Give Yourself Permission to Surrender!
I know it’s been some time since I’ve posted, but life suddenly got VERY busy for me! I think what did it, was my willingness to surrender and commit to a decison that I’ve been wavering on regarding where I am in my life. Like most other people, I go through a personal minefield every day and need to make decisions on what is good, bad, ugly, beneficial, etc. As I’ve said before, I am human, and being human carries with it the condition of the mind called “overthinking!”
When I finally took a deep breath and said with conviction to my guides, and to the universe that I was willing to have faith and stop questioning everything, it suddenly happened. I started to get more massage clients- especially ones who are in tune with me, and with what I do. I got more requests and more frequent visits from those who were already my good clients. This, of course, helped me with bringing in more income for myself, which is something that is on a lot of peoples’ minds these days. I’m not immune to that. I’ve also received several calls from recruiters regarding potential job opportunities. For months I’ve received no response at all, even the places that I submitted my resume to for an actual opening. Somehow, things have gone from stuck, to moving more fluidly. Things are beginning to happen, simply through letting my true self shine through and letting go of things that I cannot control.
Most importantly, I gave myself permission to stop censoring things that I say, especially those things that are clearly from a higher source. You see, I use my ‘gift’ every single day. It’s not something I turn on and off, and it’s not just for trying to ‘speak to the dead,’ so to speak. My gift is the gift of awareness. I am aware of ‘gut feelings,’ thoughts that drop into my head from out of nowhere, and vibrational changes when someone walks into a room. I don’t go through this business of ‘tuning in’ as if it were some complicated ritual. It’s just me. Giving readings is sometimes very difficult for me because I feel as though I’m just having a conversation. The difference is that I am having a conversation that involves input from a higher place as I listen to what my clients are telling me. Whether it’s a spirit reading or a massage, there is always something else at work. This suddenly seems more evident lately. I don’t claim to be able to read peoples’ auras, or their energy, per se. I couldn’t really break it down as if it were a conscious process, because it isn’t. Trying to explain how I do what I do, would be like trying to understand why some people can play the piano flawlessly while others can only play chopsticks (and everyone has some ability to at least play chopsticks). What I do is simply listen to what my body and senses tell me. It’s sometimes a bombardment of information, depending on how open the client is. Some of my massage clients have issues they forget about or don’t know about and I am somehow able to detect them. I simply sense something is there, and start working on it. I am usually so entranced with what I’m doing that when I hear “oh, that’s tender! I had no idea there was anything wrong there!” it wakes me from my state a bit. It’s effortless for me to do this– as long as I don’t overthink things.
Whatever the issues you have in your life that you feel are out of balance or causing you distress, you can actually help yourself by letting these things go. In a recent podcast, John Holland mentioned the Serenity prayer, and made a good point. It’s known as a prayer for alcoholics, but it’s not only for those who have that particular problem. It’s for all of us.
Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
The lesson of having faith is one we all share here on this planet. There just comes a time when you have to ask yourself if struggling against the grain is worth all of the energy you’re putting into it. So much more can be gained by stepping into the flow and allowing it to take you where you need to go. Some things are yours to choose, and you will begin to realize which things they are when you surrender to the flow, because it will stop once you hit one of those points, then continue on once your decision is made.
Don’t sweat the small stuff. Recognize the beauty and perfection in things even when they seem to be dysfunctional. Remember that you are never alone.
Confessions of a Spirit Messenger 