Peace within equals peace on earth
It’s snowing outside. The kind of snow that when it falls, makes the earth seem quieter. I don’t mind the wind. I don’t mind the cold. I’m laying comfortably after a hot stone massage that helped ease my tension and for the first time in a long time I feel content. It almost brings tears to my eyes to experience such relief.
In my life, there is little time for myself. That’s not to say that I’m always around other people, but I have a terrible habit of always being in the ‘on’ position. When I’m home alone, I am on the computer updating facebook, twitter and listening to other mediums on blogtalkradio.com. I double up on that time by trying new recipes as I’m listening to those shows. On top of all of that, I’m consciously aware of spirit activity as I am always thinking, worrying or using my mental energy in some way, busy or not. It’s to the point where I am getting messages in my dreams, because I don’t have enough waking moments to process all of the incoming information.
Why do I do so much? I don’t know. I guess the only honest answer is that my awareness keeps me engaged at all times. I have to consciously ground myself with sea salt baths, self-Reiki and unfortunately with food. I’m one of those sensitive souls that uses food to bring me back into my body. When I don’t, I am in overwhelm.
On a few of my radio shows I mentioned something about this idea of sensitivity being connected to being overweight, and for many people it is a direct connection. I enrolled in Colette Baron-Reid’s “Weight Loss for People Who Feel Too Much,” and have been listening to her talk about the same things I’ve talked about. It’s not that I don’t know this stuff, but by taking this class I’m telling myself that it’s time to start paying more attention to what I already know. Old habits die hard, but it’s not about being perfect. It’s about loving yourself enough to be aware of the things you do that may be damaging to your self.
I mentioned in a previous post that my guides have been trying to tell me for years that I need to stop putting sugar, caffeine and gluten into my sensitive body. What did I do? Well I shut them up with cookies and cake. I didn’t hear them when I was busy ingesting and digesting. But I am changing. After stopping gluten from gumming up the works, I saw a shift that I cannot deny. No more swelling in my joints, or brain fog. I could see that this was right. My guides have never steered me wrong. Everything they’ve told me would be good for me to do has proven correct. It all comes down to this- none of us likes to be told what to do, even if it’s the right thing. Psychics are human too. My guides have only my best interest at heart, but I still wanted to have that illusion of being in command. Every choice you make is yours to make. This is a perfect example of my own free will at work. I am allowed by Spirit to experience the fruit of my own stubborness and stupidity. Cool, huh?
This past year has brought a lot of changes in awareness for me, and a lot of switching gears to accomodate the energy shifts that I’ve been going through. It is subtle, but I can feel it. This year, 2011 is about ceasing resistance to what I innately know is the right thing to do. No more doing things a certain way to keep everyone else around me happy. No more taking on the bullsh*t in order for someone else to avoid suffering. I mean, who made me the person responsible for the weight of the world until I break? I’ll tell ya who. It was me! And now that I can see things more clearly, it’s all gonna come to an end.
Peace within is a choice. All of what you experience in your life is a result of your choices. There are no coincidences. There are no mistakes. There are only synchronicities and possibilities. The universe supports you in all you do, including the crazy and the mundane. Being in a still environment this holiday season, if only briefly, is a great gift to me, because it’s showing me how intense my life has become as a result of my own choices. That’s not to say that there aren’t more adventures to come, but just because I sign up for something doesn’t mean I can’t change my mind, and un-sign up for it in favor of another opportunity. I used to be afraid of choices, feeling that one choice would make or break me. Now I see that each choice is just another pearl in the infinite strand of experiences that I am having in this life.
Letting go of something isn’t a loss. It’s an opportunity to make room for something new. Sometimes you have to let go of good, for great. Allowing yourself to embrace this attitude is my wish for all of you this year. Peace within, creates peace outside of yourself. Take some time to ponder this and write down your thoughts. Make a promise to yourself to stop taking on things that make you unhappy, and know that you do have that choice. Make another promise to yourself to listen to your own inner wisdom. It’s been there all along, and it will always be there. Let go of doubt, and when you feel the fear inside when faced with taking a new direction or changing course ask yourself, “what’s the worst thing that could happen.” Then answer it, and allow yourself to say, “so what?” and feel the tension melt away.
Confessions of a Spirit Messenger 