Walking with Spirit by your side, as you continue your journey.
Today, Spirit wants me to pass on a message to my readers:
Your spiritual path and purpose are not a separate part of your life that is floating around, waiting for you to notice it. It is an integral part of you, and you are living it every day.
Having shared that, here’s a little update on my own spiritual path and progress.
My move to Florida to build a new life from a fresh start has challenged me to remember this very thing. I’m still in the process of looking for a full time job, which is a job in and of itself. In the interim, I’ve been very actively meditating and talking to my People in Spirit about my new life and what my Human self can do to move the process along. I’ve been instructed to work on making friends with my body, and to work toward making it healthier and stronger. I have physical limitations that do not allow me to just go gangbusters at the gym. In addition, I’ve not been active in a very long time, so I’m very much a beginner, all over again. My People have helped me understand that my idea of how to make my body healthier is too narrow. It doesn’t need to involve my ‘pushing’ through the pain, and going further than my body can comfortably handle. I’ve been drawn to Yoga for some time, but have held off on that too. Why? Because I couldn’t do each pose perfectly, and therefore I thought I just couldn’t do it. My People have brought this to the surface and made me see it for what it is. Fear. I’d be the first one to tell another person they don’t have to be perfect, but when it comes to myself, I show no mercy. I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve had that have allowed my fear to surface, so I can see it, understand it, and heal it. Now I do a very mild Yoga routine that may seem very easy to most people, is still quite challenging to me, but you know what? I’m okay with that.
In general, I must learn to be more gentle with myself. I admit, I am a very harsh critic. Most people have been made to cry by what others think, but I am best at making myself cry with my own hurtful thoughts– but that is part of my journey.
It’s been very interesting, just plopping myself down in a new city, and a new state, not knowing anyone and having no real plan other than ‘get a job!’ But I’m actually very comfortable with where I am. I trust Spirit. I’ve never been lead in the wrong direction when I tune in and listen to my Soul. While I know I am to work in a specific type of way with people, I’m still unsure how that process will unfold. I had thought I would be going back to school- and I still might- but I am starting to see there is more than one way and I need to stay open to that.
I’ve been guided to become a part of a community of people here that I never would have approached on my own. Typically, I like to stand at a distance first, and make sure everything looks okay before I make the decision to step into the Light, so to speak. This time the decision was easy, because it came from a higher place, and I have learned to trust it. There’s need for my brain to evaluate and overthink things, or for my mind to race through possible scenarios that I may find myself in. I listened and I stepped into my place. I’ve only been to 2 gatherings, and I’m already overwhelmed with the amazing souls I’m encountering as a result. On the way out of the last gathering, it was raining so hard that you couldn’t see the grass in some areas outside. I had no umbrella, so I just said out loud, “Oh, I’m going to get wet, but that’s okay, it’s only water.” When I turned around, the head of this organization was standing there with an umbrella for me. He said I could return it the next time I came to the center. Now let me make this clear before I say anything else- It’s not so much that I expect people will not care, it’s just that I’ve never felt the degree of openness and genuine caring for others that I’ve found here. This is another confirmation that I’m where I’m supposed to be.
Know that you are safe and being looked after, even if you are not aware of it. My wish for all of my readers is to discover their own inner voice, and to know it comes from a place of Love. Many blessings to you, and the beautiful Soul I know you are.
Confessions of a Spirit Messenger 