the surface than it has been since I was a little girl.  My ‘knowing’ was not something I questioned as a child.  I trusted it, and it never lead me astray.  One of the major themes that has resurfaced is the theme of truth.  It’s all I’ve ever cared about.  I have always been empathic.  My feelings seem to encompass my entire energy field at any given time.  One of the things I’ve heard from people in the psychic community is that it is important to ‘turn off,’ and that it’s not good to be ‘open’ all the time.  From a certain perspective I can understand what they mean, however, for myself, this is not possible.  My empathic and psychic abilities are intertwined with how I experience the world.  To close one off would be like putting on ear muffs, or a blindfold.  They all work together.  My lesson, though, is in how to interpret all of the incoming information in a way that is comprehensive, and not just pieces that don’t fit together. In essence, my Spirit must learn to become part of my Human/Ego to merge into one Whole Self.  I can no longer be a Soul Identity and a Human Identity.  It is time for me to be who I truly am.

What I’ve found is that when I become clear- that is, my guidance comes through with amazing clarity- there are signs all around me.  Tonight as I walked in the light rain, just as the sun was beginning to set in the sky, I had the most peaceful feeling. I looked up, and saw a single, white, fluffy dandelion seed, floating in between the raindrops.  It seemed to be invincible to the wet rain drops, and was being carried by the breeze.

Every seed is a chance for life to begin anew.

Every seed is a chance for life to begin anew.

I tried to catch it, but it floated upward toward the sky just as I was reaching for it. I knew this tiny seed that could float between the raindrops was a sign from God because over the last 3 weeks, I’ve been seeing the little fluffy seeds everywhere- actual dandelions as well as in patterns on clothing and fabrics. They respresent my dream.  The seed had a message.  When it’s the right time and the right place, nothing can stop my dream from reaching its full potential.

I continued my walk and saw a squirrel climbing up a palm tree.  This made me smile, as it’s the first squirrel I’ve seen, and Squirrel is one of my Animal Totems.  When it reached its desired height, It turned around and looked at me.  I greeted him and silently let him know I was grateful for his appearance.  It was another sign- a ‘Welcome’ sign.

When you trust and follow your guidance, everything seems to communicate with you, and you can easily perceive the interconnectedness of all living things.

I look forward to writing more posts, more often, and sharing my journey with you. I thank you, my readers, for being my companions, walking by my side every step of the Way.

So you really think talking about your problems does nothing?

•April 11, 2015 • Leave a Comment

If you’ve read my past blogs, you know that I spent 5 years as a Massage Therapist, and my insight has been that the physical is the last place problems manifest.  Unfortunately for most people, problems are not addressed until the physical calls out to them- an ache, a pain, a stiff neck.  These are not the inconveniences we think they are.  They are Messages.  And when you don’t listen, they become LOUDER.  When they become loud enough, some people may see a doctor.  Other people end up on a massage table.

Some issues were relatively simple at first glance.  Of course, administrative workers came in with neck and shoulder problems, atheletes came in with sore muscles , and waitresses came in with stiff backs from standing and carrying heavy plates. Their pain made sense in a practical way, but that’s not where the problems started.  Each person had their aches and pains, but they also had a story.  This is where the Message Therapy comes in.

Rule of thumb in massage- the client is there to relax, not to chat with you.  I would turn down the lighting, put on relaxing music, and start my work– and my clients started talking.  They didn’t just talk, they were animated in their story-telling, and even passionate. There’s something special about saying something out loud and hearing it in our own voice.  This is where the healing began. My clients would suddenly have insights and come up with solutions they’d never considered.  Some of them would simply let out a sigh of relief at having unloaded a heavy emotional burden.  All of them received what they needed to heal and let go of the pain they were holding on to.

When I hear people say talking about their problems does nothing, I can’t help but shake my head.  The funny thing is, I hear this kind of thing most often from frustrated, disgruntled people who don’t talk about their problems.  Of course, I respect that they may not be at a point where they are ready to heal.  Sometimes of our lessons here are hard to take, and we avoid them by building boundaries and being defensive.  Some may never be ready to face them.

I have seen people transform right before my eyes,

just from sharing a story or confessing a worry.

Just seeing a look of recognition in they face of another human being when voicing our emotions can be transformative.  Talking about our problems helps us relieve stress, come up with new insights, create a sense of community with others, and validates our feelings, to name a few benefits.  It helps us get perspective.  It helps us feel less alone and isolated.  Might I also mention that those of my clients who did tend to open the floodgates would get better faster?

Massage really was the gateway I had to walk through to get how the process works for us stubborn humans.  We feel depressed but we tell ourselves we are fine.  We stay in situations that are detrimental to our mental health.  All the while, we know what must be done, remaining blissfully ignorant until it reaches the physical level, where we can no longer ignore that something wrong!  We may try to get rid of it with a pill, but if there’s a Message for you in the pain, it will persist until you get it.  Most people will put themselves through enormous amounts of suffering before they are willing to address the underlying problem.  That’s how far the lies we tell ourselves can go.  Speaking your Truth really is the best medicine.

Trusting in Your Guidance

•February 16, 2015 • Leave a Comment

When you make the commitment to follow Spirit, you must understand that you have entered into a very personal relationship that requires attention and continual trust. You will have many instances where your guidance does not follow any line of logic, but you must trust it!

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William Adolphe Bouguereau’s “Dream of Spring”

A couple of weeks ago, I was having a visit with a friend. We stopped in a natural food store, and upon walking in I noticed some free publications- one of which was Wisdom–  a spiritual magazine. Since leaving the Boston area, I had not been able to find it anywhere. I was so excited! After shopping, we went to have lunch, and as we waited for the food to arrive, I poured through the pages of this awesome resource. As I looked through the ads for people offering services of a psychic nature, one word stood out to me- Lightarian. I didn’t know what it referred to, or meant at the time, but I know when something stands out to me in this way, Spirit is trying to get my attention. I spoke the word out loud, and asked my friend if she knew what it was about. She didn’t seem to have any reference points either, so we moved on and had a nice lunch.

The next stop I had on my list was to a place called The Sanctuary, a spiritual shop that carries things like books, oracle decks, jewelry and although I didn’t know it at the time, a variety of classes. We walked around, and explored the little nooks and crannies of the store. The woman at the desk started to ask us some friendly questions. The word, “Lightarian” popped into my head, and although I had no idea what I was asking, I asked. “Do you have anyone here who does Lightarian work?” “Yes, as a matter of fact we do!” was the response. It was quite surprising! She went on to tell me about something called AngelLinks, and a brochure that explains it further. I left my name, and asked if I could be contacted when the next class was being offered.

It wasn’t too long before I received a call from the facilitator, Amy Marino, to explain more about what AngelLinks was all about. She had left a voicemail, and as I was getting ready to call back my thoughts started to turn toward how I would be able to afford to take these classes that I knew I was supposed to take. I decided immediately that if I had to take it one-on-one, I would need to schedule the attunements over 5 months (there are 5 attunements). I called her back, and she explained a bit more about the process, and that she was planning on having the classes over a 5 month period to make it more affordable for people! This was an incredible confirmation that my connection to Spirit was very clear!

I’m happy to say that I booked that class and received my first attunement on Valentine’s Day. I’m looking forward to the next 4!

Had I tried to rationalize any of this, it would not have happened. I had to follow what I was being shown. It’s been over a period of months that my attention has been drawn toward the angelic realm, but nothing had presented itself for me as an action step. I had to wait. Impatience is a hard thing to pair with Spirit! Spirit works in its own time.

As always, my words are meant to serve as an example, not direction. You must always trust your own guidance, and be patient. There is no end-game. This is a never-ending journey.

Let me call you sweetheart

•January 16, 2015 • 2 Comments

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again– when Spirit wants to send us a message, it always finds a way.

For the last few days I’ve been hearing “Let me call you sweetheart,” gently streaming through my mind.  This was a song that my grandfather used to like to sing.  It was soft, not too much of a nudge, but it was there and made me think of him and the time in my life that to this day I consider the best time of my life.

I recently became a listener of iTunes Radio, which is a nice change of pace from scrolling through my personal library of music over and over. Since my taste in music is very eclectic, I have quite a few stations that you’d be surprised to see alongside one another. Today, I decided to create a new station, so I typed in “Let me call you sweetheart” and let the music play.

Oh what a different time it was when songs like this were popular. I found myself flying through my work at a very steady pace with artists like Perry Como, Patti Page and The McGuire Sisters, reminding me of a more gentle time in the background. I thought about being a little girl in my grandparent’s North End apartment, and how every time I turned on the bathroom light, the radio would turn on and I would hear all of these artists and more.  Then my thoughts turned toward my grandmother and how much I’ve missed her every single day of my life since she went Home in 1983.  It always brings me back to myself when I think of her. She was the only person in the world who I ever felt truly understood me. She never had an unkind word, although she was a tough cookie.  She’s the one who taught me how to tidy my room, saying things like, “if you take care of your things, you’ll always have new things.”  I thought about how my life would have been different if she was still with me.

And then, all of a sudden, there it was.

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod

Patti Page- Old Cape Cod


My grandmother saying hello, through a song.  A song that came because I listened to my grandfather saying, “let me call you sweetheart.” She hears me.  She knows I’m still at her favorite place, Cape Cod.

When your loved ones are trying to reach out to you, they will use whatever means necessary to do so. My grandmother knows me so well, and can give me messages easily, but she never does!  She still remains that wonderful, fun Gramma that wants me to be as surprised now as I was when I was a little girl. She knows that even though I can hear her, there are times when I need to see something in the physical world that shows me I’m not alone.  And believe me, she loves to see the look on my face when she does the things she does to reach me. They are always ridiculously hard to ignore and absolutely perfect in the way they come to me.

So, why do I write about these things and share them with people on the web?  It’s simple. I’m the person people talk to when something amazing happens to them and they think they are nuts.  When the story is followed by the quesiton, “do you think it was “so and so” trying to send me a message?” I can’t help but share my own experiences.

It’s been said that for those who believe, no proof is necessary, and for those who do not, no proof will be sufficient.  This is one of those things for most people.  What you know in your heart, is your own truth. It is yours, and no one else’s.  Don’t let that truth become less than the beautiful light it is because a third-part perspective cannot see, feel or understand what you know in your heart.

Even when I’m sure everyone in the Spirit world is busy with other things, they make it known to me that I am never forgotten.

What better gift could I ask for?

The Path is before you. You need only to shine your Light upon it.

•November 10, 2014 • Leave a Comment

The beauty of the Spirit world is that no matter where we find ourselves, it is always present with us.  This can be a hard concept to grasp, as most of us are much more familiar with the physical world where the Eiffel tower is in France, and the Empire State Building is in NY.  But when it comes to Spirit, no matter where you find yourself, Spirit has already found you!

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The Path is before you.

You need only to shine your Light upon it.

A couple of weeks ago, I was looking through a local paper, and saw that there was going to be a Native American Harvest event in a neighboring town.  I looked closer, and saw that it was centered around the American Girl Doll.  “Hmm,” I thought.  Until I read that part, I was considering going.  My brain surmized that it wouldn’t be the place for me.

Fast foward to Saturday, Nov 8.  I was looking through the paper again, and there it was, again!  I realized this was not a coincidence.  As I considered the possibility of going to the event, my attention turned to the television in the background- tuned to the Science Channel’s “How it’s Made.”  After the commercial break, the first image on the screen was a Native American drum, followed how it’s made, of course!.  I watched as native people stretched the wet cow hide across the wooden base of the drum- all of it made by hand.  It was another nudge from Spirit, and I knew it.  Even though I would have liked to stay in my pajamas and snuggle with my Sadie (my affection-loving pitbull rescue) I knew it was time to get up.

Lately,I have been making an effort to follow the whisperings of Spirit, instead of just listening, and dismissing them with my ego’s judgment.  This is something of a confession itelf, as the main thing I teach people is to trust their intuition.  In truth, it’s not that I don’t trust it. That’s not it at all.  It’s that I have a choice to do something other than what it’s telling me.  The good thing about a true sign is that it will keep repeating until we listen.  This was going on the third sign– first I saw the listing, two weeks later, I saw it again, and then the making of the drum on tv.

Over the past month or so, I’ve actively been working toward developing a ministry.  As you may know, I’m an Ordained Minister for Our Lord & Lady of the Trinacrian Rose Church.  My mind told me that it was best to keep quiet about this part of me because in my mainstream job and family life it’s not something that everyone is comfortable with.  That’s the ego part of me, trying to protect me, in theory, but in actuality– holding me back.  Luckily for me, with age comes wisdom and my intuition quickly showed me all of the times I was accepting of others around me with various lifestyles, occupations and beliefs.  Yes, I get the message, and yes, it is time I started listening. It was time for me to expose this part of myself to the world, or rather, for the world to finally be exposed to the loving energy of who I am.

I drove to the event, and realizing it was in an Episcopal Church, almost backed out.   I did grow up Christian, but Catholic, and didn’t know much about Episcopalian Churches, except that women were allowed to be ministers.  I wiped the thought out of my mind that I didn’t belong there, and walked right into the hall behind the Church, itself.  I was greeted by warm smiles from some very lovely older ladies, who welcomed me and told me I didn’t need a reservation, and to come on in.  I paid the admission fee and grabbed a program.

As I walked into the hall, I noticed it was full of round tables, each occupied by women of all ages, mostly ages 2-10!  What was I doing here again?  I kept walking, tuning into my intuition very keenly.  “Where should I sit?” I asked silently.  I was directed to circle back around, and to take a seat next to a man who looked about 50 with glasses and a gray beard.  The Native American drummers were in the center of the room, so I had a great view no matter where I sat.  I explained that I had come alone and asked if I could sit at the table.  He smiled and invited me to sit next to him.  He was there with his mother and his little daughter.  We began talking and I found out that not only was he into going to Pow-Wows, and had lived in New Mexico just to be closer to the native culture, he was…. one of us!  While we were not entirely of the same system of spiritual practices, we saw eye-to-eye on many points.  After the drumming was over, the conversation turned toward my position as a Minister and the true reason for the conversation came about.  He turned to me and said,” no matter who it is, I can talk to anyone, anywhere about spirituality in any form.”  This was pivotal, because it’s a message I’ve heard from my own Guides over and over. It finally occurred to me that my ministry was already in practice– just not the kind I was tryng to fit into.

Another bit of wisdom shared with me by my Guides came back to me in this moment: Every soul is important.  If everyone on earth became enlightened except for 5 souls, it would be every bit as important to Heaven to reach out to those 5 souls as it had been to reach all of the others.  In Heaven, the absense of one soul is felt by all. The same way a Shepherd leaves the flock to find the one sheep that is lost, Heaven finds a way to reach a soul seeking the light. To help one, is no less than to help a thousand. I had been judging my work as a minister to be less because it took place quietly, and usually between myself and one or two others at a time who found their way to me.

I hope my experience speaks to you. If you are reading this, it surely is meant to touch you in some way.  And in that spirit, I ask you this– how many times have you hidden the very core of yourself to ‘protect’ others from being offended or uncomfortable (real or perceived)?  How long have you remained silent about your beliefs or the way you really feel about something in order to keep from rocking the boat?  The time has come, my fellow Souls, to step forward from the Shadows, and BE THE LIGHT.  There are many, many others like us out there, who need to be shown that it is safe to be who they are.  We are everywhere!  We are in hospitals, law enforcement, schools, businesses, and the list goes on.  By hiding your light, you are re-affirming that it is acceptable for you to be less than you are.  The more we stay quiet, the more we are saying, ‘it is okay to dismiss me. I have nothing to offer.”   The real truth is, the more of us that give our community a voice, the closer we become to helping the world see that there is nothing to fear from people who are ‘different.’   It only matters that we come from a place of Love and repect. This is such an important part of our Human-ness, and evolution.  Please, move into your light.  You are not only denying yourself the beauty you have within, you are denying others the opportunity to see and feel that beauty.

Namaste, my fellow Souls.

 

Weaving Intuitive information into your everyday life.

•October 9, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Confessions of a Spirit Messenger has finally returned to the airwaves!  As of right now, you can hear me live, every Tuesday night at 7:30pm EST on blogtalkradio.   Tune in and join the chatroom to talk to other listeners and ask me questions that I will answer live.  All past shows are available through the archives, so you’ll never miss a beat.

 

Here’s the latest show.  

Happy Listening! 

Weaving Intuitive information into your everyday life. 10/07 by SpiritMessages | Spirituality Podcasts.

The Itsy Bitsy Spider

•September 15, 2014 • Leave a Comment

It’s been almost a year since I made my decision to move to Cape Cod.  In that time, many changes have taken place.  One thing hasn’t changed– the amount of pressure I put on myself to figure out what I want to be when I grow up!

Time and time again, I’ve asked Spirit– as I’m sure all of you have– to give me some insight on what career path best suits me, and how to ensure that I am financially secure.  And like many of you, I don’t feel like I’ve figured it out yet.  I will admit, I have a lack of patience in this department, and although I know there are many possibilities, my human need for security keeps me from veering too far off the beaten path.

One of the things I struggle with is finding my place in the world, which is far more important to me than you might think.  If I knew that, I could pick the right job, or  career path, and finally feel peaceful about my choices, right?  I often observe society’s belief that to be successful is to find a goal and pursue it.  It would seem that it’s the ‘doing’ part of us, that ‘masculine’ energy that is most valued.  This frustrated me, because  I’ve found that any attempt to merge with that energy did not yield results for me.  There has always been a feeling of resistence deep in my heart.  Something that knows this is not my way, or my place in the world.

Spirit heard my thoughts, and in a short time, signs began to appear.

One day I came into work and noticed several spider webs outside my window.   Each was perfectly shaped, and positioned in a way that was in a corner, not flush against the actual glass of the window.  I let myself be still, and take in this amazing creation.  I knew it was a sign, but I wasn’t yet sure how to make sense of it.   At home, I noticed that at the most inopportune moments, a spider would land on me!  This happened one night in particular, as I lay propped up in bed in the dark, watching TV.  All was quiet, and suddenly a spider lowered itself from the ceiling right in between my glasses and my face!   OK! OK! I’m listening!

I had read so much about animal signs, but the ones about Spider just didn’t make sense to me.  Then it hit me…. the webs.   Because my question was specifically about how to go about finding my place, I was missing a very important point.  You see, a spider doesn’t chase its prey.  A spider creates its web, and waits for its prey to come along and become entangled it.  I had been arguing with Spirit that ‘this is about survival,’ and I need to act!

In an instant it became clear.  I heard the soft whisper of my guides.

“Prepare, and be patient,’ they whispered.  ‘Doesn’t a spider need to eat in order to survive? And yet, they spin their web and wait.  They do not panic and try to chase.  This is their way.’

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.

What wisdom does Spider bring to you? Listen closely and she will tell you a story about yourself.

 

 

And with that, everything shifted.  I stopped feeling guilty that I wasn’t aggressive enough.  I ceased grinding my teeth over how it felt wrong for me to push and fight, and to take what I wanted.  It’s not my way, and that’s okay.  Humans make these judgements about what is right and wrong.  Nature just is.  We cannot all be fierce hunters, and we are not all supposed to be.  My nature, my way, is different, and there was no sense in fighting it, or apologizing for it. I don’t know about you, but I’ve never seen a fly make fun of a spider because it’s just sitting there instead of chasing it.  Nor have I heard of a spider that keeps itself up at night because it’s not a good hunter!

So there, my friends, you have it-  a simple sign that brought me great peace, understanding and brought me back to the beauty of the web of life.   Always know that there is wisdom in all creation, and nothing is a mistake.  The very thing you find to be a flaw in yourself, can be the very thing that saves you when you least expect it!

If you would like to learn more about the card pictured in this post, you can find this deck, Medicine Cards: The discovery of power through the ways of animals, on Amazon here.

A Reason, a Season or a Lifetime

•May 29, 2014 • 1 Comment

Throughout my life, whenever I’ve been presented with a challenge or a fork in the road, Spirit has placed someone in my path to help me move forward in my journey.  Each of these amazing people has made an immortal imprint on my soul, and I will forever be grateful for their appearance at just the right time.

This is a soul lesson that is of vital importance, especially in times when we are certain we are alone in our struggles.   For most of us, the little gifts that Spirit places carefully on our path are not evident until long after the experience has passed.  Aging has a way of showing us what was important in the past, and hopefully helps us to be mindful of this wisdom in our future. Hindsight is 20/20, but wouldn’t it be nice to have just a little bit of foresight now and again?  With a little practice, we can come to recognize these signs, symbols, and people sent by Spirit as our experiences are unfolding.

So how does one come to recognize those that step in at just the right time, or a sign that appears to speak solely to us in that moment of need?  The first step is building awareness.  If we are too focused on our drama, or the bleakness of the situation at hand, we cannot possibly be aware of the little things happening that tell us it’s okay and to grow!

Mediumship- your conversation with Spirit- starts with awareness.  Meditation is the best way to experience a shift in your awareness, which is why it is emphasized by so many schools of new age thought. In the absence of the chaos and outside distractions, clarity becomes much easier.  Once you have cultivated a relationship with your inner silence, you will begin to feel more grounded, less scattered, and your conversation with Spirit begins. This is where you begin your real work.  You see, no matter how many signs Spirit sends your way, it will always be up to you to acknowledge it or ignore, to use the information or toss it to the wind.  True messages from Spirit will always guide you, never push you.  This is for a very good reason.  Spirit gave us free will, and therefore cannot interfere without your consent.  Guidance will be available to you when you ask, but whether or not you act on it is entirely up to you.  This means that in order for something to happen as a result of this guidance, YOU have to do something!

They say someone steps into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime.  This is true, especially when it comes to divine guidance on your path.  Some people you meet will serve one purpose only– to deliver a message, or to get you from one stepping stone to another, hence they appear for a Reason.  During the periods of time when you are in a state of suspension on your journey you may meet someone who will remain with you until you find your footing.  They come for only a Season.   If you love deeply, and keep an open heart you will have many who fit the last description of those who step into your life and remain with you until the end of your Lifetime.  They move with you through your cycles, and hardships, always making sure to be your safety net if /when the time comes that you need one.  These people are true treasures.  Keep in mind that throughout your travels, you will also be the Reason, Season, or Lifetime gift for others you encounter on your path. You will be THEIR gift. 🙂

Here’s a little tip –  those who are sent to save you, will sometimes come in the guise of someone who, themselves, needs saving! Do not be fooled.  The simple act of caring for another can be the most therapeutic thing for our own selves.   This is a very special way that Spirit guides us, because sometimes we ask for help but aren’t open to receiving it directly as guidance.  So Spirit finds a way to help you while you’re not looking. 😉  Spirit never gives up on us.

Count your blessings, for they are many.

 

A true confession

•March 31, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to take your own advice.   Much like everyone else, I need a fellow human to pick me up and dust me off- and kick my butt back into shape.

The truth is, people who have abilities to see beyond the physical are subject to the human experience, just like everyone else.  We make mistakes.  We love people who aren’t good for us.  We do things that aren’t in our best interest for one reason or another.  Being gifted excuses nothing!

This is my confession for today.  That I have been just as wounded as those around me who seek me out for advice.  When I’m ‘connected,’ I am drawing on energy and information from the other side, not this one, which is the only reason I am able to see things, hear things, help people heal.  I’m not a superhero, but I do love to help people. If I were to try to use my own personal energy stores to accomplish this, I’d have been pushing up daisies by now.

That being said, I’ve spent the last 2.5 months getting my physical self adjusted to yet another move!  I’m pretty sure this one has been in the works for a long, long time.  Sometimes it’s our own selves who keeps us away from the things we really want. The only place I’ve ever felt 100% at peaceful has been Cape Cod.  I told myself for years I couldn’t live here.  Why?  Exactly.  I am a human, just like you.

As I pour over some of my writings, I’m inspired by Spirit’s simplicity and purity.   I could not write without the help of Spirit.  It truly is the energy of my angels, guides and guardians that brings through these teachings.  It reminds me how small I am, and also, how important one soul is, no matter how insignificant we may feel.

That’s all for today.  Just some thoughts to ponder.

Namaste.

Time Wounds All Heels…

•December 8, 2013 • Leave a Comment

As time goes by, everything changes. Around this time of year, I find it especially important to ‘check with’ myself.  I constantly observe, take inventory and evaluate where I am on my path. I’ve discovered something that only time passing by can teach us.

I’ve seen memories change form.  I’ve felt my viewpoint of the same issue shift from one end of the spectrum to the other. I’ve learned that actions that once had a very specific meaning, have no meaning at all.  Over time, our wounds become teachers.

In short, sometimes, Love is all about perspetive.  Observe:

What looks like an ordinary thing- such as this bunch of hydrangea that I hung upside down to dry...

What looks like an ordinary thing- such as this bunch of hydrangea that I hung upside down to dry…

Can easily become a sign when the perspective is changed.

Can easily become a sign when the perspective is changed.

Love is a perspective. Especially around the holidays, this is very important to keep at the forefront of your thoughts.  It’s a joyous time of year, but it’s also stressful for a lot of people for varying reasons.  For some, this is the first Christmas without a loved one. Behind what appears to be a smiling face, may be an aching heart.  Be gentle with your words and actions.  If someone lashes out at you, consider they are feeling unloved and in order to conceal this, they act out in a way that takes attention from them and turns it toward you.   When you find this perspective, sit with it, and really let it sink in.  This gives you the incredible opportunity to be a part of someone’s journey to healing their wounds- visible or not.  This is one way that time heals our wounds. 

Try to remember that the way others treat you, or speak to you says much more about them than it does about you.   It may take years before you master this skill, but it is one that will be priceless once you do. 

Peace and Love to all of you, throughout the holiday season. 

The Art of Walking Your Path in Balance

•November 18, 2013 • 1 Comment

Greetings to all of my loyal readers!  Happy Holiday season!  I’m sure you are all in full swing with the changing of the seasons, darkness coming much sooner and those *much* too-early commercials that are decking our halls even before Halloween!

Today I bring you a message of Balance.  Most of the time, when life feels overwhelming, it’s not so much the circumstances beyond our control as it is our sense of balance being disrupted.  It’s easy to be too focused on one thing.  For many of us, it’s the physical.  We obsess over calories, clothing sizes, hairstyles, the perfect little black dress, and so on.  It’s easy for us to become fixated on these things because they are so physical, meaning they are highly visible, and we are capable of making adjustments, indulging our ego-self’s perfectionism.  The main reason we fixate on these things, isn’t their importance. It’s actually the illusion that we have control over them.

True, you can change the color of your hair, eyes, and skin tint at will.  But think about it for a second.  What is it that we are really striving for in the creation of our outside world?  Peace?  Hmm, I think not.  A feeling of peace is often something we feel when we are in an environment that is to our liking, but think about being in that perfect environment right now and let yourself really feel that sensation.  Everything is as it ‘should’ be.  Nothing needs to be adjusted or changed.  Soothing, yes?  Maybe for about 15 minutes.  Then what?  They the mind kicks in, and you begin to think about texting a friend about your newfound serenity.  You wonder if your boss got your last email.  You realize what day it is, and your thoughts turn toward things like your bank balance, when the credit card payments are due and a score of other, seemingly controllable, outside elements of your life.

What happened?  Paradise was shattered so easily in just a short time.  And it had nothing to do with your outside world, and EVERYTHING to do with your inner world.

When I tell my listeners and readers to ‘work on themselves,’ what I am really asking is for everyone to take the time to be still and quiet in their own mind, so they can collect themselves on a spiritual level.  This makes the outside world change- or maybe it just looks a little differently than it did just a few minutes ago, prior to your stillness.

In order to ‘Walk with one foot in each world,’ as my tagline says, you must have a consciousness of both!  You cannot ignore the physical for too long without losing a sense of balance, nor can you drift in the spiritual for any length of time without losing a sense of the physical. In order to be in a state of balance, you must first achieve a sense of your own self.  Are you aware of how your body feels? Are your emotions being suppressed by a false belief that you’re holding?  In order to be a whole Human Being, you must also acknowledge and spend time with the Divinity that dwells within you.  This is also the path to developing psychically.  As you begin to honor both of your selves, your intuition is suddenly more clear.  Your physical self will become more familiar with that physical feeling that comes with receiving your inner guidance. Your guidance will become familiar with that mental resistance that comes with the physical fear of knowingness.  Your sides must become friends with one another in order for both to function properly!

Example?  When I know my guidance is telling me to call someone, my mental consciousness immediately starts listing the reasons I should not.  My stomach suddenly feels as if something is pressing against it.  What does this tell me?   It tells me that I am receiving true guidance.  How do I know?   Through observation.  I’ve meditated until my own name made no sense to me anymore, and all of the physical was called into question.  On the flip side, I’ve ignored my divinity and fell hard down the physical pains of a reality that existed in the absence of any inner world.  Each felt different.  I noted these things.  I wrote about them in a journal.  Then I began to allow both of these sides to be ‘active’ at the same time, and I noted the changes I felt on all levels.  I began to see the physical reactions to my guidance, and when the physical world was overwhelming, suddenly the whispers of my guidance were more clear.  Each held out a hand, and allowed the other to take hold of it.  I now walk in both worlds– and I always have to be mindful whenever one feels a bit heavier than the other. I simply ‘check in’ with myself, and follow my guidance, allowing for all of my feelings to co-exist instead of competing.

How beautiful is it to know that we do not have to be one thing or another, but can be many things, all existing simultaneously, each with full knowledge of the others?  Life becomes more of an experience when all of our selves have a steady voice.

Once I had mastered this art, I was able to have a greater understanding of all things!   Another illustration?  No problem!   I am a Medium and I am a Witch. Neither of these is easily explained, or accepted in most social circles in modern society.  I was very unhappy, feeling that I had to deny these essential parts of myself nearly everywhere I went.  I had to hide myself from the feeling of rejection that was certain to come if I revealed either of these.  I recognized that I was in a state of imbalance, and I started to make my connection between my guidance and my physical selves to find the answer.   It was  explained to me by one of my People, that sometimes we deny ourselves a part of who we are, due to outside circumstances, or the expectations of others who are close to us.  I was shown that it is not necessary for me to deny who I was, only that I should be mindful and respectful of how I express it.  This brought a whole new perspective to my mind that helps me tremendously.  I am never NOT a Witch and I am never NOT a Medium!   It’s just that in some circumstances, I see the value in keeping that fire burning quietly within myself, rather than casting it to the wind, where it can do some damage to myself, my relationships or others. I am not hiding, and I am not denying.  I am always FULLY who I am.   And with that, I felt the balance return, and I felt peace.

So, my dear readers, this is the message for today.  You are always all of your selves, and none of them needs to be sacrificed, or suppressed in order for the others to exist.  They are the instruments in the symphony that is you.

~Namaste~

Messages from the Massage Table: ‘Laura’

•September 12, 2013 • Leave a Comment

In the early stages of my psychic side finally being allowed to come out and play, I didn’t trust it.  Big surprise, right?  Some of what transpired during my massage sessions was just as much for my benefit as it was for theirs. I needed to learn to trust what I was getting, and this story is a prime example. I’ll call this next client, ‘Laura.’

It was a fairly quiet night, with a mellowness to it that was unusual for a weekday.  I was booked for a 2-hour session with Laura.  What I first noticed about her was her Cape Cod sweatshirt.  “Hey, did you go to the Cape?” I asked her.  “I live there!” she answered.   She immediately seemed more relaxed and at ease, which is what I strive for when meeting a new client.  In this case, it was that connection to home and that mutual look that says, “what are you doing all the way in Texas?”

She had no specifications for her session, so we decided to focus on relaxation.  As I said, for some people, they are much more comfortable talking to me while they are being worked on than they are falling asleep.  Sometimes I think it’s nervousness, but once they begin talking there is an immediate softening of the muscles, and a sense that they are actually releasing the tension in their bodies by talking about their current issues, so I go with it.  Who am I to tell someone they have to be still and quiet during their session?

Laura talked about a lot of things going on in her life, while I listened, stopping only to let me know if she wanted me to adjust the amount of pressure I was using.  During the first 15 minutes of the session, I began to see two figures beginning to show themselves right beside the opposite end of the table.  I could tell one was a child and one was an adult.  “Uh-oh,” I thought, “not a good time guys!  I’ve only known this lady for 15 minutes!  I can’t scare her away this early in the session!”  They lingered for a few minutes, but faded after I mentally told them I couldn’t speak with them at that moment.

At the 1 hour and 45 minute mark, the conversation shifted, and she suddenly comes out with, “I wish my sister would go see someone like John Edward.”  I asked her why.  She started telling me the story.  “A couple of years ago, my sister was in a car following her husband and her son up over the bridge to New Hampshire.  You know that bridge?”  I told her I did. She continued on, telling me that as they were going over the bridge, the car her sister’s husband and son were in tumbled over and fell down over the side of the bridge.  The husband died and the son had broken every bone in his body, dying shortly after.

At this point, I’m realizing why I had seen the two figures– the adult and child.  This was her sister’s husband and son.  Unfortunately, since she had given me all of this information, I couldn’t give her sister a reading.  I knew too much at that point.  Instead, I referred her to my mentor.

It was at this point that I was learning I could trust what I was seeing and getting.  To see something like that, and then find out it was valid after the fact, proved to me that I was really connecting to the Spirit world.  Once again, the message was, “trust.”

If we do not do what we love…

•August 6, 2013 • Leave a Comment

…We risk doing nothing at all.

This is the quote that graces a little plaque I was inspired to purchase a couple of years ago.  It currently hangs from the mantle, which is also my ancestral altar.  On that same corner of the mantle is a small wind chime, given to me by a friend and a glass Bluebird ornament– bluebird being one of my major symbols.

Sometimes we do things without knowing why.  I call that a whisper from Spirit, others may call it intuition or inspiration. Whatever your name for it, you can be assured that it is quite real. We are all hard-wired to receive messages from ‘Home’ so it should come as no surprise that these whispers come along at just the right time…. which leads me to the topic of today’s post.

A funny thing happened to me on the death anniversary of my Grandmother, July 8th.  If you read this blog regularly, you know she’s one of my major supporters on the Other Side, and she is always very close in Spirit.  It just so happens that although I’m a regular visitor to her resting place, on this day every year I do not visit.   So there I sat on my couch, watching television when I heard my wind chime.  I looked over and saw that my little Bluebird had flipped over- though still attached to the post- and drew my attention to my little sign.  I smiled, and spoke aloud, “Hi Gramma.  I see you found a way to say ‘hi’ today.” 🙂

The message was loud and clear.  All of those moments when I’d whisper to Spirit, “What am I supposed to do? How am I going to move forward?” had been heard.   This time it was my Grandmother who answered.  This kind of thing happens to me quite often on a subtle level, but there are times when she does something out of the ordinary because she enjoys seeing my reaction.  For me, it’s like receiving an unexpected package or gift on my doorstep.  It truly is a gift, and it always makes me smile.

You may have asked for help, or direction and think you have not received an answer.  Remember this- sometimes we tune ourselves out to the answer we receive because it is not what we wanted to hear.  We expect Spirit to give us some kind of secret backdoor way to get what we want.  This is a very human trait.  What we need to remember is that we see things through a limited, tiny lense, compared to the way Spirit sees them. I’m reminded of a quote from Oprah’s Master Class- “God can dream a bigger dream for us than we can dream for ourselves.”  Be open.  You’re being listened to and you’re getting your answers.  Spirit knows your soul, and will always give you the inspiration needed to fulfill your purpose, even if it’s not what you think it’s supposed to be!

Blessings to all of you, my amazing readers!

The Lesson is Always Love.

•July 30, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Today’s blog is intensely personal, but worth sharing.  When I am struggling with understanding something and I ask for help, I always get my answer.  Sometimes a situation presents itself, not to be solved, but to show us something about ourselves that once we recognize, will shift our entire perception, and our ‘problems’ will suddenly melt away.   You will encounter the same ‘problems’ over and over until you learn the lesson.  Here’s how it was shown to me.

A few years ago, while living in Texas, I was faced with a situation that had me feeling very fearful and unsteady.  My (now ex) husband had permanent physical damage from an accident that left him in constant pain. I can remember going to doctor after doctor with him, trying to understand the nature of the pain, and how to improve it. We tried several chirpractors as well.  Because money was an issue, we were not able to go the alternative route, as insurance would not cover 99% of the treatments or office visits.  He was fighting his own body and miserable. In order to keep his sanity he was working out regularly at the gym, pushing himself as far as he could, trying to gain some control over his body.  What happened as a result?  He ended up injuring his knee.  I believe he had a torn ligament.  You can only imagine his frustration when he could no longer work out the way he wanted to, and his cardio routine – running- would have come to a complete hault.  In his eyes, it was yet one more limitation he had to live with.  From my perspective I can tell you, living with someone in pain is difficult in and of itself, but throw in a defeatist attitude and my maximum tolerance was being stretched.

He didn’t express it in words so much as he did in actions, but he was feeling utterly hopeless. Being a fairly verbose individual, I was blind to a lot of the ways he did express himself, but I could tell he was getting more and more depressed based on his habits, which seemed to be more and more unhealthy, and self-punishing over time.  He’d overeat, drink more than usual, and stay awake all night watching movies.  More than once, I’d be sitting in our living room, and he’d come over to me, kneel down and wrap his arms around my waist, his face buried in my chest, and just sit there. My early reactions were of panic. How could this 6’4″ tall, big, strong man who is older than I am, lived all over the country, and lived through a very rough childhood be sitting here, asking me to be his Mommy?  My thoughts raced- ” I can’t do that!  I can’t take on the responsibility of being someone’s caretaker- I can’t even take care of myself!”  I mean, here I was, I had moved 2,000 miles from home and anything I knew, got laid off from my job, working hourly as a massage therapist (and a poorly paid one at that), and was consciously holding onto my seams daily so I wouldn’t fall apart. This is where the lesson comes in.

The problem here wasn’t the actual problem. On the surface it looks as if the circumstances and our inability to overcome them was the core issue. It wasn’t. It was our judgements of the circumstances, and ourselves. We weren’t being defeated by life. We were being defeated by our programming.

As human beings, it is natural for each of us to look to one another for acceptance, reassurance, and love. I can see now, that I judged him as being weak, and I judged myself as being even more weak and helpless on top of that.  I see now that as I held him in a loose embrace, giving him an awkward pat on his back, I was not giving him what he needed.  Because I was judging him as being needy, and unable to handle himself, I was reinforcing his own fears. At the same time, I was judging and denying my nurturing, loving side (that I now like to call ‘Mommy’) as somehow giving in to a weakness.   Let me make this clear.  There is nothing wrong with needing love, and there is nothing wrong with giving love.  I was making judgements based on what both of our actions meant, completely blinded by the obvious.  I did not see the strength it took for him to show me that he was human and vulnerable. I did not appreciate the wall being let down. I did not understand that what I considered to be MY greatest weakness- my soft heart and sensitivity- were to be my greatest strength in this moment. I had judged him, and myself, and as a result both of us were sitting on the very resources we needed to get through the storm, but unwilling to see them as such.

A reassuring, strong embrace.  A gentle stroke of the hair.  The simple phrase, “it’s okay,” when someone is sure it is absolutely not okay.  These things can move mountains on an emotional level.  Every human being fears rejection of who they truly are. Every person out there knows what it’s like to feel they need to hide their emotions from the world.  Even if this is essential to our survival at times, behind closed doors with the ones we love, those walls need to come down!  Everyone deserves at least one person in life that sees past what others consider to be flaws, and accepts him or her in their entirety.  This is what is called unconditional love.  It’s not, “I will love and treat you well as long as you live up to my expectations.”  That’s the complete opposite of love.  Love isn’t logical.  Love doesn’t keep score.  Love isn’t selective about which of our qualities it will accept and which it will ignore or reject.  Love always says, ‘yes.’  Love isn’t a judgement.  Love isn’t disposable.  Love should not be confined by our convenient little definitions. Without it, we would survive, but we would not live.

In all of our pain and rejection, there are lessons to be learned, if we can quiet our minds, allow our emotions to flow and connect to our inner selves.  That is where our truth lives.  To continually deny this to our selves is to live a life of misery, and it is not necessary!

I see now that although I judged my situation then, and even my divorce as defeat, they were great teachers.  I cannot regret my journey.  I do not wish to go back.   Neither of those things make a difference in whether or not I learned something valuable.  We are constantly learning.  We only need to be aware of it.

Let go of your want to be in control and you will let go of your judgement.  Let go of your judgement and you will see things in a new light.  When you see things in a new light, new solutions will come to the surface and things will begin to make sense in a way you could not see before.

Namaste, and thank you for reading.

Messages from the Massage Table- “Red”

•June 25, 2013 • Leave a Comment

As many of you know, I experienced my official spiritual awakening while living in Texas. I was working as a full time Massage Therapist in cozy, dimly lit rooms with soft music, which is highly conducive to connecting with the spirit world.  During this time, Spirit was trying very hard to show me I could trust what I was getting, and it was in this setting that some of my most memorable readings occurred. I’ve decided to dedicate the next few posts to these instances, as people seem to really enjoy hearing these stories as much as I enjoy telling them!  You may want to check out this previous post: Messages and Massages.  It was my first ‘sign’ that something was afoot! 

Having said that, after a lifetime of thinking I was imagining everything, I was about to find out that truth was definitely stranger- and more exciting- than fiction.  Let’s see how that unfolded, shall we?

I’ll call this client, “Red.”  Red was from the east coast originally, so we got along well straight out of the gate. It was only her second session when I noticed what I have come to know as a spirit who wants to communicate. I had been diligent with my meditations, and with the help of my mentor, felt a bit more confident that what I was receiving was genuine, so I decided to interact with this energy. It was a young guy, wearing a sports jersey, who wanted Red to know he was there. In my thoughts, I told him that I had only seen her twice and did not want to scare her off with this! After all, people weren’t paying me for readings, they were coming in for massage therapy. He was reluctant to leave, so I made a deal with him. I told him if he could find a way to let me know that she wanted to hear from him, that I would pass along the message.  I honestly thought it would never happen, but as I had seen time and time again, something always happens.

Red and I somehow got on the topic of our parents. We talked about how interesting it is to be in the minority, as both of our sets of parents are still married. Then she suddenly said, “but things haven’t been the same since my brother died.”  I’m sure if she could see my face she would have thought I’d just seen a ghost, and, well, I kinda did!  I looked back to the corner where the young guy was standing, and heard, “Well? Now are you going to tell her I’m here?”  I was so taken aback, that I shook my head and said, “no!”  I just couldn’t do it.  It wasn’t for lack of belief, though. It was more my feeling that it was inappropriate. I mean, at the time, I was working for a major massage chain. Can you imagine the look on my manager’s face when my clients emerge from their massage with tales from the dead? I’m pretty sure it wouldn’t be one of wonder and amazement!  I told him I would let her know once I knew her just a little better….and that time did arrive a few weeks later. 

It was just after Thanksgiving. Red and I were a bit more acquainted with one another.  Every month she greeted me with a warm smile and I happily spent an hour working the kinks out of her neck and shoulders. We’d covered a number of subjects during our conversations, from where to find a good farmer’s market in the area to her best friend’s upcoming wedding. There was a point in our conversation that was perfect to ask that pressing question. “Do you believe in mediumship?”  Surprisingly, more often than not, the answer is ‘yes,’ as was the case with Red. I explained to her that during a previous session that the spirit of a young guy had made himself known, and that I believed it to be her brother. She was excited, so I proceeded. I gave her the information he was conveying to me, and she confirmed all of it. In every reading there is one moment that really nails it for people. In this one, it was an image her brother gave me of a perfectly set Thanksgiving table, complete with turkey and candles lit, but with no one sitting around it. So I asked her, “Did you cook and set your Thanksgiving table even though you spent that day alone?” She laughed and said, “Yes, I did.”  So I continued, “Because he’s showing me the table, all done up, and did you actually light candles and everything?”  She laughed harder, confirming once again, that she had done just that! Red may have thought she spent the holiday alone, but her brother made it clear that he was with her that Thanksgiving. 

 

 

What happens during a reading?

•May 9, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Since I have decided to start offering readings again, I thought it might be useful to offer some basic information about my process, so you may better understand how I work.

Not all mediums and psychics work the same way.

How we receive information is quite individual and much more than your stock answer – clairvoyance, clairaudience and clairsentience. Here’s what’s happening with me during a reading.  First, when you make an appointment with me, know that it’s a partnership- both here and in the Spirit world. My part in this partnership is the commitment of my time and my commitment to Spirit to help them bring their messages through. Your part in the partnership is also a time commitment– bear in mind that having that appointment is like a target for your Spirit people. It gives them a time and a space where they can focus their energy so they can reach you. They begin working on this as soon as you make your appointment with me!  The other important component in our partnership is for you to be open, which helps your Spirit People connect with both you and I. Your openness provides an open channel for them to enter our energy fields and work with us to communicate.

How the communication works:

The first pieces of information that I receive usually have to do with identity. In a sense, they introduce themselves to me. I receive information about their appearance, relationship to you and their personality or character traits. This is how it would be if I met them here, except the way I receive it is very different.  The way I ‘hear’ is much like the voice in your mind that appears when you are silently reading. It’s not audible to the ears, it’s almost like a very loud thought… that I wasn’t actively thinking. I actually just relax and stop thinking, creating an invitation for the information to drop right in. When I ‘see,’ it is much like the way you’d see something in your mind’s eye when someone tells you a story and you picture it.  The Spirit People will also use their energy to pull up memories of mine that relate to what they are trying to get across, the same way you might try to get your point across by comparing it to something your friend has already experienced. During the reading, I may ask you a question or two that pertains to the information I”m getting, purely as confirmation that I am getting it clearly. They sometimes will use symbols that I do not understand, but that YOU do. For example, during one reading, I received a very strong image of a daisy. I told my client this and asked if it was her favorite flower, to which she replied, “No, it’s what we called her! That’s amazing!”  In that case, the message wasn’t clear to me, but crystal clear to the sitter.

I continue to bounce back and forth between all of my psychic senses until I’ve received the message the Spirits want to convey.  Occasionally, my grandmother will pop in and act as an ambassador!  It’s quite comical. She’s like my spiritual sidekick.  Once, during a reading, I heard her say, “she is very nervous, but it’ll be okay,” referring to my client as she was coming into the reading.  My grandmother knows I am highly empathic, and sometimes cannot distinguish my own feelings from those of the people around me, and in this way she is very helpful when she chimes in.

When you are open to Spirit, each day is an adventure.

Oh… if people could only know what goes on inside my mind and energy field all day, they’d understand why I am so inclined to be in a more peaceful environment, with as little chaos as possible. My ‘internal dialog’ is never-ending, AND it’s not just between me and myself, so you can only imagine the conversations going on in there at any given point. I truly am a satellite for Spirit. My lack of ego is often mistaken for low-self-esteem, when in reality, it’s simply the nature of my soul to always be in a position of service. Being of service means you set your own needs aside.  It’s not that I do not care about myself, it’s that my commitment to my soul’s work is paramount. My physical self sometimes can suffer if I don’t keep this in mind, but in no way do I suffer from low-self-esteem!  Actually, I think I’m pretty awesome, humbly speaking, of course.

If you would like a reading, please email me at healingstarspirit@yahoo.com. I prefer to do readings via Skype, as it doe not require any travel time (so distance is not an issue for either of us). If you are in the Boston area, I can make arrangements to meet you at an agreed upon location. My availability is limited, so if you do book time, please be respectful of this and have the courtesy to keep the appointment unless it is absolutely necessary to cancel it. I require a 48-hour notice for cancellation.  Bear in mind, I never know what is going to happen during a reading until is happens, so I cannot make any guarantees regarding the information or people who will come through to you. Spirit is in control of my sessions. I am simply the instrument. FYI, I do not work with predicting future events or finding lost objects. My work is strictly as a medium or channel, meaning I am like a telephone. I can only relay what the People tell me. The messages that come through are determined by them! If you are looking for someone who does that type of work, I will happily refer you to someone who can help you.

Many Blessings and thank you for reading!

Spirit is always watching

•April 9, 2013 • 2 Comments

Tuning into your loved ones in Spirit is as easy as thinking of them.  People always ask me, “do they hear me when I talk to them?”  The answer is YES!  Your loved ones are always listening. Your thoughts send out a sort of ‘bat signal’ to them, and they do respond.  Talking to Spirit is easy, but listening is another story!

Spirit is always watching!

Spirit is always watching!

Sometimes when our loved ones reach out to us, it’s subtle- almost too subtle. It’s easy to write it off as imagination or coincidence. I’ll give an example from my own life to sort of illustrate this.

On one particular day while I was still living in San Antonio, I had been driving around talking to my Spirit People (so yes, if you see me talking while I’m alone in my car, I’m not talking to myself…well, not always!) My time there was rough and I had many challenges. As I put out my own ‘bat signal,’ I pulled into the parking lot of a local strip mall. Once I was out of my car, of course, I had to stop talking out loud, but my thoughts were still emitting a signal.  As we all do, I asked Spirit for guidance and support through the rough patch I was going through. As I wandered through the aisles, sliding the hangers back and forth looking for something pretty to cheer me up, it happened. I hadn’t noticed there was any music playing in the store at all, when suddenly I heard, “I need a sign to let me know you’re here.”  It was “Calling All Angels,” by Train. I smiled to myself and thought, ‘are you kidding me?’  That was my sign. I had, in fact, been calling in all of my Angels.  The song continued, “I need to know that things are gonna look up.”  That, my friends, was Spirit at work.

Spirit knows what you pay attention to, and they work with your subconscious mind to draw your attention to things. Many times, my eyes will be drawn toward a particular object, photo or a particular area of a room.  Sometimes it’s because an actual Spirit person is trying to manifest in a specific spot.  Other times it’s super obvious, like the actual photo of the person who is trying to communicate.

The key to receiving communication from Spirit is

to be in the habit of  ‘noticing.’

When I use the term, ‘noticing,’ I am referring to the practice of letting go of your conscious thought patterns and simply allowing yourself to be drawn to things. In order to become used to allowing that unconscious part of your mind to communicate with you, you must master the art of meditation.  If you never have a moment during your waking hours that is free of all noise, you will undoubtedly miss out on the subtleties of Spirit communication.

Meditation doesn’t have to be serious. It can happen when you are doing something that is fairly routine and mundane, requiring very little of your focus. Many times I will slip into a meditative state during my outdoor walks, or doing the dishes! The task occupies your ‘busy mind,’ allowing your unconscious mind to become more open and aware.

Your unconscious mind is like a meek, little child,

waiting for the chance to be heard,

but somehow always standing in line

behind the noisier parts of us,

hence it very rarely gets the chance to be heard.

Sitting quietly for just a few minutes a day and allowing yourself to just ‘be’ in the moment is the first step to giving that little child a chance to speak. It is really important that you do not try to distinguish between what is real and what is imagined. That is a function of the conscious mind, which is supposed to be taking a back seat during this process. That’s not to say you’re going to be in a trance, more like instead of being so active in the ‘conversation,’ you’re simply listening without analyzing.

I love to share the experiences I have, involving my grandmother, because over the years she’s become very good at playing with me, and surprising me with her cleverness. One night before bed, as is my custom, I was speaking to her and telling her about my day.  Some odd things had happened, and my analytical mind was racing. After I was finished with my rant, I quieted my thoughts and took a few deep breaths. In my mind’s eye, I saw an image of a little bunch of hydrangea flowers. I didn’t know what it meant, but as with all communication from Spirit, it is not always a logical process. I saw her face in my mind’s eye, smiling and nodding, which told me that it was simply a message to take with me, without interpretation.

The next day, I felt the urge to go to the cemetery. As I was driving, I felt this strong pull to visit my great-grandmother’s grave first. It was subtle. I simply saw the headstone in my mind and from experience, I knew I needed to go there first. I walked over and said my hello’s and goodbye’s, and on the way back to the car, eyes on the ground wiping away some tears of love, I saw a little bunch of hydrangea flowers. It was from an artificial arrangement that somehow found itself blown directly in my path, right?  If that’s what you think, you haven’t been reading!  I laughed and the tears stopped. I bent down to pick it up, thinking to myself, “I’ll bring this over to her and lay it on her grave, but it would be nice to have something for my grandfather too.”  No sooner had the thought arose in my mind, that I looked about a foot further and saw another bunch of hydrangea. Now I was really laughing.

I walked over to the grave and placed the two bunches in front of the headstone with a smirk, and said, “So you think you’re pretty smart, don’t you?”

Yes, she does. She really does. 🙂

A Sign from above.

A Sign from above.

Even Walls Fall Down

•March 3, 2013 • 1 Comment

Dedicated to all of you who struggle between your bridges and boundaries.

May Love find its way above, below, around or even better,

break through your walls.~

Recently I had one of those ‘getting a message’ moments. It was about a month and a half ago while I was sitting on the couch, watching a movie. The movie was Super 8, and without getting into the details of the plot, I’ll tell you the most pertinent part of this moment had to do with the lead character, Joe, who in one particular scene is speaking about his recently deceased mother.  The line speaks for itself, and I can tell you that in that split second when my mind was processing what he was expressing, it hit me like a ton of bricks because it is something I know well:

“She used to look at me… this way, like really look…

and I just knew I was there… that I existed.”

I know this feeling. I know other people know it too. It is so powerful when someone really sees You- through all of your weakness, flaws, mistakes, imperfections, and truly sees You. I began thinking of some of the amazing people who have gifted me with those precious few moments of being ‘seen.’ Then I remembered the times when I have given that same gift to others. Being able to connect to another human being on a deep, intimate level is a basic need for all of us.  In those moments I found absolute freedom.

But Spirit wasn’t finished with the message just yet.

This past week,  every morning I woke up with the same song in my head-   “Walls,” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers.  It was featured in the movie, “She’s the One,” back in 1995, starring Ed Burns, Cameron Diaz and Jennifer Aniston.

“All around your island there’s a barricade

that keeps out the danger but holds in the pain.”

There is nothing more beautiful than a naked soul, standing before you.  And for me, there is nothing more painful than a wall, especially when it goes up right in front before me, without warning.  As a sensitive person, I feel more than other people feel, and it’s not something that can be explained. Being empathic and able to ‘see’ people, is even more difficult because it magnifies things.

I’ve struggled with balancing my boundaries and bridges my entire life. The only way I’ve been able to keep that balance is this:

I don’t have walls. I have windows.

I’ll let you see inside. I’ll even let you knock. In the act of ‘seeing’ you, I see me. It’s an exchange, and in that exchange, I let you ‘see’ me too. I’ve tried building my own Wall, but I found it  isolated and hurt me more than it protected me. I will say this-  it’s not easy having a nature and abilities such as mine.   There is a large part of me who needs someone who can ‘see’ me back for more than that brief moment. But maybe, having that desire is motivation that keeps me open and ready to help others who need to be ‘seen.’

For those of you struggling with your past hurts, I urge you to work on healing them rather than preserving them behind your walls. You have no idea who or what might be standing right in front of you that could be the very thing you need to feel safe and happy.

“Even walls fall down.”

Take a few minutes to check out this video from Amanda Palmer of the Dresden Dolls. I had the honor of watching her work as the 8-foot bride when I worked in Harvard Square, and I saw firsthand the power of ‘being seen.’

Reaching out to Spirit

•January 13, 2013 • 2 Comments

Those of you who know me, know that in June 2012, my grandfather passed on to the Other Side. It was like the end of an era for my family, and although we know he’s ‘Home’ with my grandmother now, our sadness has not yet dissipated.  About a week later, I moved into the space downstairs in our house where he lived with us for over 20 years. It wasn’t long before I realized that this area is the heart of the house and I’ll explain what I mean by that.

I believe that each structure- school, church, home or otherwise- has a ‘heart,’ a specific area where Spirit energy can enter and gather. In this house, it is the area around the fireplace and the room where my grandfather slept. It sounds cliche, but it is right next to the boiler room!  When I first moved into the space, every night I was awoken by some sort of Spirit activity. I won’t go into detail, but not all of it was good. I spent a lot of time clearing the space using prayer, sage and the methods taught to me as a minister of Our Lord & Lady of the Trinacrian Rose.  It took a little while, but things finally calmed down and I gained a level of control over the ‘opening’ that I sensed was in that particular spot. I also set up an ‘altar for the dead,’ which is a shelf above the fireplace with the photos of my loved ones that have passed on, along with illustrations of the Archangels, many 7-Day candles, some crystals and of course, a small candle lit for each of them, placed just in front of their respective photos.

A photo of my grandmother on her wedding day, pinning a flower on my great-grandmother.

A photo of my grandmother on her wedding day, pinning a flower on my great-grandmother.

This was done as a sign of respect and rememberance- and when you are as sensitive as I am to energy of all kinds, it is important to acknowledge and respect it. It’s sort of like having a house guest that you continually ignore, walking by and going about your business. Most of the time, all Spirit seeks is recognition. They aren’t much different than the rest of us here in the physical world.

Last night, I was dog-sitting for my brother’s dog, Rocky.

This is Rocky. He's such a cutie pie.

This is Rocky. He’s such a cutie pie.

He’s a very cute little guy, and not used to being in his crate at night, he was making it known by barking and scratching. I decided he should come sleep downstairs with me. I used my comforter to make him a little bed and he settled in for the night, next to my bed.  I should mention that in a reading I had a couple of months ago with my dear friend and talented medium, Jackie Waitkus, my grandfather came through to mention, very specifically, my brother’s dog, Rocky. He said that when the dog growls or seems to be looking at something that isn’t there, it’s him, playing games with the dog.  I had known there was an energy afoot because my tell-tale is that my hands will vibrate, and they were definitely buzzing. And here I was with Rocky right next to me. I noticed he was sniffing at the air and growling at the door to the bedroom and I knew exactly what was happening. I was getting validation from my grandfather, himself.  I told him I knew he was there and to please stop making the dog crazy because it was so late.  Rocky seemed to settle down and I decided to snap a photo of him, as he lay there so sweetly.

What I saw on my screen as I snapped the photo shocked me. Although nothing appeared in the photo, as the flash lit up the room for that split second before the photo was taken, there were a bunch of flying orbs all over! I thought I was seeing things, so I tried again, and again there they were! I could only see them on the screen with the light from the flash, so I had to find a way to keep it on. I decided to take a video and see if that would work…and work it did!

As I was ‘playing’ with the energy that was literally flying around the room, I made no assumptions, and simply interacted with it. To be honest I’m not sure who this energy was, but it felt very light and playful, almost angelic. I had been speaking to my angels and receiving messages that they were surrounding me with their love and protection, so I believe this was a validation of that message as well. Here is the video. Please excuse the clutter in my bedroom. I didn’t get up to clean before I filmed this! Also, there is a movie playing in the background. It’s actually ‘Always,’ which is a story about a man who dies (the engine on his aircraft catches on fire and explodes) and comes back to help his friends and say goodbye to his lady. Coincidence? I think not. Watch very closely. It happens at least 4 times, particularly right after I ask for it to fly by my hand.

The Spirit World is closer than you think! BELIEVE! And remember that when you ask for help, you are always answered, although it may not be the way you expected it. No prayer ever goes unanswered.

To be or not to be…who you really are

•December 11, 2012 • Leave a Comment

It’s the one thing we long for and fear at the same time- to be a totally naked soul, revealed and shining before the world.  Each of us has a secret desire to just be who we are without all of the constraints, masks, and roles we assign to our different ‘selves.’ I’ve spoken about this before, but it bears repeating because it is such an important spiritual lesson to be learned.

Not only do we want to be revealed for who we are, we have a deep desire to be accepted and absolutely loved as our true selves.  Every day we tell lies, pretending to be one thing or another to those around us and to ourselves. We pile on thick layers of makeup, designer clothing, or even a uniform.

“If anyone knew who I really am, no one would like me.”

Who among us hasn’t heard that thought, echoing through their mind?  It’s a game we play with ourselves. One of my favorite quotes of all time comes from author and speaker, Marianne Williamson and is as follows:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?”

I am here to tell you that you are a beautiful soul, and nothing will ever be able to cover up who you truly are to those who see through the eyes of the heart. It is an amazing thing to look into the eyes of another human being and recognize the struggle to be or not to be who they really are inside. To see your fellow human beings not as the roles they play or the outfit they chose to wear that day, but as souls on a journey is an amazing feeling. I know because I have felt this very feeling. In my quiet moments, I look around and I see beautiful souls, wandering around, searching for their place, and in some cases their own identity. It is humbling, and it can open your heart in a way that you may not expect.

“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” ~Plato

In all that you do, the most important thing to remember is that you are not alone. You are surrounded by people who come into your life for a reason- without a doubt. You are also walking with Spirit, whether you are aware of it or not.

Engage in life’s mysteries. Seek out teachers who are willing to share their knowledge, and know that you, too, are also their teacher. We gain nothing by hiding underneath our beds, only peeking out from the duvet from time to time. Don’t be afraid of who you are.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Magic is Always Afoot…

•December 10, 2012 • 1 Comment

You thought I was gone, didn’t you? 🙂 No, no, my dear readers. As all of us with spiritual paths know, there comes a time when we have to take a step back from our work, and experience more of our lives in the physical world. Admittedly, this is a difficult and sometimes terrifying thing. This physical form has such power, and yet is so vulnerable. I often ask my Guides, “why did I come here?”  It’s always the same answer.  Our experiences here are so important to the growth of our souls. We choose it so we may continue on our journey back to Source.

The subject of Magic is one that always seems to cause controversy. I mean, 20 people were murdered for suspected ‘witchcraft,’ right here in Salem, Massachusetts, not too long ago. It has always been my position that Magic is very personal thing, as are our beliefs in the here and now and the Afterlife. From a human perspective, we only have access to some of the information….or so we think.

Call it what you will- Magic, The Craft, Intuition, Intention, sending out your energy to the Universe, picking up on vibes…it is all the same. We are reaching out with senses that we have been taught we do not have. From a scientific perspective, it is very difficult to say what is ‘real,’ and what is not. While modern advances and quantum theory has brought us a long way, we are still looking at the whole of the Universe through very limited eyes.  Everything may, indeed, be explained as natural, that is, following the laws of the Universe. But do we really know the entirety of what we are dealing with here?

Psychic experiences and otherworldly visitors have always been a part of the human experience. We come here to forget, but many of us retain some of our ability to sense beyond the 5 senses we use to perceive the world. This is our Magic. This is our Medicine. All of us are unique. All of us are special. Cliches become the things we associate them with, and words quickly lose their meaning. Don’t let this happen to you. Remember that all that we see is not all that there is. Invite in the idea that you may not know everything. Be a revolutionary. Be weird. Be the ‘you’ that you fear most!

There will be much more to come by way of my posts, but this is a warm-up, since I have been so far away for so long, at least metaphorically speaking. 🙂

What is your Magic?

The Longest Day of the Year

•June 20, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Happy Summer Solstice to those of you who celebrate!  From here on out, the days will slowly become shorter until the Winter Solstice in December….and yes, we will make it there!

When we think of the Sun, we think of the world illuminated by it, and the powerful energy that allows for all vegetation to grow. Yellow is a color that makes us think of things like baby chicks, smiley faces and general happiness. And while all of this is part of our reality, so is the darkness.

My People have been pretty loud lately regarding the power of the darkness, the void, and the quietness within ourselves. It seems that this part of ourselves, which some call ‘the shadow,’ has been neglected by a great many people. There is a sadness associated with this refusal to see this part of ourselves. It’s the part of us we reject, or deem unlovable. It’s the part of us that we hide because we don’t want anybody to see it. It’s also a part of ourselves that we think of as separate from the ‘other’ parts of ourselves. In essence, we’ve turned ourselves into a mosaic, a stained glass window, where some parts of us are allowed to shine in the light while others are covered so no one will ever see.

It takes such strength and courage to even take a peek at this part of ourselves. And I’ve got news for you- it’s not something that can be compartmentalized and shoved aside as most of us may think it can. It permiates us with its energy the way all energy moves through us. How foolish can we be to think we could take a piece of ourselves, judge it and throw it away.

So many people are in a place in their lives that feels ‘stuck’ right now. There’s a reason for it.  The world is changing. The energy is changing. Those of us who value the opinion of society are becoming outnumbered by those of us who value the good of humanity. Call it what you will, call me what you will, this is happening.  This is why so many of us are in uncomfortable situations right now.

In order for something new to happen, something old must first fall away.

Take, for example, an old building that is no longer stable. This is the state of some of our lives right now. We can continue to patch up the holes or put up the scaffolding, but nothing can prevent its final collapse. This is not a doomsday prophesy, it is the path to illumination!  First, we must find the courage to tear down this structure. That takes work. Even physical buildings don’t just tear themselves down!  It takes a wrecking ball!  For some of us, that wrecking ball comes in the form of a failed relationship, an illness, or a loss of a job. Once the structure has been torn down, the rubble must be cleared away. Large vehicles show up to carry it out, and it can take many to collect the debris. In our lives, this part of the process takes place by going within- which is where I ask my readers to follow me at this time. It’s where we take a look at the faulty wiring that lead us to believe the building would always be safe and stable, or the corrosion that we refused to acknowledge so we could continue to live in ignorance that our house was not falling down.

This is the hardest of all the stages to go through. The house being torn down, well, that seems hard, but when we have to take a hard look at the materials that built it we truly see for the first time that something has to change. Then we can begin  to rebuild our ‘house.’

My dearest readers, hard as it may be to imagine, I do love all of you. I love you for your struggles and the way you fight through your tears to make it through to the end. I love you for your courage to explore the unknown and the meaning behind things that mainstream society simply does not understand. And most of all, I love you for your ability to reach into your hearts and keep going– helping others as well as yourself throughout the process.

The Dark Night of the Soul, as it is sometimes called, is not the end, and it is not a black hole that will suck you down. It is simply an opportunity to shine light on an area of yourself that you have left in the dark, neglected, and unloved.

I rarely recommend any kind of ritual, but I wanted to mention one of my very dear friends, Carol Woodliff, who is a trained Shamanic Practitioner, Intuitive and author.   She offers her services to those who are seeking to look within and let go. You may feel like you are at the very bottom of a well, and can see only a tiny sphere of light above, but with some help, you can begin to rise through your fears and limitations and move back toward the light. Through a ‘Despacho Ceremony’ she will help you create a prayer bundle containing your intentions, issues and blessings of gratutide, to help you move forward, through the darkness. She is a nurturing, loving and kind soul, whose only motivation is to help people. I adore her, and if you get a chance to work with her, you will too.  Please check out her website and explore at http://www.carolwoodliff.com 

And you can be sure she will be a guest on an upcoming show in the very near future! In the meantime, check out the archives by visiting: Confessions of a Spirit Messenger, on BlogTalkRadio.

A Message of Self-Forgiveness from Sparrow

•May 26, 2012 • Leave a Comment

On last week’s Blog Talk Radio show, I talked about our friends in the animal kingdom acting as messengers from Spirit, and asked my listeners to pay attention to what they saw for the upcoming week. I noticed many sparrows around, so this post will focus on the message from Sparrow- using my favorite deck, “Bird Signs: Guidance & Wisdom from our Feathered Friends,” by G.G. Carbone, illustrated by Mary Ruzicka.

According to the deck, Sparrow is the medicine of forgiveness.  Usually when we think of forgiveness, we think about others who we feel have hurt or offended us, but in my case, the message of self-forgiveness.  Sparrow was pointing out that until I forgave myself for the things that I was beating myself up about, I would not move forward.

The funny thing about Spirit, is that when you ask for an answer, it always arrives in  a way that you will notice.  If for some reason you are not ready to hear the answer, Spirit will not give up.  It’s as easy as paying attention, and then doing a little homework to find out more about the clever messenger Spirit sent your way. In this case, Spirit heard my thoughts about where I am in my life and my feelings of being stuck in place and literally sent a messenger from the sky to show me the way. How amazing is that?

What messengers are being sent to answer your questions?

Walking Your ‘Right’ Path

•May 14, 2012 • Leave a Comment

My mission as a Spirit Messenger, has always been to help others on their own path. While there are some universal truths that I’ve spoken about often on my show, there are other truths that are individual and cannot be labeled or judged as right or wrong. Today’s wisdom comes from one of my People. His words are always simple, and although they seem straight-forward, many times they are meant to be picked up and put in your pocket as a pebble on the road, and pulled out at a later time when they will suddenly have a world of meaning you did not anticipate.

Personal truth is the highest calling for many of us. We do not seek to compete, compare or convince. We simply seek to live our personal truth in a way that is fulfilling and does no harm to others.

Having said that, there are many who will be threatened by the very sight of you living your personal truth. Be prepared for this, and ask for guidance when you encounter beings who feel this way- human or otherwise- that appear along the path.

There is a distinct difference between something that appears in your path as a challenge for you to overcome, an obstacle for you to move, or a piece of scenery that is meant for you only to see as a learning experience. Learn to recognize these things for what they are and you will move through your lessons at the speed of lightening, evolving much more quickly than those who remain asleep.

The path you are walking is uniquely yours, and although you will meet many who are walking in the same general direction, there will be many variations. Sometimes you will need to guide others, and sometimes you will need to continue to be present in their lives only as an example.

Be kind and respectful when you see someone who is struggling with their truth.  Patience is a gift to yourself as well as to those you meet. It is through patience that you will learn to see the folly in your methods of problem-solving, because we often jump to a conclusion that is not connected to the actual problem at hand.

Learn to listen to the heartbeat of your fellow man and animals. There is wisdom in the pulse and energy of every heart. It is the heart that is the key to unlocking the mind, and not the opposite.

Thank you for reading these words. If you would like help with receiving insight on your path, please email me at healingstarspirit@yahoo.com

Namaste to you, meaning:  

The Divine in me, recognizes and honors the Divine in you. 

Can Truth Really Be As Simple As Facts and Figures?

•April 21, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Recently I have been gifted with the challenge of being around some very logical, linear people, who do not seem to understand me at all– big shocker, right? These are the kinds of people who require facts, timelines, references etc, in order to accept anything as truth. Let me also add, that some ‘facts’ turn out not to be actual facts in the long run.

To these people I say this– there are many ways to perceive truth beside intellectually. Those of us who are psychically open, receive our information by letting go of the conscious mind and allowing other areas of our minds to open up. I know this firsthand. I could equate it to typing a term into Google. You ask the question and see what you get. Period. The end. That’s the whole point of being a receiver.

There exists a language beyond words, which we are all capable of speaking, hearing and understanding.  This is the place where I live, and it is a deeply satisfying place to be. 

You will not find me in a debate over… well, anything.  I am terrible with memorizing facts- which incidentally I find quite boring and meaningless, and I have very little interest in what passes for journalism, as I am well-aware from my background that most of what is presented is created, not actually reported. Not to mention the countless ‘studies’ that are run by people with a huge stake in the outcome, so really, how can I ever really fully embrace any of this as truth?   A doctor can use a large piece of equipment to scan my body, and for all I know it could just be a hollow prop that makes noise. After all, I don’t understand the workings of such things. And when the scan comes in, how do I know it’s mine or that what I’m being told is accurate?  Unless I have firsthand knowledge of the subject, I’m left to trust that I’m being told the truth.  So, you see my issue with this, yes?

Maybe it’s just my personal bug-a-boo, but I’ve often found that language is as much a barrier to communication as it is actual communication! Definitions and labels are limiting and create confusion because we assume that we understand each other’s definitions when we use certain concepts and words. Hence, trying to explain this concept would further muddy the waters!

Let me take it one step further. Let’s say we’re having a conversation and I tell you that I’m in love. Would you accept this as true or would it be something you’d feel the need to question because you need it to fit into your own personal defnition of what it means to be in love?  And, if that’s the case, would that make my truth…untrue? What if I told you a certain man or woman was absolutely lovely?  Would this also pose a problem?  How about listening to a beautiful piece of music?  Truth is not based on facts. It is based on perception. I own my truth, and it is not up for debate.

Truth is not based on supposed facts.  Truth is a personal experience. 

Truth is a passionate pursuit of mine, but I do not run around trying to pursuade people to believe what I believe. Why? Well, the word ‘believe’ in and of itself poses a problem here to begin with, but put that aside for a moment and humor me. Personal experience equals personal truth. I cannot convince you what is true, because the only real truth I know comes from my own experiences.  Unless you are able to slip into my skin and travel with me through my experiences, you have no business judging (or maybe you call it interpretting) my truth and I cannot tell you yours.

Human beings love to argue, limit, label, and they revel in the pursuit of being correct. But guess what? In many cases, we will never be ‘correct.’ New information that is perceived by way of our senses, or even technological instruments are changing the face of truth minute-by-minute. Even then, much of what our culture decides is true, is actually just a judgment based on a set of information that someone interpretted, based on his or her own viewpoint…and/or experience.

So why not bask in the glory of the present, and let go of the argument about what is right and what is wrong?  Why not be open to understanding the thoughts, feelings and conditions of one another as human beings and leaving it at that?  I mean, wars are fought over this stuff! And for what? In the end, it’s only our egos that are seeking to be satisfied.  And guess what?  Ego is the very part of ourselves that tells us ‘bigger, better, faster, more!’

Call it a philosophy or perspective, but this is the place I speak from when it comes to ‘truth.’

Find the quiet place within. Stop fighting the intuitive mind. Release your urge to qualify and quantify everything you see around you. Learn the art of quieting the conscious mind and find your freedom there.  When you do this, you learn to listen with a different sense. Give it a try, you might enjoy it.

It’s the Same in Any Language

•March 11, 2012 • Leave a Comment

“It’s the same in any language. A brother is a brother, if there’s one thing I know. It’s the same in any language- wherever you go.”  

~ from “Same in Any Language, written by Nancy Wilson

One of the most powerful things you will ever come to recognize is that no matter what culture, continent or otherwise, people are people.  It’s something we seem to easily forget. Fortunately, there are reminders all around us if we have our eyes open!

It truly is the same in any language, wherever you go.  Human beings all have the same basic needs.

We all want to be loved without conditions.

We all want to be accepted.

We all want to feel needed.

Recently I attended an AA meeting in support of someone close to me. It was an ‘open meeting,’ meaning that anyone can attend, not only those who are part of the program.  I was welcomed by many warm, smiling faces as if I were family. After the announcements, a series of people who were invited to speak at the meeting came up one at a time to share their stories with us.

As I listened to the stories of these souls who not only survived some very difficult times, but were willing to open up and share their journey with everyone there, I began to realize something.  I wasn’t alone in my struggles in life. While I may not have a problem with substance abuse, I am not immune to the human emotions that each of these speakers expressed through their stories. Each of the speakers’ stories had a running theme. Each one had to admit they needed help, and ask for it– which is no easy task in any circumstances for most of us.

I believe that simply having a forum to express our pain is healing. American society conditions us to keep our problems to ourselves. Happiness is the only emotion we’re allowed to express freely without question. After all, if we’re not happy, something must be very wrong with us, right?  Opening up and sharing our experiences bonds us together, and helps us to realize that we are not alone, regardless as to how your internal issues manifest physically. So why do we hide ourselves from one another and our own selves?

Whether the pain in your life manifests as physical pain, depression, anxeity, or a substance abuse problem, it all starts with the same basic human needs not being filled. Loving and supporting one another is the highest order we have here in this existence.

We are all human, and LOVE is our universal language. 

 If you or someone you know has a problem with an addiction, please take the time to get to know AA and what it can do to help: www.aa.org  Help is out there, so please don’t be afraid to reach out for it.

Discovering who we are IS the journey.

•March 3, 2012 • 1 Comment

I’ve waited a long time to share these thoughts and messages from the Spirit World, not because I have difficulty with expressing them, but because they are some of the most powerful truths I’ve received. What do I mean by that?  Well, it’s simple, really. The more truth something holds, the more it takes for our human minds to absorb and assimilate the information. Why?  Because our lives are filled with messages from so many places, telling us what is and what isn’t that when we finally witness real truth, it is often in major conflict with the things we’ve accepted as ‘reality,’ or our own truth.

I’ve had some time to commune with Spirit during this dark time in my life- and don’t take that as a negative, because it’s not. It is merely the dark night of the soul, which is a necessary part of the journey, offering us the opportunity for growth and learning. Truth can happen upon us at any time.  You can be in line buying cough syrup, driving home late at night, or in the middle of a conversation with a complete stranger when you suddenly have an ‘a-ha’ moment. How it happens isn’t nearly as important as the moment itself.

For most of my life I’ve struggled with my ‘gifts’ and with my truth, constantly trying to define them, then satisfied with a definition for a period of time, it would suddenly melt into something else– blurring the lines once again. And as is often the case, in my struggle to understand, I was over-thinking things when I should have just turned inward. In a moment of quiet, I finally asked the question.  The big one.  The answer to why I feel so alone, so isolated, and yet in the company of others I feel so much. I asked why all around me there were people who said ‘be self-sufficient,’ and ‘you are all you need,’ and yet those statements dishonored all of the precious connections (not attachments) to the world and all of its miracles around me.  Why is it that people say, “all you need is love,” and yet it makes no sense in the context of society and the world we’ve created around us. I felt a distinct separation between my human self and the experiences I’m having in the world, and my higher-self or soul, and how She sees the world through different eyes. This has been my struggle. A battle of the lower and higher self.  They each speak with equally loud voices, and appear to compete for my ultimate view of life, but there is one difference. The voice of the higher self never argues or speaks out against the ego/lower self. It may appear to disagree, but it never lashes out. It is loving and although it is not superior in the traditional use of the word, it does have a higher perspective and speaks to us in our hearts when we are ready to hear it speak. Here is what mine had to say.

“All the gurus tell us we must learn to love our selves. I tell you I do! I love the part of myself in each person I see around me. If each of us is only looking in a mirror each time we see one another, then all that we send out is truly being sent out to our own selves. I see in one, a fear of love, which I can only recognize because I know it within myself. I see in your eyes beauty and tenderness because I recognize them as my own eyes. Each person I fall in love with is a small piece of myself that I cannot see until I see it looking back at me and I recognize it. With every new lover I meet, I see and love myself more. I am looking for me in their eyes. In essence this life limits our viewpoint of the vastness of ourselves, forcing us together to fulfill that longing to know ourselves once more. We spend our lives looking for our seemingly ‘missing pieces’ which are always there but are hard to see in this existence. The meaning of life is simple. We come here to experience ourselves through each other.”

The multitude of issues I had with the concept of what we are doing here, seem to be satiated by these words, but the conscious mind likes to counter with its limited perspective, so I had to know more. Why is it that we are told (by the gurus) that we are powerful beings that can manifest everything and can create our lives when all of the incoming information from our world tells us quite the opposite?  And why is it that most of us cannot simply sit and will things into being if the former is the case?

“The trouble with manifestation (as you understand it) is that it only concerns the conscious mind. We are always in control, but the conscious mind doesn’t have absolute power and control. Cultivate a relationship between the intuitive mind and the thinking mind and you see a clearer picture. This is why we cannot will something with our conscious mind at times. Because the conscious mind is not working alone and is not the supreme authority.”

Many of you have identified with me as more of a medium and while I have that ability to do so, it is only a very tiny facet of what I’m doing here. In fact, there are so many others here with this gift that I’d be doing an injustice to limit myself to that role. My true gift is to help humanity understand the bigger picture by being an example, and aligning myself with my higher self, as well as communing with the Spiritual realm.  I do not do this work alone. There are many like me who are part of the same energy, moving people in the direction of evolving their souls.

People who know me, know that this is not something I turn off and on.  At times I give it more focus than others, but it is always there, just beneath the surface. Why?  Because it is who I am, and through going within, and by coming into contact with all of the many people who have come and gone in my life, I have seen myself.

Start seeing life as an opportunity for discovering yourself. Meditate as often as you can to connect more fully with your higher self.  Lastly, allow that higher self to engage the ego/lower self in a student-teacher relationship. This will undoubtedly turn your world perspective around!

Believe in yourself. Own your Truth. And as always, walk in the light of Spirit, with one foot in each world. Namaste.

 
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